Sorry if I wasn't being very clear before on the matter, I guess I was nervous about posting. Plus I would like to thank those who did reply to the post.
I guess...I'm still dealing with the whole idea and world of dl's. I keep coming back to the message boards and websites hope to get something, because my boyfriend is not one to really open up to me. It's as though I'm have to magical understand him, when in fact I don't all the time. So talking is not something that is going to do it here and I know that is what everyone is most likely going to say about it. Instead I'm learning to just go with the flow even if there are rapids ahead.
Again I do thank those who did reply to the first post and hope everyone is doing great themselves.