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I have encountered the same phenomenon, i have found it easier to wear a diaper and use it towards sexual satisfatiction with computer images, solo, versus an actual intimate encounter with my girlfriend. I might be different in the fact that my first girlfriend actually was turned off by it but was not sure how to tell me her problems. She ended up cheating on me and it degraded to the point of her and her new boyfriend laughing in my face about my desires. I find there are no negative consequences when nobody else has that much power over me. I do fantasize about trusting someone else with that part of my life, but have also found that it is hard to do. I have a wife who wants to be a part of it and seems to not mind, but my own fears have made it hard to be that open and vulnerable, which ended up destroying our intimacy, and ultimately ended in a separation. I feel for you, and at the same time feel the same way. If I knew the answer I would gladly share it. I can say with confidence that at least I have found an outlet, "Solo" activity is satisfying, if only temporarily, but it is enjoyable. I can fantasize about what I like and pretend in my mind during an actual "physical" encounter. The biggest obstacle is in my own mind due to the humiliation factor that I have to deal with myself. Good luck with it, sorry i couldn't give you an answer to your dilemna, just wanted to let you know your not alone. Keith

thats why I replied, Feds aren't the only people who transfer prisoners, ( they are the only ones allowed to transfer federal prisoners) but also private contract services transfer prisoners. Each dept. has its own rules and protocols to follow during transfers. Most are similar, but I have seen many prisoners forced to go in their pants during transfers, and during original booking. I almost went in mine while processing a prisoner, it took the booking clerk forever to process the prisoner in, then have to wait in the search line, medical screening, can take a while, and I was not allowed to leave my prisoner until the complete process was finished, and the jail takes custody.

I had to reply again, I agree with people that don't trust police, having been one, I have seen up close and personal some of the things that they do. I did not agree with them, hence I have resigned. transporting prisoners is also the job of any police officer, I have witnessed many prisoners resign to going in their pants when arrested or transferred due to the length of processing. I always had sympathy towards them. i do not agree with forced humiliation, unless it is a turn on for that person. I wish to be treated like that but only in private and with the female that I am in that scene with. not publicly and not against my will.

I am an ex-cop, a Deputy Sheriff, and an ex-firefighter, and I wear diapers and love it. I never knew of any other officers that did, I never discussed it with any of them. Iwould never wear on duty, but did on one particular of duty detail where I was alone in my car all night guarding a local sports stadium.