valeria

"What do you mean by that? and i am too 17 and there is no way i would be thirteen and i....i only manage to keep up cause the teachers at school have been helping me well some of the teachers help not all of them do and what happens if they say i can't go back to high school" I was starting to freak out a bit over this as it might mean i would be pulled out of school and wouldn't be able to start til next year let alone what school i would attend.

"Why does it matter how long i was in the motel for i liked it there it's what i was used to and i managed to get by" I huff and roll my eyes as i sit there at the table still as i pushed the plate away as i didn't want to understand why you were asking this to me. "I am going back to school on monday right?"

I huff and roll my eyes as i ate only tiny bites of the food off my plate as i still was being pouty over the whole thing all while not knowing who you were on the phone with as i just hope it wasn't anything about me as i didn't think anything would or would not be found about. I only ended up eating almost half of the food but i pushed away the rest of it as i was starting to get bored as i lay my head down on the table as i sit curled up on the chair. My mind wanders around not really knowing what would happen next even though i did recall hearing that social worker and a staff member from my school saying something about an open investigation on my file.

I sat there pouting and barely would touch the plate of food as i try to ignore anything that you say as i doubt anyone would find much information on me since its gone unnoticed for so long that not even my school had noticed much about my file and never really questioned about having parents.

I shook my head as there was no way i would be caught wearing a pull up as i refuse to put that on as i eventually got dressed without the pull up on as i doubt you would do anything to me if you find out i did not put it on. I was mad as i at that moment didn't know what else to do as i then leave the room.

"No why won't you believe me that i am 17 and i want to graduate and go to college and if i don't i would never forgive you or the school for ruining everything for me and that i was better off left alone back in that motel before you ever found about my well being i was fine doing what i can on my own since i was little" I shove away from you as i didn't want to be held as i wasn't a child as i wish everyone would stop treating me like one as i handled myself just fine with no parents.

"WHAT no no you can't do that you can't pull me out of high school i would lose everything that i worked hard for and if you do that then the college i am trying to get in to will void my application and i would never get another chance to get in" I get upset and nearly wanted to cry as i try to fight to get out of your arms as i scream "i hate you" as i fall in to a bit of a tantrum.

"WHAT! no no you can't do that and i....i am too 17 i know my age and i want to finish and graduate you can't do that to me and no one is gonna ruin my chances of getting in to college i worked too hard to get where i am" I get angry at hearing you say this to me as i wanted to get away from you as i try to hit and scream*

"oww stop hitting me i hate this i want to leave" i scream as i would not calm down as i struggle a bit. "No i hate foster homes i would never go to one i will just keep running away if i have to" I try to get away again as i hit back after you hit me.

"W...what do you mean you change your mind?" i looked to you alittle and then go to say " You said i could stay in the guest house so that i could have my own space you can't just go back on your word and if you do then i....i will find some other place to stay like an other motel or something" I try getting away from you as i didn't want you holding me as i did not like being this exsposed to you as i wanted to cover up and hide somewhere.

"No stop it let go of me" i struggle to get out of your arms as you manage to handle me and get me undressed to put me in that bath tub. This also gave you the chance to get a good look at me seeing i was not looking good at all with how thin i was. This only proved you more that i needed to be taken care of and need to be seen by a doctor as it clear shows i was never taken to one at all.

I scream as i wanted to just runaway from you as i was not wanting to listen at all "No i am not a little kid and don't you dare think or try to do it yourself as i don't want you seeing me with nothing on" i yell at you as i didn't care at that moment if i was sounding bratty as i wanted to go back to the motel where i liked being there alone but knew it would never get to happen.

I shook my head as i mumble a bit saying "no leave me alone i don't want to more or do anything you can't control me" i throw my shoe at you.

I had refused to eat the food as i didn't bother to move from the corner at all and ended up falling in and out of sleep all night. By morning i barely slept at all as i felt like no matter what i try to say or do what i want no one is gonna listen to me. Everyone thinks they know whats best for me just cause i have been on my own since i could remember. And now the school was gonna do an investigation and look deeper in to how this all went on without anyone noticing for so long.

I roll my eyes as i wouldn't answer you at all as i plan to refuse whatever food you make. I was frustrated as i miss the motel room that i stayed at as i liked it there. Eventually i sat curled up on the floor in a corner of the room as i had my head resting on my knees and the lights off.

I was angry as i wanted to get away and leave not caring at that moment if i left stuff behind as i had to think of a plan as i pace around not keeping still at all. As you went through my stuff seeing alot of it was almost worn out as there wasn't too much clothes and i had only 2 pairs of shoes the ones in the bag and the other ones that i was wearing. I hated this as i knew if anyone from school found out i would be picked on for sure. I kept pace around and thinking to myself as i wanted to scream and destroy something as i was fine on my own and i didn't care about having parents as i don't even really remember mine at all.

"Stay the hell away from me this is your fault for creating this mess and i didn't wet myself at all and i was fine where i was and you took it all away from me" i nearly scream in your face as i try to get away from you.

I get angry as i scream as i sit there in the car as i refuse to get out of it as we were outside the guys house. I was done talking to the adults around me as there was no way i was gonna repeat school next year and be held back cause of my grades.

"I don't know i barely know him as i only just volunteer just so i can pass and make the deadline to submit all my stuff to the college i plan to go to and now all this will ruin everything cause people can't mind there own business as i been taking care of myself just fine" i roll my eyes after snapping at the social worker.

"I am not going anywhere i can't fail thats not fair i don't want to end up at some new school where i don't know anyone and i don't even know if the teacher from the program would take me in and i wouldn't know how to reach him" i get so annoyed again as this was so wrong if they screw me from not finishing school so i can graduate.

I get annoyed as i shove away from the teacher as i say "so what if the system failed me i don't care i never knew my parents anyway and it never stopped me for getting my education"

"But thats not fair i been registered at the school for a long time and no one at all noticed anything about my file and i was getting by just fine and i doubt that would be a good idea as i don't really know him that well and i doubt he would be ok with that idea"

"No i am not being put in some system!" I get mad as it wasn't fair that everything was gonna be ruined as i know i might have to pull out of school and have to start over next year.

"So what i didn't tell anyone about this cause i knew exactly what would of happend if my school found out" I struggle to get out of the officers arms as i didn't want to be held anymore.

"No this is not fair i don't want to start the school year over then i won't be able to get in to my dream college and i worked to hard to not be able to finish this year!" I try to get out of the officers arms as i say " this is all that teachers fault from the program i was fine here"