Ozyman

Thank you for reminding me, why I don't like talking about this to "anyone".

So for a while, I thought I was person unable to masturbate and kinda called it mixed blessing (Kinda taught masturbation was frown upon) but since I always found my self @ sites likes these, and doing diaper and girl searches on image search's, I knew something was missing.

(Sorry for the

Ty for your response. What ended up doing was just a combo of 2 resources I already have. I decided to take a book bag I have that's not in use and hide in space that's available in the hideaway. Turns out bags fit into tight spaces better then cardboard boxes.

I've seem to gotten my self into a wee bit of a issue. I've got myself a small sample from XP, in my attempt to curve my desires (if you knew what I doing before hand, this is the better option). What I thought was going to be a genius idea, has backfired a little bit . As of right now, I'm living with my mother in a studio like apt . We have our own beds, (I was going to store my supply in the hideaway bed I sleep in, but the bed won't go in with the box there, my original idea for storage) but I have no bedroom to my self. We'll be moving soon to a legit home soon, but since I'll be living with here for a least 18 months, I need to be able to do my thing without freaking her out. The act I have is a issue of timing (She's goes to work for most of the morning and part of afternoon, time I'll have available for a little bit) , but it's the storage of the goods is that has me concern. I need away of hiding them in plain sight or hide them in away that won't gain attention (a safe would look a bit suspicious wouldn't you say). My car is a possible option, but my trunk has her gardening stuff in it, and a random box that she hasn't seen before is going create some unwanted interest. I have a random book bag available, but concern turns into, random bag that's suddenly stuff full of stuff that's not books...people are going to want to know what's inside.

It's the fact that a diapered crotch is enough to get me off scares me a little, I really don't want to lust after a object. I don't want to need diaper to make love (depending on the women, it could be a turn off).

TY all for your replys.

As of lately, I've started to believe that being dl can't be turned off, even when it would the most convientent. The point I'm trying to get at is that I fell I need physicialy act on these feelings ( buying, using) or they turn into something wicked. For example, thou I haven't used diapers since Jan 2010, in Feb of this year, and after years of not ever doing on purpose, I found my self masterbating to diaper pics (it wasn't with the hand, it was motioning back and forward till I ejactulated, I found it accidently). Now it feels likes if I don't do this, I feel like I have a drug like withdrawls. Is it possible this could be more chemicial then just mental?

I heard writing is a good way to deal with stuff but writing about diapers seems kinda hard. By hard, I don't how far I can with girl uses diaper. Any ideas?