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Woke up this morning in a dry Dry 24/7 left over from a sample pack. Was 8 minutes late for a team conference call. Hurriedly waddled to the home office, dialed into the call... and peed. I had to go SO bad! Now I'm an hour in to the call, have gone from warm and wet to the bulky but dry-to-the-skin feeling, and I'm looking at another two hours of conference calls. I wouldn't have peed myself without them on, but I'd have been miserable and would've been looking for a few minutes to slip out to the bathroom (which I haven't had yet). Yay! for functional! Oh, and apparently after heading to bed last night, I snored louder and longer than I've ever snored before - even a paci didn't stop it, as once I was asleep it dropped out and I snored and snored and snored.

Why? Why lewdness? You know what that means, right? "Crude and offensive in a sexual way." Why on earth would you want to be crude and offensive? In Texas it's not illegal to walk down the street in a diaper. You're covering your privates. You'll likely get harassed, but that's what you're asking for. That's still a WORLD of difference from stroking yourself in a diaper in the middle of the street. That's lewd, and it SHOULD be illegal - you do not have the right, in polite society, to force your crude behavior on others who aren't willing. Find a willing partner, community or event? Absolutely. A pride parade, perhaps, where it's UNDERSTOOD that things the general public considers lewd will be seen, fine. But lewdness is illegal for a reason... and there's nothing stopping you from sagging your pants and showing to everyone you want now... except it doesn't carry the same thrill for you it would otherwise. Most others in this world don't want to think about your choice of underwear or what you do in them. Sorry if that doesn't meet your expectations.

This is where I ordered from. VERY fast turnaround - I'm expecting them next week. GOOD communication, too!

So my wife knew about my DL status before we were engaged. No surprises there. Very accepting, and though not forward about it, participatory in terms of helping me powder, get diapered, etc. Even wore once at my request. No thrill for her, but no turn-off. Fast forward to this week. Got some new Dry 24/7 to try (see my other thread about my thoughts on these). Have worn twice this week, and the first time, woke up SOAKED (but after wife had left for work) but no leakage (yay!). Second time, got in bed after she was already asleep and fell asleep diapered and with my paci, but it's a smaller one. Decided I was comfortable enough, and so was she, that I ordered an adult paci. Told her about it and joked it might help with my snoring. She stopped dead in her tracks, grinned, and exclaimed "I want one!" I told her I didn't know she enjoyed it, and she said the small ones we had were too small, but that she grew up a thumb sucker and popped her thumb in her mouth. Instant erection... but unfortunately we were walking out the door and on a strict timeline. So I've ordered hers, get mine, and mentioned to her that I'd be horny all weekend now (we're apart this weekend - separate plans) thinking about her with a paci in her mouth. She smirked and said "aww, too bad!" as she swatted me on the butt and kissed me goodbye. So, progress... even if it's only self-involved. I'll take it and enjoy every minute!

So I'm less than thrilled with the tapes and will probably stick with the Abena's until I've lost the weight I want to properly fit a Bambino.

Just wore my second one last night. Both have had problems with the white tapes not being sticky like the blue and required additional tape from elsewhere to stay re-sealed. So far, X-Plus is looking like my full-time friend. Dry is comfy and bulky, but I need it to stay on, and snugly.

Orgasm. Really. Rub one out.

Is that really a benefit?

