Wannatripbaby Posted June 18, 2018 Share Posted June 18, 2018 He wheels you into class. There are several "normal" looking students as well as some with very pronounced disabilities. Including a girl in a wheelchair who, despite being older than you, has barely the mental faculties of a toddler. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 18, 2018 Author Share Posted June 18, 2018 I feel the whole class is staring at me. We are a hour late after all. I am reassure though that there are some students who 'look' like me. I look to brett. "I don't want to go." Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 18, 2018 Share Posted June 18, 2018 "It's alright. You're alright. Everything's going to be fine." He wheels you into place and the teacher continues teaching. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 18, 2018 Author Share Posted June 18, 2018 soft sobs. a few tears. First time I have been around these many people at one time. I was in therapy for about a month. I just recently got out of the hospital. The doctors said I was physically ready to go back to school with my peers. But mentally they had no 'medicine' answer, they said, "We won't know until we try it." Now here I am in the class. Confused. Scared. Alone? As these feelings of being in a room with my peers. These feelings overwhelm me. I try not to hold back. I try not to make scene. crying a little more. Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 18, 2018 Share Posted June 18, 2018 Brett motions for the teacher to continue with class and not draw attention to you. He rubs your back and whispers "It's okay. You're safe. I'm here. There's nothing to be afraid of." Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 18, 2018 Author Share Posted June 18, 2018 I really like his soft touching and rubbing my back and whisper. I can't fall for him I tell myself. The wet tears run down my face. I struggle to wipe them. "I'm sorry," i say. still a little sobbing "I can't help it." Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "It's okay, buddy." He produces a handkerchief and wipes your tears away. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 I try to calm down. Softly smile. I try to listen and understand what the teacher is saying Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "There we go." He keeps his hand on your yours as class goes on. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 Everything she says is a blur. She is teaching 9th grade math. Although I got a b- as a final grade last year. The damage to my brain is too much and I even struggle with subtraction Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "Are you doing alright, Matthew?" He whispers. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 "I don't understand a2 + b2 = c2" Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "Well here, let me help you." He explains it in a way he thinks you'll understand. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 "I don't get it" I screamed maybe a little too hard. As some students looked over at us. The whole room went kinda silent. I was so nervous. I started to cry. Some of the older boys in the back laughed Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 Brett glares at the kids in the back that snickered. "It's alright. If you can't figure it out now we can work on it later, okay? Let's just move on for now." Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 Something didn't feel right. i just continued to cry. "Im sorry I am stupid. I'm sorry I don't understand." Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "Hey now, it's okay Matthew. Nobody thinks you're stupid." He looks at the teacher "I think our little friend here could use a few minutes." He whells you out of the classroom. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 “Can we see nurse Jackie. This class is overwhelming” Being around people just too much. Too much to fast. Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "Okay. Let's go to nurse Jackie and say hi again." He begins wheeling you down the hall. Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 “I’m sorry for acting up” breaking the moment of silence between them. I just want to spend time alone with Brett get to know each other. Jackie seems cool too. I just don’t like her as much as I do Brett. As we approach the nurses station I got to thinking I wonder if he would do things that Justin does? Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 Seeing that you've calmed down a bit, he comes around in front of you before entering the Nurse's office. "Is there any particular reason you wanted to see the nurse? Because if not there are plenty of other places we can go to just chill and relax between class." Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 “I think I wet myself. I can’t feel it when I doz later I start to it. I’m sorry I feel ashamed talking about it” Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "There's no reason to feel ashamed. In fact it shows a lot of maturity that you can talk about it, Matthew." Link to comment
diaperedpup69 Posted June 19, 2018 Author Share Posted June 19, 2018 I smile. I wish I could talk about how I feel about guys. Girls seem sweet but it is something about guys, I don't know. He'll probably freak. "Thank you." Is all I could say. Link to comment
Wannatripbaby Posted June 19, 2018 Share Posted June 19, 2018 "You're welcome." He wheels you in and Nurse Jackie comes over. "Back so soon?" Link to comment
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