NO I am not. I really want to know! I love him so much and it took alot for him to come and bring this us to me. I want to support him and keep the line of communication open. I just didn't know the questions to ask! So thank you to everybody being willing to open up to me about hings I could ask. I do understand the cynicism. I know this is some sort of taboo. I just have this feeling of wanting to understand him. Like seeing the look on his face when he was saying "I was trying for so long to tell you this" really made me want to find out more. I am not a troll. I am a genuine person with a genuine interest in learning, Just as you are a person with genuine feelings.