Need Suggestion Based On My Life

[udontneed2knw]

Okay I need some good sound advice based on my situation:

i'm a 20-somthing living off campus of my state school and I leaving by my self but the whole diaper thing has been quite bother some and I've tried a couple of times, but either out of confusion or whatever i use a couple and then I throw them out but I'm wonderin this

Schould I just keep a supply as it seems the desire just comes bac or schould i try 2 get to the root of it

see it only becomes disruptive till i drive my self crazy about having them but when I hav them and I think I'll get caught, I throw them away and its a waste. I always feel dirty as I oppose mb or porn watchin, but when lookin at diapers in pics & videos gets me ups but I truly want to see bein seein some one poop their pants/diapers never seems to show so what realistic thing schould I do.

[Brisby]

you are self concious about it, you believe it to be wrong and this is why you throw them out eventualy. i've seen that from multiple posters.

but again, it is something you feel you need, possibly on a subconcious level. when you do not have them you are compulsivly driven to get them eventualy. it sounds like you are more than likely "One of us" truthfully, you're one of us for life more than likely.

my recomendation is this, you are definetly going to keep wanting them. so get some. but for now by single bags, so that if feel ashamed of yourself and must purge you are doing it atleast cost effectivly. You need to come to terms with yourself, self acceptance is important no mater what the issue is. once you feel more comfortable with yourself and realise there is nothing wrong with this - and there isn't - you will have an easier time understanding why it's there in the first place.

it sounds like you are in the perfect envoronment to explore this safely, but it is always a good idea to keep things hidden away neatly just incase you have friends over, the truth is they will not accept it as they do not understand it - and don't want to. (i say that as in a relationship there is hope as the other person may Want to understand it. and once they do, they may eventualy accept it about you themselves.)

just try to figure out what it is about the diaper that you desire? the comfort? the feel?

once again, there really is nothing wrong with it, look at these boards - you're not alone. we all have this interest, and we're not bad people or freaks or anything like that... we're normal, and so are you.

i hope my words help you and comfort you, you're going through something that i went through as well and i know it can be very confusing... so again i remind you, you're not alone, and theres nothing wrong with it at all.

[Frink]

I find that since I have one or two diapers squirreled away in a drawer, I don't have any real cravings for them all that often, since I know that they're easily accessible. If I didn't have any around, I'd probably get an insatiable desire for some. I'll admit, however, that my mind is always on the greener grass on the other side, however.

[Brisby]

I'll admit, however, that my mind is always on the greener grass on the other side, however.

not sure exactly what you ment by that ^^

[ab/dljimmy]

Reading this sounded like me!I went thru throwing them out and then buying more too.I started wearing off n on from about 14yrs old till now.(over 30yrs now)I read about it tried it;liked it then felt bad;throwed them out.At the time cloth 1s n plastic pants;only for it to come back later.I found putting them in a box in the back of the closet cheaper.(After throwing them out a couple of times)Then too knowing they were there if I needed them helped me deal with my feelings.You have something I didnot have then ---the net.At first I thought maybe I was crazy and the story was made-up but then I found more stories about adults n diapers.At first in xxx mag Forum then on the net.Talking to some who went thru what I had helps me understand I wasnot crazy and find ways to deal with my AB/DL side.It is like Brisby said your not alone with this.Good-luck finding your balance with it from littlejimmy1957@msn.com

[nappyloon]

It's the same old "Binge and Purge" scenario a lot of us have gone through at some or many times in our lives!

So be honest with yourself and give in to it as it is unlikly to go away as indeed these boards will testify to that fact!

"ENJOY"

"BE HAPPY IN YOUR NAPPY"

[udontneed2knw]

See the thing is, I wonder does it make me go irational in what I look for:

My dream youtube/google video is so she someone wearing a diaper (or just in general) is to poop their pants, and not just sound effects. Not I'm not in ratioanlize as I want the smell but I really want to see the pants contract and really sell to me that the person is actalyl pooping.

