Diapered4eva

Thanks everyone for your kind words and yes i knew this was a safe place to vent thats the reason i came back here… have you ever had someone mad at you because you wont admit your depressed well my sister is not speaking to me because she says im depressed because i complain about everything and ive told her numerous times i know im depressed but it isnt for what she thinks its because i havent been able to get a full time job for nearly 4 years and ive been denied by 1000s of companies with out even being interviewed and that’s depressing in its own self but i keep pushing forward i try different things and whe. They dont work out i do complain but i feal like thats human nature does that mean everyone who ever has a complaint about something that they are depressed … im starting to get depressed over the fact my sister is mad at me and i didnt do anything wrong im also getting very angry about it to but she wont snap out of it.

I was a member of this site awhile back but dont remember the email or user name i used when i signed up before ive been incontinent since i was 13 it seems to stop and come back on ots own when i was 13 it would only happen at night but as the years progressed it started happening during the day. Every doctor ive seen has told me its stress or in my head… heres the thing ive been having so much teounle finding a new job since inwas fired by a company i worked for back in 2019 and ive been more stressed because of it my credit has been destroyed i was working an on call job but they dont call no more. So anyways these last few months have been even more stressful because all the savings i had is dwindling down to nothing. And im unsure how to pay my car payment or bills i do have still but the part that im more stressed that has me questioning things the doctors say is i havent had a single day or nifht time accident in months and as i said im supppper stressed… and to top it all off yesterday i over heard my mother on the phone talking about how she feels about me my sister and my brother. And it made me so suicidal that i went out to my garage and was going to hang my self but then i snapped out of that thinking and just smashed some boards to let out that feeling… i dont live with my mom i bought a house for us to live in as room mates and my brother as well just to make that known.. my point is that even being this stressed i still havent had any issues but no doctor ive seen wants to do anything to help…. Well thanks for reading or not reading injust needed a place to get stuff off my chest other then putting my problems on Facebook for my family and feiends to give me crap about.