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Let's say you were given a one time chance to erase the need or desire to wear diapers from your life. To extend it, if you're a little or AB, would you opt to wipe out that side of yourself? Let's start with what I perceive to be the "pros". Number one on my list would be the opportunity to pick a mate from the large pool. I feel I am forced to pick a mate by a very limiting interest. When I find someone, we're not always a match on an emotional level. Next would be this part of myself that I have to hide from my circle. It keeps my friends at a distance on a level. If I'm waddling around in a big diaper, I can't answer the door and have to use excuses like I was out with someone else. Next is money. I'm fortunate enough to buy cases of whatever diaper tickles my fancy. However when I look at my stash that I've dropped thousands on I think that money could have fed the hungry instead. Then there is that sensation that I'm broken that comes now and then. Sometimes I think my head isn't right for doing what I do. While I've reconciled the fact that it's not much of a choice to shelve my diaper habit, I sometimes question what strange motivation put me here. The "cons" to wishing diapers out of my life. While the dating pool is much smaller for me (and us), it has forced me into engage with others who are not exactly like me. So when I meet a diaper friend and we have dissimilar interests outside of nappies, I tend to explore their world, where if I was given an unlimited pool of potential mates, I would likely just keep clicking the next button and never really broadening my horizons and seeing different sides of life. As far as my circle, I've been told I have an unusual number of friends. In a way I could attribute part of this to the mysterious vibe I project that may hold people interest. I'm honest and open about everything else in my life except for my diaper and sexual interests. I think interesting people like multi-faceted individuals, and even if they can't put their thumb on what else I'm up to, the vibe is present and intriguing. As far as money, if I look at my interests through the lens of playing the roll I was given, then maybe the only reason I can afford it is because I am fulfilling some mission on a higher level that I can't comprehend from where I stand? And while I am charitable, I like to think my biggest accomplishments are the times I've taught someone else to fish rather than giving them one. So for my broken head.. Well I may in fact actually have one. Or it may be by some sort of intelligent design that I have one. Or I may just be designed this way to express my uniqueness and help break the mold of conformity. Take away the higher level thinking and is it really bad to be different? Maybe we're all helping in our own way to spread diversity in a somewhat closed minded environment. Just maybe we're all right and the annalists that slap labels on everything are living incorrectly? So to answer my own question, no I would not trade in any part of me that was not harmful or damaging. I'm thankful that I have been granted uniqueness, and I am proud that I have followed through to embrace it. And whatever your situation is, I'm proud of you for the same bravery and honesty to yourself. So what's your answer?