Errrrr hey. As the topic says I am new to posting and to the message boards in general.
I have been visiting DD for a while now and (No offence to anyone here) I have not participated or shared my love for this because I have not really understood why I found it alluring. In fact at some point I thought me and anyone like me (The above apology inserts here) were sick in the head.
Now I am really really sorry for offending anyone but I think its best to be up front with this sort of stuff. I am giving you all my deepest darkest secret that only one other person knows.
I tried to give up and I blocked all of the two websites I visited from my web browser (I love this site, its been a huge support for me) and throwing out my accumulated things. Believe it or not the disgust in myself was prompted after meeting my brilliant girlfriend, she is the most perfect person in the world and felt doing something like this behind her back was a terrible thing. But after a couple of months (Yeah will power not good) I couldn't take it anymore. I felt depressed and not myself. I felt like I was betraying who I was. So I once again started wearing diapers every now and then.
I live with my parents which is a huge problem for me and don't think I could ever tell them about it. I guess my greatest fear would be losing everything I have because of who I am. But anyway (Sorry for going off track) last night I told my girlfriend of 9 months that I am, to quote "Kind of into the whole AB/DL thing."
Now this had to have been one of the biggest and most emotionally charged moments of my life. I was telling the girl I love that I would like to be sometimes dressed and treated like a baby. To be honest she took it quite well, she seemed a little taken a back at first having no idea I was into this stuff but seemed to accept it. After a couple of hours and me showing her this site and others she started to cry, she claims she doesn't know why she was crying but I think she did, but I would hate to speculate.
Anyway she accepted my feelings but she isn't very comfortable with it and doesn't want me to dress around her. I guess this has made me feel worse. I just really don't know what to do anymore. She has given me her honest opinion and says it isn't a super big thing and she could live with it but would like me to stop if I could.
I love her so much and she means everything to me and would like to give up. (Again no offence to you guys) I know most of the AB/DL community are just normal people but this thing will ruin my relationship, I can see it coming.
I know this isn't exactly an intro but I just wanted to be completely honest about who I am and my mixed feelings. It was my girlfriend that actually suggested I join the message boards to talk to other people like me. (Believe it or not I have never talked to anyone like me or anyone else about this)
So I guess I'm looking for something I have never got. Acceptance and true opinions on what I should do. Someone to talk to would be nice too.
Bunny