Well, I'M Hooked

[HeavenlyCreature]

As a child, I used to strongly enjoy wearing diapers past the age that I needed to. I spent some quite happy (but nervous-for-fear-of-being-discovered) time wearing diapers that I pilfered from the ones that my younger sister was still using. Alas, once she graduated out of them, I didn't have a ready supply anymore; and it was a sad day when my last diaper was thrown out. Though I fantasized about diaper-wearing and diaper-play as I grew older, around the age of puberty interest kinda dwindled for me. I do remember doing some internet reading about ABDL, and enjoyed some such-themed erotic stories, but I guess other things started seeming more appealing - or maybe I just managed to successfully repress the feelings, since I definitely felt shame about them.The thought of it still niggled at me every once in a while in a "come hither" or "pay attention to me" way, but it's been out of my mind until fairly recently.

Lately, I've been mentally revisiting parts of my past and trying to confront suppressed/repressed urges in general - and so, thinking about the strong impact diapers had on me as a child, I started doing a little poking around on the internet again. After finding this community and doing some other reading, I abruptly realized that I really, really, really wanted some diapers. Like, immediately. Long story short, after doing some researching and seeing what might be available in my town, I picked up some Pampers Baby Dry Size 6 at a Walgreens and excitedly took them home for some experimentation.

I know, I know, and I knew then that they wouldn't fit (without some grotesque stretching). But I also really dislike how almost all the adult diapers I've seen have looked. The Pampers are SO cute, smell wonderful, and feel fantastic... aesthetically, I prefer seeing quite small diapers on myself and others, to seeing enormous, thick-but-practical adult-sized diapers. Making tape extenders according to this page allows for a surprisingly comfy fit around the waist with minimal stretching, and I don't mind that the front and back don't reach up as high as they ought. (If you imagine them as odd low-rise panties, their fit isn't too unusual .) I gather a fair number of folk on this forum kinda look down on wearing baby diapers like that; but I'm not as interested in using diapers "as diapers" as I am in just wearing them, and I find a tight fit to be pretty erotic. To each his or her own, I suppose.

As you might guess, I'm way more a DL than an AB.

So hi! I'm Sandra. I'm a trans girl (in progress), a recently (re)discovered DL who's partial to small diapers and baby diapers over the functionality of properly fitting adult diapers, and I applaud you if you made it all the way through this intro without dozing or wandering off.

(Also, I keep thinking how much I'm gong to regret posting this online if it ever gets associated with me IRL. Oh weellllllll...)

[Bettypooh]

Hi Sandra, and welcome to DD If you're reasonable careful with your info and what you post it's unlikely anyone will connect your RL with us But google and the other search engines do bot their way through here, capturing whatever they find. Otherwise we don't share your info with anyone else There are some adult diapers you may find appealing- ABU Cushies come to mind, and there are tape rolls sold on Ebay with babyish prints you can apply to make plain diapers more babyish-looking Like anything in this world you may not find exactly what you want, but there's usually something close enough to bring happiness in adequate quantities to get by on And we've got a decent TG contingent here too (including moi) with our "Rainbow Diapers" forum a safe space for us to discuss LGBTQ things among ourselves. It is tightly moderated for inappropriate content and anything disparaging to us but we're pretty free to say what we feel there without worrying about bashers showing up Anyway glad to see you join us and I hope you find peace and happiness here.

Bettypooh

[HeavenlyCreature]

Thanks much Betty! <3 I appreciate it a lot.

I do like the Cushies, they're definitely some of the cutest adult sized I've seen. I plan to get some of those when I can. I may need to look into a PO box or something though.

Thanks for suggesting the prints to me; that sounds like a great idea. I feel like the cut/style of the diapers themselves is a big part of it for me too - like having single tape attachments on the side, which is something that's great about Cushies and the Super Dry Kids, but might be harder to find on other already blank diapers?

[foxtrot83]

hey sandra ,

welcome to the site , i can relate to your story as im sure many ppl here can , i also rediscovered dl in my 20's

i love this forum above the others this is the one i keep coming back to time and time again .

see ya around the board . cheers

[HeavenlyCreature]

Thanks! See you around. ^.^