valeria

"No stop it let me go please stop it" i started to panic as i felt like i could not breathe as i have a hard time calming down. Tears ran down my cheeks as i struggle to slow down.

"NO! I am not going there i am staying here" I nearly wanted to scream as i push my way out of the bathroom as i pace around so mad everything i worked hard for is being ruined. My mind racing as i talk to myself quietly as i try to figure what to do as i blame this mess on the teacher from the program.

"I don't have to tell you anything at all what i do to stay here now i want all of you to get out and don't bother me again" i snap out of frustration as i knew none of this would happen if the teacher i volunteer for didn't report me. As i was still in the bathroom as the social worker and a teacher from my school were still there talking when the teacher brings up the voluteer program i am in and if the teacher i am working with had any other information.

"Thats not fair i was doing fine living here and i want to keep it that way" i say this even though i backed talk to a cop as i just wanted to be left alone.

"No i am not going to some dumb foster home and there was nothing to tell the school i was doing fine on my own and i am not starting at a new high school thats gonna ruin everything with me going to college" I get furious as this was not fair as i didn't like how this was turning out as now its gonna reveal that all my papers were falsified.

I was tucked in a tight corner of a closet with clothes and blankets piled high covering me. I waited hoping the cop and caseworker would leave while not knowing they were going through stuff and only seeing stuff of mine and nothing that belongs to an adult.

I panic as i was gonna be in so much trouble once its all out there that ive been on my own as i hid and tried to keep quiet. I was a bit furious that you reported this.

"Stop it don't call anyone! No one needs to know anything and i told you i am fine at home" i snap at you as my mind was felt frazzled as i took off to leave as at that moment i needed to get home.

"No no its fine really you don't need to report this to the school i..i am fine where i am and there is no need to worry about it" i say this as i hope you would listen but doubt you will. I sigh as i just grab myself ready to just get out of here and go home to relax.

"What no you can't do that! I..i am used to being there alone and nothings happen to me before". I back talk as i found it unfair as i just wanted to leave and go home.

"NO! no you can't she is um working late tonight and is really busy with her job so talking to her won't be needed i...i promise to get the wetting issue taken care of" I bite my lower lip as i hope you just let it go as i put my homework away in my backpack and close it up.

"A medical reason n..no i don't have that as i never had this happen before and my..my home life is just fine why do you need to know about the motel" i try to move away as i just wanted to pack my stuff so i can go on home before it gets too late.

"Huh what no no i..i can't be wet again" i panic as i did not want to be wet at all. "M..my grades are okay for the most part i..i mean some teachers at my school try to help me the best they can" i try to touch my pants and i get upset as they are alittle bit wet as i didn't even notice that i needed the bathroom*

"Huh what no no its um fine you don't have to drive me home" i say this as i didn't want anyone to drive me home as i worry if my secret gets out then the school would legally have to get involved. I put my head down and just try to get my homework down even though it looked like i barely done much of it.

I nod my head that it was okay for you to help me as i watch you empty my backpack so you can sort it out. As my homework was infront of me i haven't started it yet when i see my motel key fall from my backpack i try to get it hoping you don't notice it.

I nod my head alittle as i try not to get upset as i say "i...i am sorry for causing so much problems i...i won't be upset if you wanted to dismiss me" I get quiet as i pull my homework out as you see my backpack was a mess.

I hear you as i sigh a bit and get my school bag and bring it over as i put it on the table. I go to sit down on the chair as i wonder a bit why you wanted to see my homework.

I see you come back with cindy as she looks to me i nod my head that she could sit next to me. I try to get the kids focused on their work again as it was almost the end of the day for them.

I didn't know what to do as i felt bad for cindy but i didn't want to make it known it was me as i try to redirect the girls to pay attention to their assignments as rumors are not nice to spread about anyone as they would not like it if anyone did that to them. I look around hoping cindy was okay as i try to pass the time by watching the kids but i at times would get lost in my own throughts and distractions.

I scrub myself the best i could so that i didn't smell like pee anymore. I wash my pants and underwear in the sink then squeezed the water out. After that i put them in a bag then tied it closed before returning to your classroom to help you with the kids.

I nodded my head as i listen and just leave the classroom for a bit and i end up wandering the hall as i try to clear my head before i show myself in your classroom again. While away none of the kids seem to notice as they busy themselves with work as it gives you the chance to do a bit more research on me.

I just nodded my head and just get the floor cleaned up first before i go to get my spare clothes and head to the bathroom to change. While i was gone the kids would be showing up for the usually routine of activites with you. I change in the bathroom as i try to clean up the best i could and put my dirty clothes in the bag. I return to your classroom as i just kept to myself and waited to be told what i would be doing with the kids today.

"But i never h....had accidents at school i..i don't know why its happening now" i say it as i sounded upset with myself as i felt like giving up. I look around as the kids are not there yet as i felt lucky about it and then i try to say "c..can i go change in the bathroom now please"

Tears roll down my cheeks as it takes a bit for me to settle down as i just nod my head and wait to hear what you have to say. While waiting my mind feeling overwhelmed thinking maybe this is happen cause of the stress of college and trying to pass. I rub my eyes as i try to say "But what if school finds out i..i won't know what to do i....i can't fail or the college won't accept me then i won't know what to do".

I shrug my shoulders as i try to calm down as i try to say "your not gonna tell my school about this are you". I look to you but worried as i knew my school required to have reports made to them about any student doing volunteer work.