So I'd never tried Dry 24/7 and I was out of X-Plus, so I ordered a sample pack of each from XP Medical. They came yesterday. I'm interviewing for new jobs this week and doing some press interviews for articles I expect to see published this month, so it's been hectic and stressful in a different way. I mentioned my higher stress level to my wife and she said "we'll have to fix that," to which I replied "we can... the new sample packs came today!" She grinned and we were good to go later that night. Not to get too off-topic, but it's not a week that she's interested in sexual activity, so there was no "interference" with our normal sex life, etc. I got a shower, dried off, and we pulled out the box. Even she could immediately see and appreciate the size difference (thickness) of the Dry 24/7's, and pulling one out commented that they were spongy with a giggle. She laid it out, I laid down on it, she powdered me up, pointed me down and taped me up. Holy crap! The Dry 24/7 is THICK. Between the thickness, the amount of coverage and the inside/outside leg gathers, it's incredibly secure. I laid there in bed, pretty much unable to close my legs (I could if I forced it) just reveling in the soft, wrapped, surrounded feeling. I normally twitch as I fall asleep, generally one or two twitches and I'm off... then I tend to snore loudly (no sleep apnea - I've been through a sleep study and they determined that I don't stop breathing, I just rotate through snore patterns). Last night, though, I drifted off to sleep much more slowly. My wife and I had a chance for some pillow-talk as I fell asleep, and she thought it was cute how relaxed I seemed to be getting... and compared my amusement with the thickness between my legs with her disdain for big pads, which she compared to diapers. I commented on the difference of diapers being snug and hugging you vs. just being between your legs and she agreed that was a difference (but indicates that if she wears again, it'll likely be something thinner that she'd appreciate more). And, she snuggled up against me - normally, since I move in my sleep she sleeps with a body pillow between us to prevent getting rolled over on, etc... but not last night. Anyway, I drifted off to sleep in spurts, waking up once and asking if I was snoring. She said yes, but very lightly, which she appreciated, and told me that my whole body had been twitching lightly in different phases - feet, then hands, then arms, then legs, etc. Not violent, not seizure-like, just light, as if my body was relaxing bit by bit. Next thing I remember is partially waking up (hours later, much darker outside) needing to pee. I don't ever do anything to make myself pee - drink extra water, etc - I just wear for comfort but neither of us mind if I do wet since it's held in and not messy... and, well, it's a diaper... that's what it's made for! I remember thinking that I needed to pee, then just going... and going... and going. I think I started to panic about the volume, but being tired, I'm not sure if it was as much as I might have thought it was... then again, maybe it was (these Dry 24/7 are THIRSTY!). I fell back asleep while I was wetting. I think I woke up once more wetting, but that might have been a dream since I had already wet (though I didn't feel wet). The next morning, though, I woke up and needed to pee again, so I rolled over on my back and just did. It sucked it right up and felt very relaxing to just be able to do what I needed to do, and I think it helped that the diaper was already partially wet because it wasn't one of those "wake up dry, need to pee, do it to not waste a dry diaper kind of pees. I don't think I've ever wet a diaper that much (I have no physical need for diapers, and on the occasion I need to pee while I'm asleep, I wake up 99% of the time and go). It speaks a lot to the level of relaxation and naturalness, and a lot of that comes from relaxed acceptance from my wife, too, and her understanding. Of course by the time I woke up she's already gone to work, but still... the cuddling was something special and unexpected and I'm going to make sure she knows that.

So, first wear report based on my earlier post (above) about receiving them. The lack of a rear waistband is noticeable. They didn't seem to fit quite right, and the tapes seemed weak. That could be related to how we felt the need to tape them, though, to keep the back snug (and of course my body style). Did get them secured, just had to use different strips of stickier tape to do it. Once secured, very comfortable. Probably the best experience I've had in a diaper. And they hold a LOT. I didn't intend to wet (I don't try not to, I just didn't do anything special to make myself wet) but I did, and more than once. Wow. These things are thirsty! I can imagine that with the rear waistband and the right tape position these would be absolutely perfect. Looking at their web site, it looks like Large should now be peach. True, or do I have this backwards and the white Large are the new ones?

I didn't take it as a flame as it wasn't strongly personal against me, per se, just against this type of thread. I appreciate your jumping to my side and you echo my point - each of us is at a different place in terms of comfort, and exists in a different social situation. In a perfect world nobody would ever know because I'd have no need or reason to tell them. In the real world, I coexist with others, and even at work we find ourselves in various states of dress/undress at any given time... so even if I wanted to (I don't), I wouldn't wear at work... and I don't talk about it with people I work with because discussing our closed-door fetishes of any kind simply isn't a conversation topic, nor one we'd likely want to encroach on anyway because we need a strong trust relationship not distractions. Be that as it may, I'm glad this community exists.

Just a reference point. My Dry 24/7 sample from XP arrived today. Large. White. Front waistband, no back waistband. Came with a new Abena sample (Super/X-Plus). First thought? Holy crap these are huge (as in thick, coverage)! Can't wait to get one on later and see...

Except that I work in a community that would, in fact, shun this, and it would negatively affect my ability to perform effectively at work. I also don't particularly want the "weird" label from family, etc. and the BS that goes along with that when I can avoid it by keeping private things private.

Encouragement works, too. Telling her what you appreciate, what you like, what you remember liking from times past... it's very powerful and shows that in any situation it's not just about you, even when it's focused on you. It's part of that give and take. I can confidently say that I could get into almost any fetish and my wife would at least tolerate it because she knows that if she isn't comfortable with it I'm not likely to find it fulfilling enough to continue with. Not that she wouldn't let me, but she knows I place her on the importance scale, too. Today is a good example. She asked me to help her with an event at her work. She never asks for ANYTHING related to work, and for her to do so means she really wants my participation. I moved events around, re-scheduled meetings, etc. to make sure I carved out that time for her... and was rewarded for it last night as a "thank you for tomorrow" kind of thing. It's that "knowing you'll be there" that means something, and for me, too. As long as I'm appreciated, I'll try to accept anything she needs or wants, period.

