Guitar Lover

As someone who is almost 47 and still needs to cum about 5 times a day I agree with Sarah. Oh, and by the way, people think I'm around 38. Paul.

Okay, I cannot stop thinking avout this vivid dream. For some reason I was with my ex wife in a town hall standing in line waiting for someone to help us search for properties. I was wearing overight depends under these shorts I have that if I don't wear a belt they will slide halfway down. As I was standing in line I had to keep pulling my shorts up and everytime I did you heard a crinkle sound. Now for some reason we were waiting in another room and as we were there my ex says to me "it's obvious you are wearing a certain item, did you shit your pants?" Well, I don't know why she asked me that because I didn't but as soon as she said that a woman came around the corner and that was the end of the dream. Here's the weird thing; I do like to wear but I would prefer to be the one not wearing and asking my girl if she had an accident. That dream still turns me on however. BTW. My ex did wear occasionally.

Thanks to all of your responses. I have been just really bummed out lately. It might mainly have to do with me thinking so much of how I am 46 and I haven't been in a commited relationship since I got divorced 14 years ago. I have dated here and there but I just haven't met the right person. This is mostly due to taking care of my daughter, starting a buisiness and just being busy. I can't belive the time has went by so fast. I didn't make it a major priority so I haven't went through the numbers. I would meet someone, date for a while and then just go a year or 2 being busy again. By saying I haven't met the right person I do think it's because I didn't meet people that would be open to this kink or any others. Like now, I start to think that I should really do whatever it takes to find a woman that is into wearing diapers because she will totally understand what it's all about and I won't feel inferior. I like to percieved as strong and a go getter but lately when I indulge in the diapers I feel ashamed and weak. That may have been the issue all along. I don't know. When I am in a confident place in my mind I don't indulge in diapers as much myself but still find the thought of my woman in them a HUGE turn on. But, I also want a woman with a head on her shoulders like I think I do. I have my regular life too. I just really need to start being way more active dating which I am starting to do. I am also on alt.com but like I said, it's seems there aren't any diaper loving women in my area. So, what's the next step?

Wow, that was pretty harsh. If you read a couple of my responses above you will see that I used the word vanilla only to describe the regular dating world. I never said I think less of anyone I am only describing the type of person I am attracted to which is a very sexual person. That to me is pretty hot and it doesn't involve props at all. I don't need the diapers or anything to be happy in a relationship. I'm curious to how it is you think I came across as being shallow and I'm only asking because I'm not. I don't want to come across that way so your input is appreciated.

There's a girl I work with that I fell madly in love with but she has a boyfriend. She approached me because she was having difficulties with him and we just started hanging oout a lot. Now this girl is highly sexual but I really don't think she would ever go for the diaper thing. I hinted to her about watersports and she was not keen on the subject. Here's the thing, if we ever ended up together I wouldn't ever miss the diapers because there is so much sexuality coming from her it really turns me on. On top of that, she is an amazing person.

But Vanilla is the word that describes people when they are not into anything kinky. Just regular old boring sex. It is also used to describe the regular dating scene.

I joined this vanilla matchmaking service that interviews you and hooks you up based on your criteria and the type of person you are looking for. I met with my first match yesterday and was extremely disappointed. She was not even close to my type. I am finding that I really seem to be attracted to women that have some quirks about them and I know it is because I have them also. I mean hey, I like to wear and use diapers. I want to tell this service that I am a highly sexual person and that is what I am looking for in a partner. But, I'd like them to be attractive, intelligent, etc. I don't think they will have a clue as to what I mean though because it is not that type of place. I wish I could just come out and say "well, I'm looking for someone who loves to wear diapers" and then they say "well, we have a few women who are looking for someone like you who is also a DL". Yeah, I know I'm dreaming. I joined this service because diapers really aren't the most important thing but if someone just has the other qualities I seek I'm afraid I will get bored. Tell me, don't you think it could be better to search for the sexual compatabilty first and hope they have some other important qualities instead of the other way around? But the sexual compatibility doesn't even have to involve diapers. Anyway, I though it might be interesting to post my dating experiences and get some feedback from you guys as I go along. At the same time I thought that I should make a perfect profile and put it in the Diapermates personals. The only thing is that I really don't want to put my picture up there. I've also thought about joining the local BDSM group that meets one town over from me but I don't really care about leather, whips, and all that stuff. I'm not into the heavy dominent stuff. I would however play a daddy role in roleplaying as long as she is also into me wearing diapers as well. I just want a diaper girl like all of you women here. Then there's alt.com and it seems there are few and far between DL's on there. I just think it would be amazing to be with someone and have that total freedom and not feel at all embarrased about wetting and meesing in each others presence anytime and anywhere. I just can't help but believe that there is a really cool woman in my area but what is the best way to get the word out that I am right here? I read all of the posts from you women on here and read about how you don't get respect on these sites. I sit here and say "god, if these women only knew me". All of the women at work wonder why I am single and I tell them that I am just really picky and just want to make sure the next time around I meet the right person so I am not single because I'm an asshole, not attractive, etc. It's just because of my sexual interests. Thanks for listening guys.

Hi all! I am a 46 yo divorced guy from CT USA and I was fairly active here before the change occured on the personals site a couple of years back. My mom passed away around that time period and my diaper activity layed dormant until recently but I still have been lurking consistantly, just not being active. I like many others go back and forth dating in the vanilla world and being active in the diaper community with the hopes of connecting with a quality woman who shares my love for diapers in either situation. Diapers are a part of my life but the love connection is way more important. I could not be satisfied if the mutual interest in diapers is all we had. I am a DL not an AB. I am a part time wedding videographer and I worked yesterday afternoon for someone who I've known now for 7 years and she is realy cool. She also wanted me to relax and party with everyone during the reception. As I was working, a very attractive girl came up and started talking to me. It was obvious she was attracted to me during our conversation and I her. She asked me if I would do a shot with her and I said definately. She went and got them for us and we did about 3 more throughout the reception. The reception was at a hotel so the bridal party went to the bar afterwords. She was one of the bridesmaids. Well, we talked more at the bar and I knew she was younger then me but she had no idea how old I was. I guessed right on that she was 27. She thought I was in my 30's but my age did not bother her. I am totally flattered that at 46 I can attract an attractive 27 year old girl and very sexual one at that. Well, as it turned out she was married and I won't go there but this really boosted my ego today and got me thinking that if I just stop separating meeting someone in the diaper world and the vanilla world I will eventually find someone who will have fun with this. So, I've decided to be active in both instead of one or the other like I have done in the past. In the past I have restrained persuing girls that were attracted to me because I would always think" she won't be into diapers". But here's the thing, it seems they are always highly sexual and just might be open to some kink. I have no problem opening up a discussion about sex so I can feel a person out. If it seems they may be a bit kinky I will bring up a little hint to see the reaction. I just have not gone through the numbers and have stayed pretty much alone with this except for a couple of partners that were few and far between. I am realizing that it is me that is holding back. Now today I have a date with someone I got matched with through a vanilla dating service. If there is a connection and an attraction I will persue it further. It would be great to find someone who is into this scene and we also fall in love but I don't want to set myself up for being alone because I just stick to trying to date through this and other sites like it. But on the other hand, I never give it a fair shot. I will be active for a month and then stop. I prefer to meet people naturally and in person like at the wedding but I'm not able to get out much because of work. So, that's why I thought that it's time to be active in both at the same time. Can any of you relate to what I am saying? This is tough stuff isn't it?