Shizneb

I guess I should add that I leave town on the 23rd to visit my husband who is away on business... and I'm just hoping I get them before I leave, otherwise it would defeat the whole purpose of getting them in the first place.

Thanks guys. I'm living in Ohio at the moment. It is a week today since I ordered, and a week from tomorrow since I got the email saying it was shipped. I have checked and re-checked and re-checked my confirmation emails looking for a tracking number, but there wasn't any provided for me.

So last sunday I ordered the Tena sample pack from the bambino website through these forums. On monday I got the notification email saying it's been shipped. It's Saturday now, and they still have not come in.

Well up until several days ago, he was still telling me that the fetish had gone away completely and keeping all this in the dark. It wasn't till recently that he came clean about all this and told me that it was still a fetish and still an issue for him. He doesn't look at "regular" porn... just some very mild pictures of girls wearing diapers. He looked at it bc he had no other way of satisfying that fetish. He couldn't wear them because we just recently got married in August and he was keeping it all a secret, and he couldn't talk to me about it either. So looking at those pictures was the only way he could satisfy that part of him I guess. But now that he finally came clean and I told him I'd participate, he's saying he won't look at them anymore. He's very ashamed of it, and hates it. He only looked bc he felt as though that's all he could do - which it was for a long time. I'm still upset about it though, but I'm hoping it will stop now, like he says it will.

Wow... great post! Thanks a bunch, buddy - for taking the time to write me all that. Good info!

Sigh... I wish I could be all those things for him when it came to sex. He is all those things to me, and I never feel like I need to resort to someone else's pictures, etc... I agree. I am hopeful that now that I participate he will stop browsing pictures of other women. I texted him at work just now asking him how certain he is that this habit will stop now that I participate, and his exact texted words are "I'm very certain. It's not anything to me anymore. It's about as enticing as AIDS. I don't like it, I'm not interested in it, and I don't want anything to do with it anymore. I hate it. It's stupid." So I am keeping my fingers crossed. I don't work hard to keep myself in shape and attractive for nothin! Haha, yes I've been getting more into that. I showed up to visit him at work yesterday with one on under my clothes, and this morning I suggested we both get in the shower with them on. (We always shower together) Thank you for the great advice. You all are good people and you have been very helpful to me.

This is so sad! : ( My husband has tried very hard to make sense of his liking to diapers, to no avail. At least you know and understand why you feel the way you do...

Hmm... yes I can see some logic in that. Thanks for the info.

You are absolutely correct. While the diaper thing was a very weird and uncomfortable fetish for me to grasp for a long time, I do accept it now and it honestly doesn't even really bother me. I found out about all this still being an issue for him about 1 week ago, and since then I've participated with him and incorporated it into our sex life when he's in the mood for it, and honestly, I have no problem with it. You are correct, it's the lying and the "porn" that has really upset me. Especially the porn. Thank you for taking the time to write me this reply and for being kind to me. I do appreciate it very much. Like I said, in mine and my husbands religion and the way we were brought up, porn is a huge no no. The "porn" he looks at are very very mild pictures of normal, fully dressed girls goofing around with diapers. (Example: http://good-times.webshots.com/photo/1487501269077086711JVEZJa) I've seen the pictures and they really aren't bad at all, which I am thankful for, but it is still considered porn because of their purpose to him. I hope you are incorrect about "some men just liking porn," in regards to my husband. The only type of "porn" he looks at is this mild diaper stuff. He tells me now that since I just recently started participating in his fetish, he will no longer have a desire to fill that void by looking at it. It's only been a week so I can only hope this is the case. Nonetheless, I wish I could understand WHY my body and my lovemaking weren't enough to satisfy him... WHY he still needed the diaper aspect of it, so much so that he'd resort to pictures of other woman before I participated

Thank you for the kind reply. We do have a compromise... as I said, I offered to participate with him, and I have done so. I accept it now and I accept that this is something that will never change. However, I'm just hurt about the fact that he's lied to me for so long and that he had been getting off on pictures of other women while I've always been here and available. He says he'll stop the practice now, because now I'm willing to participate, but I'm still just very hurt, that's all. I guess I just want to understand why/how this certain object is sooo important that my body can't be enough.

