My boyfriend and I had been dating for a couple of month when he began hinting he had a major fetish. When it comes to People I date I want to know everything.
After some pressure and tear (because I didnt think he understood how I felt) He began throwing Hint at me that I never took on to.
"Well if we get u depends u wouldnt have to worry about having to go pee at work"
then I would laugh and act disgusted and blow it off.
He used that one many times. Then one day I came up to his apartment and sat down beside him to play some games.
He told me had something for me and told me to stand up. When I turned around there it was, A diaper, I flipped out and threw it at him again laughing and acting discugsted, but little did I know I have hurt his feelings.
He always talk about his fetish being "sexual" or "just for fun" or "a curse" and we talk more about it that night (though I still couldnt get him to tell me what his fetish was) and all he would say is "Babe, I know ur not ready to hear it"
and I kept telling him that I was ready.
The next night we kinda fussed about it again and finally he was like "Fine if u think your ready meet me on the kitchen and Ill let u read it".
I began to read his notebook and had a ew emotions comeover.
I was surprised, confused, scared, curious, and I wanted to laugh, but not at him but at his fetish.
See I never knew anyone could have this type of fetish but it was really important to him.
A couple nights later I let him put one on me and honestly I didnt like it at first, I wanted it off!
Then I found myself wearing em bit more, but just to make him happy, to show him I cared and Loved him no matter what.
But, Slowly I began growing out of them, I didnt like it, I didnt like that he wanted me to use them like a diaper, I didnt like how we wanted to me sleep in one every night and Finally I was like "If I want to wear one, I will!"
and besides some of his hints he stopped pressuring me.
Anyway what I am getting to is last night we had a fight and he later figured that is was because of his fetish,
He was he "was growing apart from me and was unhappy"
and all I could do was cry...
The problem is I am not one for looking at females bodies, internet, movies, porn, if it has nudity I dont wanna see it and I dont wanna the guys who "loves or wants me" to look at it either and he used that against me
"Well if u want me to respect u and not look at em, I want u to respect me and wear diapers and I want you to start wanting to wear em"...
And thats wear I am at now...
I just wanna know what to do? I know I am still not ready to wear them again and when he comes back sunday night he wants to put me in Ten regardless on How I feel...
I just wanna know how to talk to him about this,
I have no problem if he wants to wear them...but why must he force me to "want" to wear...
any advice for me?