Me Newbee Fwom Uk Dorset Bournemouth

[BabyJhonny]

furst of me prob goin to post same stuf as wil post on profil so dont be to alarmd

secundle me ave routen me lik to folo so dont frec out at da way me post

ok serious speak ugh

i have Aspergers Syndrome (A Mild Form of High Functining Autisim ,though i dont think its as mild as they make out), Severe Dyscalculia (the number vershion of dyslexia), Mild Dyslexia, Dysgraphia (the reason why i cant spell to save my life or read my own writing <more information here>this also effects the speed at wich i speak and the quality of my writing wich is equal to that of a real toddler lol), PDA (Pathalogical Demand Avoidance <more information on that here> this basicaly means i dont like being preashured in to doing things or being told when to do things i like to have a leavel of controal over when i do things), Mild Developmental Delay (acording to a Neurologist i saw up in birmingham my mental age is 19), Reactive Depreshion (im not entierly shure how best to explain that so here is a <link> to some more information about it.), Traits of OCD (i can be Obsessive, Compulsive and Impulsive at times to an extreme), Epilepsy (i have Tonic Clonic Seizures also known as Gran Mal or Genrilised Seizures these are under controal with 2 diffrent medications wich i will probibly be taking for the rest of my life.)

A littile bit more on Aspergers Syndrome

Aspergers Syndrome is a ASD (Autistic Spectrum Disorder) while there are hundreds if not hundreds of hundreds of ASD's the 3 things they all have in common are 1 Communication Difficulty 2 Social Difficulty 3 Preceptual Difficulty. While it may not be apparent that i have Comunication difficultys i do wonder at times weather my difficultys with comunication should be classed as mild or medium. My difficultys with comunication are as follows, I do not always say the right things at the right time, i do not always say things in the right context, i do not always mean what i say, i do not always say what i mean, i do not always say things that are appropriate to a convisation, i do not always say things corectly, i have difficulty knowing how to hold a conversation about a subject i dont know about, i have difficulty knowing when to stop talking, i have difficulty holding a convisation using simple words, i have difficulty knowing were the start of my turn begins in a convisation and the end of my turn ends in a convisation, I have difficulty communicating my thoughts, i have difficulty communicating my ideas i have difficulty communicating my preceptions. But as you probibly know already my vocabulary is excelent> My problems with socialisation are as follows, I have difficulty knowing how to start a convisation with people i dont know, i have difficulty knowing what to say to people, i have difficulty knowing what to talk about to people, i have lack of confidence in approching new people, (me jus wen poope), i have an inability to keep friends, i have no friends, im scared of trying to make friends for fear of rejection again, i prefer my room to going out, i dont like the sun, i dont like violence, i dont like sport, i dont like the beach. My problems with priceptulisation are as follows, you look up at the sky on a sunny day and you see a good opertunityto go to the beach or you see a blue sky or a good opertunity to go out i see 10 squre miles of low preashure, light being refracted through particles of water droplets, nimbo stratus clouds, the oga of fire (aka the sun), the tropisfear, the stratisfear, space, Co2, O, N, H, He, F, Ne, Ar, Sheeps wool, Sheep, trains, Boats, a family, children playing in the park, ACDC performing on stage, USS Enterprise NCC1701-E, a Baby Bottle being filled with SMA GOLD First Infant Milk. These are the kind of things i see in every day things. You would see a Tree i would see, Bark, wood gum, sap, roots, leavs, photosynthisis, stems, stump, veins, and i would be wondering all day how old that tree was and trying to figure it out. You see broken pencel thats been snapped in half, i see an oppertunity, it has graphite in side it, it can be extracted and re used. You see a broken bit of glass about a quater of the size of a baby wipe, i see an opertunity, it can be cut in to the shape of a blade and re used as a knife as a tool. Thats the problems i have with preception i guess i just see every thing diffrently.

