Kwontumn

Ever since I've gotten access to diapers I've wanted to wet them. I've been able to mess them tons of times but never been able to wet. I just can't go. I've tried holding it in and it just wont come out. Anything you guys can suggest would be greatly appreciated! Thanks a bunch!

First time I can remember pooping on purpose was when I was 8. I had done it before, in a diaper no less, when I was at my neighbors house and we were playing house. I usually played the husband while she played the wife, but this time she wanted me to be the baby and diaper me. I was only 5 at the time and saw no harm in it; and ended up pooping myself like a baby. However, like I said before, I was only 5 so I didnt know it was a taboo. By the time I was 8 I knew that pooping in your pants was a taboo, let alone a diaper. But just randomly while I was playing Ape Escape on my Playstation I wanted to poop in my pants. I wore underwear back then so I put on 2-3 pairs, pull my pants up, squatted and pooped a very hard load into my pants. It was probably the most exhilarating I had felt in my whole life up to that point, and only one or two moments have ever topped it.

WOW! I didn't think I would get so many replies! I thank all of you for giving your input, and I didn't let any of your input go in one ear and out the other (or if you want to get specific in both eyes then just got kinda lost...) My next appointment isn't for a few more weeks so having some more input from people would be fantastic!

Just recently I revealed to my psychiatrist about my deep, dark secret; obviously since i'm on this site you can guess what that secret is. I am trying to think of really normal things I could call AB/DL that wouldn't sound embarassing. I am a VERY shy person and had trouble revealing my secret; I need a word that is really simple and catchy for the conversations I have with my psychiatrist. So! I am calling upon you, the dailydiapers community, to help me! What do you think would be a good word for it?