This is a thing that scares me a bit, even though I like it.

[AutieAB]

It's the same old "Binge and Purge" scenario a lot of us have gone through at some or many times in our lives!

So be honest with yourself and give in to it as it is unlikly to go away as indeed these boards will testify to that fact!

^^^ What he said ^^^

I think it's important to realise that most people have to psychologically come to terms with being an AB/DL/other. If it scares you, that suggests you haven't done so yet. Hanging around here for a while is probably a good start (although I'd say we're probably mostly biased in terms of your internal debate ) unless you happen to have a friendly and open-minded therapist on tap

AutieAB

[Dill_Pickle]

^^^ What he said ^^^

I think it's important to realise that most people have to psychologically come to terms with being an AB/DL/other. If it scares you, that suggests you haven't done so yet. Hanging around here for a while is probably a good start (although I'd say we're probably mostly biased in terms of your internal debate ) unless you happen to have a friendly and open-minded therapist on tap

AutieAB

* Real * therapists are open-minded. I've seen four or five, mentioned my diapers, and moved on to other things, like serious depression/anxiety problems. You are at college, see if you can get to talk to a therapist through your college.

The shrinks all have agreed that the main problem with your liking diapers is if it interferes with the rest of your life -- ruins your grades, keeps you out of romances, upsets or drives off friends, makes you depressed, that kind of thing. You can decide not to be depressed by it. You have seen how it's not too hard to keep it a secret. Accept that this need is a part of you, there is nothing wrong with indulging it -- there are a lot worse ways of getting your jollies -- just ask those supposedly celibate pedophilic catholic priests....

And yes, you are in a classic pattern. A box labeled "Laundry" in the back of your closet is cheaper, much cheaper than tossing them every time you get your fill of diapers. That way, when the need returns, you just get out what you put away.

Dill Pickle

[Brisby]

The shrinks all have agreed that the main problem with your liking diapers is if it interferes with the rest of your life -- ruins your grades, keeps you out of romances, upsets or drives off friends, makes you depressed, that kind of thing. You can decide not to be depressed by it. You have seen how it's not too hard to keep it a secret. Accept that this need is a part of you, there is nothing wrong with indulging it -- there are a lot worse ways of getting your jollies -- just ask those supposedly celibate pedophilic catholic priests....

And yes, you are in a classic pattern. A box labeled "Laundry" in the back of your closet is cheaper, much cheaper than tossing them every time you get your fill of diapers. That way, when the need returns, you just get out what you put away.

Dill Pickle

seems almost like thats saying they support it, as at times it seems when you have these feelings - the compulsions or desires for me atleast can be so strong that, to ignore them "interferes with the rest of your life -- ruins your grades, keeps you out of romances, upsets or drives off friends, makes you depressed, that kind of thing. "

just amusing myself, I've actualy told my theropist, told him once and moved on to the more important things... i think he's fished for information before, to see if they were doing anything negitive to me, but i don't think either of us feel it gets in the way of the rest of my life... i'm using them to feel comfortable enough to Have a life... and who knows, when i'm comfortable with my life, i may not need them anymore. it won't bother me if i do or do not need them when that time comes, i'll still be happy.

[Dill_Pickle]

seems almost like thats saying they support it, as at times it seems when you have these feelings - the compulsions or desires for me atleast can be so strong that, to ignore them "interferes with the rest of your life -- ruins your grades, keeps you out of romances, upsets or drives off friends, makes you depressed, that kind of thing. "

just amusing myself, I've actualy told my theropist, told him once and moved on to the more important things... i think he's fished for information before, to see if they were doing anything negitive to me, but i don't think either of us feel it gets in the way of the rest of my life... i'm using them to feel comfortable enough to Have a life... and who knows, when i'm comfortable with my life, i may not need them anymore. it won't bother me if i do or do not need them when that time comes, i'll still be happy.

I think the therapists look for the "least harm" situation. If diapers quietly help you out, they support them...

Dill Pickle.