Yea but the way I use the diapers feels so much better to me 

Oh yes those are specific things you can do with girls. But I always felt it was better with boys, the (shrinking someone down through baby-ing). If you can always come up styles, I have. 

I'm thinking Las Vegas.

I guess it really started when I was three years old. I was in a foster home, and was a bedwetter. My foster mother punished me by putting me back in diapers and molesting me. I regress involuntarily to an age before that happened whenever I get triggered. 

I don't pretend to be a baby. I just am a baby stuck in an adult body and forced by life to have to pretend to be an adult. Any time of day would be a perfect time to just let go of the pretending if I had a Mommy. To make matters worse, I feel trapped in a male body when I am truly female, but I don't pretend to be male anymore.