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I could write a novel about yesterday, but I will try to make this as brief as possible. I ended up seeing a urologist yesterday for incontinence. That was not the plan when I woke up yesterday. I had a scheduled appointment with a different specialist for an unrelated issue and incontinence came up and that doc referred me to urology. Incontinence was already in my chart and I previously declined urology referrals, but this was the second time so I figured I will keep getting referred until I go, so I agreed. As it just so happens, there was an an opening that day. So I get to the urologist office. They take me back almost right away. First they had me pee in a cup, which normally I wouldn't be able to do on command. Though as luck would have it, I felt my bladder getting full and and I was able give a sample with relative ease. Next the assistant had me raise my shirt and pull down my pants exposing my soaked diaper and she did a quick bladder scan. I was feeling self conscious about how wet I was and so asked if I could change my diaper when she was done. She suggested I wait until after the doctor is done because he will want to do a male exam. Though she did ask if I needed a brief, but when she came back with a flimsy pull-up I told her I'm fine using one of my own diapers. It was weird to discuss it so matter of factly with a medical person who didn't know me. Though I figured it's urology and the appointment was specifically for incontinence. The urologist came in after that. He was a nice guy, though rather plain spoken and blunt. He asked a bunch of questions about my incontinence. There was no use in lying to him and I didn't really have time to think about what to say. So I told him the truth which was that even when I was fully toilet trained, I didn't feel comfortable with it and by the time I was a teenagerI made my way back to diapers. Since then my bladder control has plummeted which is fine by me since I don't mind wearing diapers. (I did leave out the ABDL and unpotty training stuff as that wasn't pertinent). He kind of shrugged and said to each their own. I asked him to use discretion in charting and he looked at me like a 3-headed alien and kept on going. He then had me take off my diaper and did his exam and he suggested further bladder studies should I be interested in treatment, and then he sent me on my way. Afterwards I read the treatment note he wrote on my online medical chart. To my dismay, he wrote that I prefer to wear diapers and don't want my incontinence treated. It's not a lie, but it was not particularly flattering to see it in writing in my chart for any other provider to see. I suppose I could ask him to remove it, though at this point I’m just going let this one go It wasn't until late in the evening after the panic attacks fizzled out that I felt a wave of relief and perhaps even joy. I realized that I never, ever have to worry about wearing a diaper in a medical setting again, for the rest of my life!! From now on if anyone asks me why I have a diaper on, I just tell them it's in my chart and I've already seen a urologist for it. I also realized that if I ever get hospitalized, I don't have to feel self conscious about asking to use a diaper instead of a bedside commode or worse, being catheterized. I also don't have to worry if I get a UTI or bad diaper rash that needs treatment. Frankly it's a huge RELIEF. Plus the whole experience was strangely validating. Even though my incontinence is psychological in origin, I didn't get any impression that that made it less legitimate. I keep thinking about how I took off my diaper for the physical exam the doc threw a towel under me to catch any leaks, which I imagine he would've done for any patient he saw with bladder control issues. In fact I was low key relieved he put a towel under me to catch leaks. TL;DR - For better or for worse, it's now in my chart that I prefer to wear diapers to manage my incontinence. Though mostly for better.

I have been waiting to be Validated for 2 days now, and my email still has not come through. I just tried re-entering my email and the website says that my email is already in use ? I Moved to the U 3 months ago and the previous owner had left their Internet Router , I rang up Virgin and had the device changed over to my Name. But now it seems He may have closed his previous email accounts. When I setup the Email account (yojojo@live.co.uk).2 months ago, Hotmail asked me if I wanted to reopen the account ! I said no. Is there anyway around this ?