Angela Bauer

I have never believed it possible or desirable to try keeping incontinence a huge secret. When I reached puberty at age 12 in 1976 I began a loss of bladder control. My mom had virtually no bladder control then, some her sisters had poor control, and my slightly older sister needed diapers at night. Within the family none of our diaer needs was a secret, but even then mom knew outsiders might not be so accepting. I figured my diapers would be a problem when I started college in 1981. Washing cloth didees was not practical so I made do with dispoables. Much to my surprise enough of my classmates used diapers part time it was not shamefull. By law school mt friends were so open about disposables bags of Attends and Depend were in plain sight in dorm rooms. Today I am a responsible partner in a major law firm. I specialize in corporate litigation, with enough senority I have a private lav. Yet if I need to change my disposable in a public ladies room even at the court, I do not consier it a problem. Where I am discreet is not telling anyone without a need to know that I use adult baby games to cope with my incontinence. Yet outsiders have seen me work a pacifier and did not flee in terror.

There is no wrong answer! Cloth and disposable diapers have their uses. I was born in 1964. The history section of the P&G Pampers website tells me that they were marketing Pampers in limited quantity by then. Additional research tells me several forms of paper disposable diapers for infants were being sold as early as the mid 1940's. However, my extended family hug trees. My granny, Mom and aunts would not consider any dispoable for their kids, even when the kid was sick and making runny messes. I was old enough to remember a trip when my youngest sister was not quite toilet trained and also had the runs. In a couple of hours Mom and my older sister had changed the sick baby so often they ran out of cloth diapers in the car. Mom had to stop and send my oldest sis into a supermarket to buy a bag of Pampers, a first for the family, and a secret Mom kept from her sisters for months! The fact is younger adult babies and most incontinent adults have no cloth diaper experience. I happen to prefer pinned cloth diapers made of gauze. Just before First Years stopped making their classic Style 3200, I bought a case of those cards. Probably my stash of larger than average diaper pins will last the rest of my life. I know diaper pins are not easy to find. So I do use disposables part of most days. I can even feel babyish wearing a pull-up Depend Adjustable, and I can also feel totally adult and responsible seconds after pinning a gauze diaper on me and making sure it is totally tucked inside my vinyl panties. No problem either way!

Why not have it all? Sure, I am incontinent, but I also have an active big baby girl inside. So I was brat enough to demand New Diapers + Cookies with Milk + A Santa Visit + World Peace combined with A Diaper Change. The fact is I wear some kind of diaper 24/7. When home I really find cloth diapers and separate vinyl panties more comfy and effective so long as I do not need to be discreet. The rest of the time I use various kinds of disposable products. This means I routinely buy disposables more than once a week. The brand of soft thin vinyl panties I wear last fairly well, so although I need 2-3 changes an evening, I only need to buy a dozen new panties a year, adding about one a month to the rotation. My adult cotton gauze diapers last even longer. I still have some adult gauze prefolds I bought in 2001. The Gerber toddler Birdseye prefolds I use as soakers I buy in quantity as necessary and add 24-36 to rotation a year, tossing then as they get worn. My newest style is using 36" square gauze flat diapers. I ordered 2 to try a couple of months ago. They worked so great I immediately bought 12 more. None show any wear yet, and I still have 4 in reserve. Still, I always love some sort of big baby gifts, perhaps a new ruffled dress or a big stuffed toy. No big baby can have too many cookies and milk by the bottle with c super clear nipple! Santa clearly loves diaper wearing people of all ages! Our diapers save his lap! World Peace will be a good thing. Sure, I can change my own diapers and have done so since 1976. Still, nothing to me is as loving as when my dear husband spreads one of my diapers on the changing table, folds that with some soakers and then places me on my back over my diaper so he can tug it snug and pin it securely. After he has my vinyl panyies in place and has checked that all my diaper is inside, he signals me with a gentle pat on the base of my bottom and a kiss on my forehead. See, I can ask for it all!

