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Incomplete Dude

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  1. No, that's too obvious. You need something more subtle, preferably an innocuous visual cue. For example, a button with an abstract image that no one would recognize without first going to ABDL websites and researching it. However, there should be a number of different things, so people can integrate it into their wardrobe, such as a hat, patch, business card, etc... This would probably require a generic and abstract symbol/logo.
  2. Past: TrackMania Sunrise Present: SimCity 4 Future: UT2007
  3. Man, everyone's a mix. Recognizing it only gives you freedom of choice about what you want to be. Also, there's a difference between male/female thinking and male/female sexual attraction. You can be any combination, and all the blends in between. I just say I'm human, because I'm pretty much an equal balance of them all as far as I can tell. I think it enables a kind of balance and human understanding. Although, I'm not gay, because I choose to be straight, not because I don't find some guys "kinda hot" as you say.
  4. I program and work on various difficult problems. I don't know why the challenge relaxes me, but it does. Sometimes I also write stories. Cuddling my kitty helps a lot too.
  5. Nothing, and my mom used to be good looking back then too! Now, she's only pretty on the inside.
  6. Incomplete Dude

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    Hello, I'm in Brampton, Ontario, 20 years old, male (although that's in my profile already ). Anyways, I'm a very good programmer with extensive knowledge of real time graphics, but I'm learning web/business stuff lately. If anyone wants to collaborate, meet up or anything, then contact me. Also, this is the first time I'm started to seriously explore the ABDL community, so be gentle!
  7. Certainly, as long as it's not too mindless, such as my video game binges of the past (9h non-stop, hardly even blinking). I don't think this is like that though, or at least it won't be, since I have much better judgement these days. This is why, as I've stated, I will try it as soon as it becomes reasonable to do so. I think half the battle is creating and finding a compatible and understanding social group that is strong enough to support one's need for human interaction. Right now I don't have one, as my family couldn't understand it, but I'm looking. Once I have my own place, I will be secure enough in private, but perhaps if I met some people, maybe checked out an event or two, I could develop such a group. Unfortunately, such open mindedness can be hard to come by outside of the internet, but actually, I might know some people. hmm... I've also been thinking about another interesting point. Sometimes people deal with difficult situations by creating phobias, and I'm no exception. For example, I have a great deal of difficultly allowing people to physically touch me beyond a handshake. Even holding my childhood teddy bears scares me in a way. However, with other problems, people do as I described before. They seek out that thing they lost in some way, trying to replace the chunk taken out of them and fill the emotional vacuum. In this way, desires, obsessions and fetishes are created. It's a very complimentary duality. In any case, I'm just guessing that perhaps, most of us here lean toward the creation of desires, instead of the creation of fears. Certainly this is preferable though. I know I'd rather have things that I enjoy than things I'm terrified of, even if other people think it's crazy. They think phobias are crazy too, but those are generally accepted. In fact, perhaps this trait is indicative of a more developed society. After all, such behaviour moves past the initial pain immediately, and goes straight to the healing. If this is the case, then it's no surprise that such desires are far more common in Western countries. Although, maybe such a state is itself a social transition. I imagine a place where people can express whatever desires and needs they have, so long as they are safe and reasonable. In this environment, one wouldn't worry about if you might desire something or another, you can always find acceptance. I imagine there would also be very little privacy as well, since if everyone knew everyone else's flaws, then they wouldn't be ashamed of theirs. All in all, this entire website might represent that slow change towards an open and self-healing society. PS: I looked at the readme thing (after I posted ), and if this is getting too discussiony, then feel free to move it, admin person.
  8. Hello there, I am something of a misfit in life. In fact, I'm unsure if I even fit into the ABDL community really. Certainly, there is a strong desire in me to wear diapers again, and return to that child-like state of innocence, trust and dependence. However, there is another equally strong force of intellectualism, questioning and independence. It is as though twin souls live within me, and as they rub forces, a tornado of questions emerges. On the one hand, I want to let go of control, on the other I seek it ferociously, and I value both in the same amount. I have thought deeply and intently on this, and the current result follows: In my case, I was a bed wetter until the end of elementary school, during the latter 4 years I was bullied tremendously, to the point of total animalistic rage on a number of occasions. Also, during this time I sometimes wet my diaper in the morning on purpose, since I was wearing it anyways. It just seemed practical, and of no surprise, it's around that same time I first remember enjoying wearing it. On top of that, I have a control freak, phobia laced father. Although, my mother is extremely caring, almost too much so at times. Oh, and I am a genius type with ADHD, just to shake things up, lol. In any case, the stage has certainly been set in my life for this desire to come about. These issues have resulted in a number of serious emotional difficulties, but most have been solved. First, there was recurring suicidal depression, but cognitive therapy solved that. Then there was a hatred of responsibility, but failing out of university changed my mind on that one. Moreover, finally getting my ADHD diagnosed has really helped, but that's only after years of wondering what's wrong with my ability to get things done, failing countless times, getting into trouble, and generally causing myself grief. Actually, I thought that accepting responsibility would have stopped this desire, but here I am today. One anxiety remains though, fear of the unknown, misunderstanding and failure. It shows up in momentary mini-anxiety attacks where I have flashbacks of past memories, in which I have no idea what the people around me thought, or how they reacted to my actions. I think if I can take control of this by accepting the impossibility of total control, then perhaps I will finally be complete. That is, free from past damage, and free to grow and become who I want to be. But I still have questions. If the point of this desire is to remind you of what's missing, then by knowing this, you can figure it out what's missing, and remove any need to actually engage in the practise. Theoretically, once the issue is resolved, the desire will subside. However, theories must be verified by experimentation. Perhaps, actually doing it is the most efficient route towards this self-realization. Perhaps, there are further questions and needs that are not yet known. Certainly though, one must exercise reasonable judgement. Therefore, at this point I cannot consider wearing diapers, due to living with my family, who couldn't possible comprehend it, and would give me hell even if I lied, such as saying it was real incontinence. However, there will be a time when I have my own place and my own credit card. When that day comes, I expect I will explore these desires more directly. Still, who knows, by then I may change. Although, given how long this desire has been with me, albeit on and off, I have my doubts that it will ever go away. At the very least, by doing it, I can prove to myself that I can handle the unknown within myself and become comfortable with it. In any case, my definition of success in this regard, is not to be someone who acts like a baby for half the day, and an adult for the other half. I want to be the same all day, as much a child as an adult. It only makes sense, since these things are both valuable, so in order to maximize their use, I must express them equally in all that I do. In this way, every effort has the full and unhidden forces of my being behind them. I promised myself when I was young that I wouldn't forget the child in me, and I have no intention of doing so. EDIT: Title changed to AB, since I've come to realize I'm more that then a DL.
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