First chaptor over, second chaptor of my newbee intro coming up shortly

just adding chaptor tow now

so now you all know about my disabilities

Its probibly a good thing that you do cause i offten make lots of mistakes with out realising it and ushualy dont offten understand them or the consiquenses that result from them. Dispite this i am very much a geek and have been given an intelectual age by a quizz i once took of 89, my emotional / psycological AGE (aka baby age) is definitly 12 months) and dispite most babys not being potty trained at 12 months i am aiming for a potty age of 6 months. This is because anatomicaly speaking it is imposable for an infant to controal there bladder or bowel muscels before 6 months dispite claims by my mum that i was potty trained for day time at 6 months. I had an abusive neglectful childhod from the age of 3 mostly from my so called father who i kicked out of the house when i was 13. I stabed him in the arm with a pen and thretend to stab him in the neck if he dident go back to packistan. My mum dident mind this since he was also abusive to her though not as much. me and my mum spent the past decade having 50+ argumeants 24/7 52 days of the year 365 days of the year and that has also had an emotional / psycological effect on me. Before i found out about PDA last month i called it Emotional Abuse, now i think it was probibly a result of the PDA. I been in and out of Psychiatric hospital 4 times and have atempted suicide 21 times, thankfully non of those atempts worked. It is the need to be a baby and back in dipapers and the act of regreshion that controals my depreshion and stress leavels more then anything else including Anti Depresants. This is also good for my Epilepsy for 2 reasons, 1 Anti Depressants increase Seizure Threshold (make you have more Seizures) and 2 My Epilepsy is Stress Triggerd. Unfortunatly my mum has a major attitude problem and cant accept my Infantilism. She tolirates it, but thats as far as she is willing to go, she is not eaven willing to change me, or feed me. She wont eaven accept that using diapers and being a baby is actually healthy for me on multiple leavels, and the only thing that is not healthy is the possibility of nappy rash. She has this thing in her head about the smell, well i keep telling her that she will ajust to the smell and that i can always take clorofil tablits or nullo tablits to get rid of the smell compleatly, she dosent belive me and wont eaven try it. She also has this thing in her head about me going out side for a smoke with Lou Lou (my pink bunny plushie named ofter Lou Lou from WayBuLoo a UK cartoon from CBeebies) and my blankie, no one pays any attention, i have gone out there with Lou Lou and my blankie when shes not in for a smoke and no one pays any attention to you, so its all in her head. Its just my mum getting embarased for no reason what so ever. Its like she wont let me wear diapers during the day or in public, no one is going to pay any attention, if anything they will think your disabled and need them for medical reasons or incontinence. Well i am disabled and i do have a strong desire to be incontinent and wear diapers 24/7, i may not need them for medical reasons, but i shure do need them for emotional / psycological reasons. Its just my mum and her twisted mind getting embarised for no good reason.

I like Computers and would probibly have to say that is my first Aspergers Obsession, I have been Obsessed with computers since i was 3, the first computer that i got my hands on i spent an hour on it and changed the screen resaloution. I now have 6 computer qualifications. I Play the keyboard, Piano and Guitar and am self tought by ear on all three, I am a huge treky, and learnt most of what i know about Quantum Mechanics and Particle Physics from Star Trek since Star Trek is based on actual science and science theroys. (check out this link if you dont belive me <Andre Bormanis> is his name, he could be said to have concieved the worlds first design for the mobile phone, Capton Kirks Flip Top Comunicator lol) I told you all my mum has an attitude problem, im in the middle of writting you all a newbee intro for myself so you can all have a good neural litirarey image of the new kid in the data cluster on the Hard Drive, and my mum wants me to have a shower in 1 hour. How the hell is 1 hour going to be enough time when i got to write about disability, culture, hobbies and intrests, beliefs, political views, AB views, goals in life, educational aims, how i became an AB and everything that links all those together. I dont eaven like to write. Zephren Cockrem would be able to type this faster then i can, and he hasent been born yet. I like watching CBeebies, WayBuLoo, Chuginton, In The Night Garden, Kiper The Big Red Dog, Disiney, Toy Story, Chicken Run and Shreck

End Chaptor 2 Chaptor 3 coming soon

Its my mums fault

[Marcuss]

Welcome, i dont need to say your life sounds difficult and i dont mean to offend. Reading your post i would say that myself and most all people qualify for most of your mental issues. Probably not to the extreme you describe but for myself anyway...on some levels i can relate. Relax and enjoy yourself you dont need to tell us everything ever..and definitely not all at once As for your mother you will notice by reading a lot of posts here that most people parents included do not embrace this lifestyle at all in any way. The fact that your mother tolerates it is good and should be considered fairly rare. I would advise that you do not pressure her to change you or expect it. It just wont happen if she feels the way she does. It will just cause stress and fights that im sure you could both do without. Hope you enjoy the site sit back relax and have fun.