I guess I'm really confused because this is pretty new to me. I started enjoying the feel of diapers after an accident. I was never incontinent though. But I liked the feel of dry cloth on me and I felt a lot more secure than in plain underpants. I do enjoy pretending to be little and being cuddled but if I have to use the washroom I get up and go and use it. Messy diapers do not do anything for me and my happiest fantasy is being a clean little baby. I play ice hockey as well so I don't think I am too sissy. I have only told two friends and explained it by telling them that i just liked the way it felt.
Im probably not explaining this well.