For me, it just seems like everything may be a culmination of all of my kinky fantasies, sonehow when I was younger, probably the male testosterone building, I came across my sisters panties, and I started to sneak around and wear them after they were dirty, I remember talking to a neighborhood girl about her peeing in her panties, and well of couse I had to try that. I loved the feel of the warm pee all over my sissy panties. I always got very excited with doing either one. When I was overseas in the Navy I seen a porno mag full of beautiful shemales, and well that was it for me, that was all I fantiasized about, all I wanted to have sex with and all I wanted to look like. Well two out of three ain't bad, I haven't had sex with a sissy, CD, shemale yet (even though I have sucked a c*ck and given a few hj's, which have never been enough to fill my desires) and I certainly wouldn't pass as a woman. I love the feeling of being dressed up like sissy, would love to be humliated by someone and forced to become a sissy girl if even for one night, the other fantasy is finding a pressy sissy girl to call my own :-)
So as I got older I sneak into my wife's drawers and wear her panties, stockings, nylons, and yes I even pee in them, hee hee...