I didn't threaten to break up with him for having the fetish..., as I know he can't help that, I threatened to break up with him because of the "diaper porn" thing he kept looking at. Perhaps YOU'RE the one being narrow minded? I get that in this day and age porn is ok and accepted, but him and I were both raised differently than that, and it is an understanding that porn is a huge offense to the other partner. It's our religion, it's the way we were brought up and we both feel this way. As far as me being around goes, honestly, the only time he's ever home alone is maybe once or twice a week for one or two hours at best. And when I come home from work, it's not like I'm busy or anything. I come home and spend time with him. When I say I'm always available, I really do mean I'm always available.

Hello. I'm a 25 year old newly wed wife to a man who is into the whole diaper thing. I've been browsing this forum for the past couple of days and just finally decided to tell my story. My husband and I have been together for almost 5 years now, and we just recently got married a few months ago. Two years into our relationship, about 3 years ago, he came clean to me about his mild fetish with diapers. That night he told me that he's had a bit of a fascination with diapers for as long as he can remember, and once he learned how to drive and had his own car (in high school) he began occasionally purchasing diapers and wearing them on rare occasions - like when he was home all by himself or his parents were out of town. He continued this practice through college - wearing diapers on semi rare occasions (about a couple times every few months) when his roommate wasn't around. (This was all stuff he told me of course, since he was too ashamed to ever even think about wearing them around me.) He explained to me that to him, diapers were a security thing as well as a sexual thing, though he was NOT into the AB ordeal whatsoever. Words cannot describe the way I felt that night when he was telling me all this. I had never heard of such a fetish before in my life, and I was scared, shocked, angry, disgusted, freaked out... but most of all I was disappointed. Disappointed that this "perfect man" had such a huge skeleton in the closet - such a weird, freaky side. (Now keep in mind, telling me all this was mortifying to him as well. He is a very decent, religious, respectable and honorable human being. He hates this fetish and is very ashamed of it. He came clean to me about all this because he felt guilty for keeping it a secret from me. NOT because he was looking for acceptance or trying to get me to participate.) I was completely horrified with the whole thing. Both of us are fairly conservative, religious people who waited until marriage to have sex. The thing about it that hurt me the most is when he admitted to me (after much probing on my part) that he sometimes goes on a certain website (girls-n-diapers.com) with pictures of girls wearing diapers and... well... "get's off" on it. He explained to me that the pictures he looked at are very mild pictures of fully clothed, normal, everyday girls just wearing diapers to be goofy or whatever, and that he doesn't like the more graphic stuff, like the pictures in this (DD) website for example. Though I knew and understood that the pictures he looked at were very mild, it still really hurt me to know that he got off on looking at other women. To me, that's still porn... no matter how "modest" the pictures are. So anyway, that night was a whole fiasco. I cried, he cried, he apologized profusely, I threatened to break up with him, etc etc. When all was said and done, I forgave him and he promised me that he would never disrespect me by resorting to any type of porn at all, and that he would do whatever it took to get over this whole diaper thing altogether. So 3 years go by. During the course of those 3 years he swears to me that the fetish is over and that he has not gone back to look at "diaper porn" or any kind of porn whatsoever. We get married this past August. About a week ago he tells me he needs to talk to me and pretty much admits that he's been lying to my face this whole time. He tells me that he has not only continued to wear diapers from time to time (while not around ppl), but that he has also been going back to that girls-n-diapers website to "do his thing," even after we've been married!! I've been much better about it this time around. I've even offered to let him wear them when he wants (which really isn't too often) and I've been willingly participating with him during foreplay for sex. However, I am very very hurt and very shocked by the fact that: a. He's been lying to my face for the past 3 years, and b. That he's continued resorting to things other than myself for sexual gratification Mainly it's B that hurts me the most. He has a good job working >40 hours a week, which means I don't have to work that much, so I'm almost always home and available to him whenever he wants. I've never denied him of sex, I'm a physically fit, attractive girl, and I'm almost always around. It hurts that he's been resorting to something other than myself for sexual gratification when I'M ALWAYS HERE! He apologized profusely again and cried and told me how ashamed he was of himself and how he didn't' deserve me and yadda yadda... and of course, he told me that now he was 100% sure that he would never look at diaper pictures again because now I was participating with him, so he "wouldn't want to look at anyone else wearing them ever again." This may seem like a happy ending and a solution to both our problems, but I am still very very hurt, and I want to understand this whole diaper thing. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough and like I didn't satisfy him enough with just me and my body - like he needed this "thing," this object, to find complete satisfaction. And this is evident in his turning to that stupid website rather than just waiting for me to get home and having sex with me. I just don't understand it, and maybe a few of you out there could help shed some light??