Lesson Learned (Private For Babygoth And Musicaddict)

[babygoth]

kris nodded at everything kinda in shock that danni thought she could make her self straight "wow" where there only words that left kris lips

[musicaddict]

"Did I mention I was really really drunk?" Danni reminded her.

[babygoth]

"yeah you did " kris smiled at that fine it a little funny then added "ok ask me something then anything you want "

[musicaddict]

"How do you feel about kids?" Danni asked, curious.

[babygoth]

"what about them ?? i think there ok but i don't think i would be a good mum if thats what you mean what about you " kris said truth

[musicaddict]

"In the past? Maybe. But now? With my regressive tendencies, I don't know if I'd be a good parent." Danni sighed and shrugged.

[babygoth]

"i think you would i know i wouldn't be a good mum ever " kris says and kisses danni cheek then adds " so your mum whats she really like then i know you told me a bit but you know "

[musicaddict]

"When I was a kid? She was great. she made it a point to know what was happening in our lives and for us to be able to talk to her about anything. But after my dad died....she kind of shut down. Not mean but....indifferent I guess. She's never accepted Rach or I being gay and was of no help to me." Danni said.

[babygoth]

kris nods and hugs danni tight "is there other things you want to ask me or do you want to stop because i don't want to up set you " kris ask softly meaning it also

[musicaddict]

"No. Let's keep going, it's probably good to talk about it." Danni said, relaxing into the hug. Despite knowing her girlfriend had had it so much worse, her's mother indifference still hurt like hell. "And there are one or two more secrets you should probably know about."

[babygoth]

"yeah it is good" kris said and keep huging her then add "ok tell me if you want to danni " kris said in a loving voice to show danni that she only cared about her

[musicaddict]

Danni cuddled close to her, not sure how she would take this. "That night....when I was drunk? We weren't...well, alcohol helps you forget things like condoms and I ended up pregnant. I- uh...mom wouldn't help me and tried to make me have an abortion and Rachel couldn't afford to help. She was in college and never knew I was ever pregnant. I gave her up. I hated to but I was 15. I couldn't give her the life she deserved. She's with a good family now. She uh....turns 5 tomorrow."

[babygoth]

now that was something kris didn't see coming she didn't know what to think or say everything went blank on her all hear head was yelling at her was danni has a kid danni has a kid a little girl who 5 tomorrow kris tried to say something but nothing came out

[musicaddict]

"She...doesn't know she's adopted. Doesn't know about me." Danni sighed. "They send me a picture every year and a letter about how she's doing. They say they'll tell her soon and it'll be up to them in she wants to know me. They're great about it, really. A lot of families wouldn't consider keeping the birth mother informed or have the opportunity to be part the kid's life."

"It's just...hard." Danni sighed. "I know it's for the best but it sucks."

[babygoth]

kris just nodded still in shock she had stop hugging danni by now and fine something came to her for kris to say "is that why you ask me how i felt about kids danni"

[musicaddict]

Danni had become nervous when Kris stopped hugging her and sat up properly. "Yeah. Are you...okay? Are we okay?"

[babygoth]

"yeah where fine i guess that was the one think i didn't see coming is all um is there anything your like to tell me " kris ask after her head finely started working again it seem to her

[musicaddict]

"That's pretty much it. If she does decide to meet me, you don't have to come if you don't want to. There's just one thing." Danni hesitated. Given what her girlfriend had said about wanting kids, this may not go over well. "If anything happens to her adoptive parents - and I hope to god nothing does - I get custody of her."

[babygoth]

"thats fine danni i would like to meet her also if she wants to meet you to " kris said then add as a joke " well if anything ever does happen i hope to god also and you have custody of her if she a teen at the time and is like bad as hell i will be fine army schools to send her to just to let you know " kris laughs a little at the end

[musicaddict]

Danni smiled and nodded at that, happy Kris wanted to meet her. Laughing at the joke, she kissed Kris passionately.

[babygoth]

kris kissed danni back then said after a long great time of kissing "anything you want to know about me just ask danni anything it could even be silly i won't care "

[musicaddict]

"How about you tell me something you want me to know?" Danni suggested.

[babygoth]

kris nodded but wasn't sure how danni would take it but was going to say it anyway " you know how i said my first time was with you well that still kinda true but... when i was 15 also i guy teacher rape me two days later i tried to kill myself " kris said this all softly

[musicaddict]

Danni's entire being was filled with anger. Hanging onto control, she managed to get out, "Any anger I'm feeling or expressing is directed at that sick son of a bitch, not you."

[babygoth]

kris knew danni wouldn't hurt her at all but she was still scared even when danni said that kris couldn't help but move away from her