So even if I don't fully appreciate tcc's tone, he's right. I'm not saying anything new... but that's really the point. I don't have a lot in my profile because I don't want to be identified. Too many problems with too many people knowing, especially since it's a choice/fetish and not a need-based thing for me. And, I don't consider it everyone's business... but I do enjoy sharing in a community of folks who have the same appreciation. So, no, nothing new and revealing... but an appreciated venue of expression into a community that won't respond with "that's stupid, what are you, gay/impotent/<insert_derisive_statement_here>?" I'm luck enough to have an accepting wife who will sometimes participate (when she's not tired, and when her needs are being met reciprocally as well when she needs them met)... and a wife for whom I can interact outside the boundaries of this fetish to engage with her in her space, on her terms. That's why being away, in a hotel, by myself, can be so comforting... and diapered moreso. Then again, I was stressed out from work this week, and last night diapered myself for the evening, etc. She was busy with her work (crunch week for her) so she never even noticed (that I know of), but there was still an instant relaxation and demeanor change. So, tcc, you're right - no new news here. Just another thread where someone who's not as comfortable as others with their personal participation in this fetish is able to express himself more and more. Thanks!

Depends on the wife. I told mine before we were married. She already knew about my panty fetish and had taken me shopping. She also knew it was a fetish and not a 100% must have thing, and that I knew there were times and places for everything. I explained diapering in terms of stress, mood and calming, as well as a different, softer sensation w.r.t. genitalia. She understood. She even wore overnight once to try it. She's not "into it," but she accepts. As time has gone on she understands that she can be into it when she wants, and encourages me when she senses stress is higher, etc. Hell, this weekend she even admitted that after helping me powder (just powder, no diaper, chaffing issues...) that later that night she smelled baby powder on her hands and got sexually excited thinking about it/me/her. So yes, some women understand that the fetish doesn't define the man. The problem I see on here most often is that the man IS defined by the fetish... and the man wants it to be central to everything else in their relationship. That's not a recipe for a healthy relationship no matter WHAT's at the center - diapers, money, togetherness, houses, etc. You've got to be able to keep things separate when they need to be, and for each person/couple/relationship that line will be in a different place and IT WILL MOVE depending on what else is going on. She must know that above all else, SHE comes first... and you have to be willing to put her first. And she you... which is how you ACTUALLY meet in the middle. If you're unwilling to put her first, ever, even if she never asked you to, you need to re-evaluate whether a relationship is as important as your diapers. I'd guess that for some on here, it's not... but they think they'd like it to be when in reality they wouldn't. I have no advice for that (and no judgement).

So woke up dry but very, very relaxed. Stress is melting away. One more night away tonight then I fly out in the morning... This reminds me of a thread on here a while back about sleeping better when diapered. I don't wear 24/7, in fact I don't wear often - it really is a fetish for me, so not being a "normal" part of my routine is part of it - but I certainly think about it more than I do it. Not obsessively, just a reminder here and there. And, FWIW, I'm pretty happy with the Certainty. Not the most secure thing around, but works well enough that's it's manageable. Definitely a one-wet diaper, though, if it happens to happen.

For all kinds of reasons that are too long to get into here (but everyone is probably personally familiar with in their own lives) I haven't been diapered in a while. I'm actually going to rectify that by placing a new order, but for now I'm on a business trip and it's been rather stressful. I'm in a hotel, in a city where nobody knows me, so why not indulge? So I stopped by Walgreens. Not the best quality (I prefer an X-Plus, and I'm looking forward to trying Dry 24/7 soon) available, but I picked up a pack of Certainty with the velcro tabs. Checked in, came up to the room, got settled and pulled one out. 3 minutes later and I was fit properly... instant relief! Relaxation - enough that I'd sat down in a chair at the computer (to check on my flight home, and catch up on email, actually) and almost instantly needed to (and did) pee. Almost like my brain recognized my situation and simply let go. I can't stress how much more relaxed I am. And, since I didn't flood, I'm actually not feeling "wet" - just snug with the swelling of the diaper. I'm looking forward to a shower, shave and change later tonight, and one of the best night's sleep I've had in a while.

Going to see inception tonight. Just got more Abena Supers in this week. Being a 2.5 hour movie + trailers, and having had dinner out with family just 2 hours before, I'll be glad to not have to get up.

I'm up for this...

I'd be up for the next one...

