ABOUT ME: hmmm where do i begin... I've been abdl my entire life.. i don't really know anything but the diaper life... i've been sneaking around being deviant with diapers for a long time.. I can remember mentally forcing myself to wear baby diapers overnight to see if I really liked wearing them, truthfully as a self punishment.. That's what my thought process was anyhow.. These happenings occurred infrequently, maybe a dozen times in a year... and not know why i was doing it at all.. I just figured there was something wrong with me.. and there is, I had three severe bouts of throat cancer ages 5,11,18, an abusive step father who never worked so my mom was always gone working so no protection there, moltested around 5 or 6, a broken home.. A father whom i'm VERY close with who was barely ever there when i lived with him bc he worked swing shift in a factory and had an alcoholic girlfriend who didn't give twelve shits about me... and a bunch of other things... anyhow it wasn't until the other day i was shopping and decided i would pick up some diapers, after using one i began to research psychologically why i do it... community of people who thought just like i did and then some.. so after researching the damage that can be dealt by repressing fetish's so i've run with it... I began wearing 4 days ago nonstop... and will for the rest of my life... i'm always looking for a mommy or a switch bc i'm def a little... hmu