The Royal Airforce - the 90's

[LilFozzyJ5]

I found it very difficult to come to terms with my feelings when i was in. Partly as there was no internet, i had no idea that i was not alone and that these desires were ok. I was terribly fearful someone in the forces would find out.

Although i didnt have any 'baby' items... room inspections and frequent visits from others. I had a large white bath towel, and with a locked singleman room i could guiltily try to satisfy myself while constantly beating myself up over it all.

I couldnt even begin to try anything when i was in a 4 man or 16 man room... no privacy at all

[Gennie]

I had a LOT of issues during my time in the service, much of it only recently has come to light.  I'm 61 now.  For instance, we've found that I have hypothyroidism and hypogonadism.  Also, I was VERY late in developing, i.e., puberty, etc  In fact, it wasn't until I was in the military that I 'came of age.'

I was discharged before I had two years of service, cited as 'For the convienence of the Service.'  I was given an Honorable discharge, and had full benefits.

I found out about ABs when I moved away from home after I was discharged.  I was in Tennessee, and went into an adult book store (this was before the internet was even thought of, let alone 'home computers!) and saw a magazine entitled "Men in Diapers!" and it had a coupe of guys dressed like baby boys and thick diapers on.  I didn't even touch the magazine, let alone buy it, but something clicked in my brain and I thought 'That's what I'm supposed to be, what I'm longing for.'

After that, I found out about Sissy Boys, or boys who wanted to be girls.  The term 'transgendered' hadn't be heard of yet, although there were people undergoing GRS at the time, but few and far between.

Now, because of a woman who lied about me, big time, and filed an Order of Protection against me (not even criminal or sexual, she's just a lying bitch), I lost everything.  My job, my home, my car, all my furniture, most importantly, my CAT!  In addition to that, all of my AB stuff, as well.  Currently, I live in a Veteran's Homeless program here in Washington State.  I am also 'sometimes' incontinent, depending on how my back is doing, and the VA is paying for diapers, but what crap they are.  God, I wish I could get some ABUs, Crinkles, Dotty's or something REAL!  Of course, living in this situation, I have no ability to be a little.  My therapist knows about this, as does my primary care provider, but they're like 'Just wait until you get your own place.'  It's hard, but I haven't tried suicide in almost a year now, so I guess I'm doing better.

Thanks to Fozzy for starting this group.

Gennie
 

[steveg]

Gennie the VA has Abena l4 here in Seattle... Anyhow I am a lot like everyone else in this way I had a !over for diapers way before I left for boot in 94 this was during the dawn of the internet when we all used AOL, I even snuck a bag of depends when during A school when my room mate was gone for the weekends then I found Tommy and DPF and my whole world opened up I actually subscribed when I moved off base with my girlfriend soon to be wife but that's another story....

[LilFozzyJ5]

Hi folks, thanks for the input. I think we have just scratched the surface of military abdl stories. 

Thanks for sharing. My hope is us military types open up a bit in here and can share without judgement

[Gennie]

Steve, I sent you an message after I got your message (which give deleted), I'm very intersected in Abenas if I can get them.  I do all my stuff at American Lake, but I can get to Seattle of that's what it's takes.

I just had a colonoscopy on Monday last, and my stool is still very soft and I'm messing my diapers several times a day.  I am going to call the doc back tomorrow, since I've never had this kind of incident before.  Yeah, I like wearing diapers,  but I don't think I want to be 24/7, which is what I am right now!

 

Gennie

[Dprlvr69]

Gennie I heard that Angle fluff excepts payment from the VA.  Not sure if you like Cloth diapers or not.

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