daisygirl

first off i would like to say thank you very much to everyone who replied it means alot a its helped me so much. im out of town at the moment but me and my boyfriend usually talk to eachother on the phone each night so i think i will talk to him about it tonight. unless of course hes more comfortable talking in person but sometimes people are more comfortable talking not face to face so ill see what he wants to do. second im doing this on my phone because i have no computer at the moment so i cant specifically look at anyones names while replying (or if infact i can i havent figured out this phone yet...lol) but to the one person who mentioned they were depressed ive had my own struggles with that in the past after my grandpa passed away. i had to see a therapist for it and was diagnosed with bipolar depression. they put me on wellbutrin and seraquil. my mom said i improved and seemed less moody but while i was on the pills i felt different and not myself. after i stopped seeing the therapist but was still on the pills i quit taking the medication. ive been off them a few months and still have downish periods but for the most part feel okay. i just didnt like the idea of taking medication that would change how i behaved, like i felt that something besides myself mightve been influencing my descisions and such. what helps me now thru my bad moments is talking to my closest guy friend, whos also in the military but stationed across the country. sometimes it helps having someone chill just to mouth off to when stuff gets bad. i hope you pull thru and best wishes <3 i get the comfort thing now and he was raised in a different enviroment than i was and even though hes 20 his mom has alot of sway in his life (he still lives at home) and sometimes seems almost terrified to displease her or disobey (coming home a little late, his car smelling like smoke, etc). thats got to be stressful and it was his ma in the first place who made him see the therapist. mmmm....as far as incorporating it into sex, ive been turning over the idea. maybe ill wear one soon if he continues to have difficulties in bed, id hate to HAVE to do it because he cant get off without it but if he absolutely NEEDS it i dont know if there would be another option. if not, then our aniversary is coming up so i kind of want to suprise him with one,if only just to see his reaction but i still dont know. the whole idea still is kind of new. but if it is harmless then i cant see anything wrong with it besides the initial weirding out. (:

my boyfriend of a few months told me last night he was a diaper lover. hes twenty and has had this since he was a little boy. hes not gay or transexual or anything like that, but becase he was afraid how people might react hasnt been close to a girl except me for a while. the last girl he was with and told completely broke his heart and he still hurts from time to time. i dont want to do the same thing to him, especially since i took his virginity and i know hes fallen for me. i love him very much and am kindof confused right now. i dont understand the fetish at all. i mean, im no angel and ive told him some wicked kinky things ive done in past reationships since we decided to start talking about our pasts (threesome, making out with girls, masturbating in front of an ex, striptease, etc) but ive never even heard of anything like this before. hes seen a therapist about it before and even has a myspace account under a fake name so he can connect with other dls and adult babies. he tried explaining it as a comfort thing at first but its more than that. sometimes he has trouble comeing when we get intimate, but i attributed it to nerves sine he so recently lost his virginity and is still relatively inexperienced and very self concious about it. last night after he told me i said i would be supportive and try to understand even though i think its really weird and just seeing the pictures of him in diapers made me really uncomfortable. he asked me to wear a diaper to bed sometime but im kind of reluctant to do that. so can anyone here please help me make sense of it all because i dont want to hurt him and i love him alot but im just so...weirded out by this. and on top of it all hes been there for me when i decided to join the navy and hes one of the few people ive came out to being a bisexual and he doesnt hve a problem with either of it so i want to be there for him in the same way but i just dont know what i should do :/ help?