Back in 1976 when I was 12 and just reached puberty, nobody gave me a vote or choice. Some genetic defect caused me to lose my bladder control. This was expected, because many women in my family have the same problem. For years I actually still had control during the day, when I could concentrate. My bladder even when I had control was puny, so as a kid I woke up a couple of times each night. For law school I began wearing a tape-on disposable under my skirt so I could sit through long lectures. At age 25 I realized I needed diapers 24/7. I have sisters who only need diapers when sleeping, but my youngest sis and our mom are like me, in didees 24/7. Personally I never tried to keep my incontinence a huge secret. Honestly I do not think it possible to keep a need for diapers a secret from people you love or work with a lot. I am far mre discreet telling folks I use adult baby play to cope with my incontinence. Funny about Karma and getting what you want. My dad did not know about mom's diapers until shortly before they married. Dad would sometimes be irritated over the time washing millions of cloth diapers required. Then a few years ago Dad sufferred prostate cancer. He had a catheter with leg bag, then disposables. Very quickly Dad learned about the up and down sides of incontinence. Trust me, he is thrilled to have re-gained bladder control, yet still keeps pull-on disposables on hand for trips. My husband knew all about my diaper need from the moment we met. That night we fell in love so I told him about being a big baby girl to relax. That did not shock him. We had been married over 5 years when he started supervising the graveyard shift. The first time he tried sleeping during the day, he dribbled a bit. When I found out I teased him with a Depend Overnight. After a couple of other dribble incidents he asked me to teach him to put on his own Depend. Funny, he never had any trouble pinning a cloth diaper on me. Eventually he learned to pin cloth diapers on himself. This does not mean he is an active big baby boy, and he is not in the classic sense a bedwetter. When he sleeps during the night he has control, but now a few years later he finds simply wearing a diaper in bed security. When we feel romantic neither of us wear a diaper. That is why our bed has a waterproof sheet! Okay, so this year my husband needed prostate surgery. The new robotic surgery works super. It has been nearly 6 months and my husband has even better control than before the surgery, yet he sees no reason to give up wearing a diaper when he wants.

When they first came out my husband and I saw "Enchanted" and "Juno" which we adored. Ever since "Catch Me If You Can" we have adored Amy Adams, so loving "Enchanted" was obvious. Ellen Page is younger. A year or so back she made "Hard Candy" which is a difficult film, dealing with sexual abuse, but Ellen was marvelous. "Juno" is great. Last night we saw "Charlie Wilson's War" with not only Tom Hanks and Phillip Seymore Hoffman, but also Julia roberts, Amy Adams and Emily Blunt (from Devil wears Prada). First chance we get we will be seeing some of the other new films. A real advantage to wearing diapers all the time is that I never need to miss a second of a movie, concert or stage play. I put on a dry one before it starts, and change after it is over if necessary.

Hi All, Thanks for letting me join. When I was 12 and a couple of weeks after reaching puberty I started to lose bladder control. This was not unexpected because many of the female relatives on my mom's side have a similar problem. Granny, mom and some aunts wet, as did a few older gal cousins. My older sis started wetting her bed at puberty. Since me both of my younger sisters began to wet at puberty. For mom, my youngest sis (Missy) and myself (Angela) wetting is 24/7. Although some might consider it tacky, even outlandish, my kid sis and myself have used adult baby play as a coping method. We figure sine we wear diapers all the time like a baby, we might as well have some fun. Fortunately when Missy started college she met and married John, who totally supports her diaper needs. While in college for pre-law and then law school I did not make a huge secret of my incontinence, I was discreet about my big baby girl activities. I was almost 27 and already an attorney when I met Don Davis. He loves me as I am and treats me well. We have been married since 1991. When I was an actual infant mom tells me she only used cloth diapers and vinyl panties on me. I do not remember that time, but did see her diapering younger siblings. Missy is young enough I got to change her a lot when she was a baby. I was already away at college when she reached puberty. I had to learn to make-do with 1981-style adult disposables when I left for college, since I would not have easy access to a washer and drier. Honestly as soon as I married I reverted to wearing pinned cloth diapers with separate vinyl panties at home for bed. Days then and now I use various kinds of disposable slip-in pads, pull-up and tape-on Depending on the situation. So, in the survey I answered Cloth, Vinyl and Pink. There are no wrong answers. We each need to wear what works for us and what is to us comfy. Obviously when diapers are a sexual pleasure they must be appropriate. People my age and older must have known cloth to a certain extent. Probably most born after 1970 hardly ever wore cloth. Bummer only generic and a few styles of Depend are sold openly in stores near us. When I started college Attends were still made by P&G so available all over. I do buy some Attends on-line, but also find Depend Adjustable work fine, if not babyish. Something to consider is that traditional slip-in pads for women are not effective or comfy. What I do is buy toddler disposables, for example Pampers Cruiser Size 4. They hold lots and are not very expensive. Then I cut off the side flaps. The rest is an effective and soft slip-in that will last for me 5-6 hours. Changing is discreet in a public ladies room if needed.