Another update... we're married! And, the other night before the wedding, we were lying in bed talking about stress and de-stressing, and she asked if I wanted to wear a diaper (because she knows how that helps relieve stress). I replied that I was thinking about wearing a pullup (Walgreens, had a case and they're easy and cheap for those times when I don't need the whole package) but because we only had about 5 hours to sleep, it wasn't worth using a diaper. She agreed and said "if we had more time tonight, I'd join you." What a great thing to hear... so her wearing to see what it was like has turned into something she enjoys and we can enjoy together on occasion. Last time (and her first time) I was in a Molicare and her comment was "next time I want a purple one!" So, of course, I have an Abena for me (very thick!) and a Molicare for her for sometime this week/weekend. For now, we've been enjoying what she got for her bachelorette party - the black lace set she wore last night was really soft, so soft that she told me I needed to try the robe sometime (I'm a full-time panty wearer, we've shopped together, and have some sleepwear we play with as well). So, it can happen... it just requires honesty and trust. Hope that helps encourage someone!

Quick update... things went well. Best night's sleep I've had in a long, long time. First time my brain has finally turned off and let me rest, and I actually had REM sleep and dreams. I don't remember all of them, but at least I know I had them. And, we woke up together in a great mood and got off to the start of our respective days. I'm certainly not a 24x7 wearer, and not an every night wearer, but the acceptance is there and now the understanding is there. In fact, she said "next time, I want a purple one, too" (mine was a purple molicare, hers was a white bambino classico). Oh, and while it's not "my thing," sucking a paci worked for her, and it did has a calming effect on me. I can certainly see the attraction.

Thanks for the welcome. I kind of appreciate that there's no cookie cutter... I like things some people don't and others like things I don't. That said, tonight could be interesting. After our talk last week, we haven't had a chance to follow through, but we have talked some more and she's a lot more comfortable (or less threatened by) me wearing... and comfortable that I know about her thumb sucking. Tonight we're going to diaper each other (until now it's just been me in walgreens pullups, which didn't require her help), cuddle up and fall asleep together. Since she can't fall asleep thumb sucking (and it's not really completely practical for sleeping together snuggled up) I bought a two pack of pacis. I've never played around with the AB side of things before, but if it helps make it fun and comfortable, i'm all for it... and if not, no big deal. I'm really looking forward to going to sleep and waking up diapered, and snuggling all night long in the safety and comfort of a real diaper, not just a pullup, and looking forward to the shared emotional experience of it all.

So I've been on a couple other sites, but never really seemed to fit in. To start, I'm a DL. I prefer to stay dry - I've tried wetting and it's fun for the taboo, but I find it uncomfortable almost immediately after having done so. I'm certainly not into the "change me" play, either giving or receiving, if the reason is because I'm wet. Likewise, messy is out (did that once, as a kid, never enjoyed it or did it again. Nothing against AB's or DL's that enjoy this - just saying it's not me. Diapers are more a "wearable" fetish for me - I also enjoy wearing panties, and prefer fabrics other than cotton. Diapers, like panties, provide an emotional release that I just don't get elsewhere... with diapers providing more of a snuggly, secure feeling than anything else. Recently I had the opportunity to tell the GF. I did this by wearing to bed, sleeping in them (mine was a walgreen's pullup, nothing 'special'), then us waking up together and her discovering it slowly (we often wake up tangled up together). This turned into a sexual experience between us, which was a first for me and began turning diapers sexual. Sure, I'd masturbated in diapers before, but had never shared them (or the sexual aspect) with anyone else. She was accepting but since that original encounter and one more shortly after, hasn't been encouraging (she enjoys me in panties, as she loves feeling me in different fabrics and seeing how I react differently, it's a treat for her and she's told me so). Since that time I've purchased a sample pack of other 'real' diapers in what I hope are my size (I'm a bigger guy), but for all sorts of reasons we've not had a lot of time together, or when we did, it wasn't really 'alone' for any relaxing length of time. Well, this week we've got a week away in a hotel while spending time with family, so I packed up a couple of samples, plus a sample in her size, as I've had a sneaking suspicion that she'd enjoy wearing for the same reasons. Anyway, we got to talk about it the other night, and discuss that she hasn't been comfortable with me wearing, primarily because she doesn't understand it the same way she does the panty wearing, and she's afraid it takes away something from my emotional relationship with her. I got to explain that it doesn't, that it actually calms me down and puts me in a place to be closer, and more open emotionally, and she understands. And the surprise? She's a thumb-sucker, and feels the same self-doubt about it I do about diapers. And she shared that. So that's where we're at, with a night in diapers and cuddling thumb-sucking likely coming up. And she's open to wearing, if only to find out what it does for her. Or for me... Maybe it'll become sexual, maybe not... but I'm looking forward to finding out either way, and to building the sort of trust that acceptance comes from.