Midwife

Pediatrician 

Honestly I try my best to match my partner, if my partner is more detailed based I try to match that level of detail. If they are more casual I try to match that. Though I guess if I had to say I'd say on a scale of one to ten with ten being detailed and zero being casual, I'd say I was around four. I can be more detailed but it does slow my reply speed, I try my best to respect my partner's level of detail though.

Chapter 4 Roller coaster - Having fun alone and with her friends  Lila’s Mum did not wake her daughter in the morning when they left their hotel room. Her dad picked up the sleeping girl, wrapping her soft blanket around her diapered bum. And just minutes later, he clipped in the buckles of her child seat, ready to let her sleep for another hour while they were driving. Finally, he also took her new pacifier out of his pocket and let it slide back between her sleeping lips and carefully to not wake her gave her a kiss.  After being a bit skeptical about his Lila wanting to be so childish, he had to admit that she was happier now, and he could not bear seeing her stressed out or in tears anymore.  If this small change helped her cope with the hardship of her teenage life, he was willing to go along with his wife's idea to let her be a child again. “Is our little one still sleeping?”, her mum asked as her dad joined her in the passenger seat.  “Yes, like a marmot in the winter.”, he smiled while they drove out in the spacious streets heading to the freeway. Lila was waking up as they had already left the morning rush hour in the city. They were calmly driving down the rural highway, following the final signs to the parking of the amusement park. As they were closer now, the rollercoasters and attractions were slowly coming into view in the distance. She felt so relaxed today and stretched out her arms and legs. And slowly became aware that the child’s seat was holding her in place and at the same time making it really obvious that she had a very soaked pampers-styled diaper on.  That night she did not remember waking up, while at the same time, her mum changed her into a dry one just minutes before she finally fell asleep yesterday. This must have been one of her wet nights, she assumed.  It was much better than waking up in a soggy pull-up that still would not even hold all her pee. She on the other hand was still feeling dry and comfy and woke up relaxed in the morning. Why could she not just keep wearing the diapers at home, at least at night, she thought to herself.  “Fumy”, Lila mumbled, feeling her pacifier strangely stayed in her mouth all night long and made her talk weirdly now.  “Oh, you are finally awake.”, her dad responded, noticing that she just tried talking  The little girl took the pacifier out.  “I wet the bed, mummy.”, she reported truthfully. For a moment, her mum was surprised.  Normally, this was exactly what Lila said when she came into their parent's bedroom in the middle of the night, waking her mum with a wet pyjama on. “Did you leak?”, she asked patiently as she did all the time to not bother the little girl too much with her disability to keep dry in her sleep.  “No, I actually feel dry and good, it's just I did not go potty on purpose tonight.”, she talked about her nighttime accident. “Don't worry, you were hardly ever dry in the last days. Just relax some more, I will clean you up in the park.”, her mother explained, glazing back, seeing her Lila just in her diaper and a shirt with the black stripped of the secure child seat hardly hiding what she was wearing underneath.  She just looked at the pacifier in her hand, and she noticed the ease that sucking on it brought her already started to vanish.  No one minds if I am a child today, she told herself and put the small object back in her mouth, looking out of the window, seeing the trees passing by.  Finally, they rolled onto the big parking area. Due to the early hour, they could park really close to the entrance instead of walking through the endless rows of empty car parks.  “Fumy, felp me” she complained again as she noticed that she could not open the buckle of her child seat on her own. Her daddy slowly opened the door, pressing the release button.  “Wait a second, you should slip this overall on because you don't want to wear this diaper with no pants on. Don't you?” He let her feet slip into the legs and closed the bib on the front. “Your Mum will change you when we get in.", he explained as the little girl nodded with her head.  For a second while he slid the pants up, she was looking like a young toddler as she was still innocently sucking on it. “You don’t want to be seen as a baby girl using your dummy in the park, do you?”, he asked her, pretty sure she just forgot to take it out.   Lila looked at him with worries in her eyes, but slowly took her dummy back in her hand. She did not really want to leave it in the car, while she also was afraid of just using it openly in public.  “You can put it in your bib’s pocket.”, he said, and helped her to slide it in. She cuddled at his side while they were walking over to the entrance. They got in line for the ticketing machines and just minutes later, a beep confirmed their admission and let them through the turnstile and into the park.  “Mum, why can't we go to the bumper cars first. There is no one waiting.” Lila begged, hoping she could drive against her parents and could finally start having fun.   “No we need to change you first, you are still wearing your night diaper and your pyjama top”, she explained while she was keeping a firm grip on her hand leading her to the restrooms.   They stopped when they entered a small building with a toilet sign. Her Mum tried to open the baby changing room, but the door did not move at all.  “Can you wait for a second while I ask for the key.”, she explained to her girl, and immediately saw that Lila did not want to let her go.  “But it may be embarrassing for you”, her mum warned her as she did not soften the grip on her mum's hand. “Can you carry me?”, she asked shyly, touching the dummy in her pocket. She lifted the girl on her hips and kissed her.  “No one cares, you can use your Binky, while I change your diaper” her mum assured her, and before she laid her head on the shoulder the little comforting object was back in her mouth.  While they searched for someone who could help them, Lila felt the loving grip of her mummy, and even when she wet in her sleep, the need to pee was present in her mind. Without hesitation, she just let it go while she was clamping on her adult. And did not even notice that her mum smiled as her hip was suddenly getting warm. “Can we have the key for the changing room my little girl is still in her nighttime diaper, and we really have to change her into something fresh for the day”, she noticed the voice of her mum The senior facility manager put the mob aside.  “Sure thing, we use a code system here that no drunken guys vandalize these rooms.”, he explained, while he was looking at her little Lila.  “It should be nice and clean in there for your little one. I just cleaned it.” he added, proud of his work.  The little girl noticed that she would not really be embarrassed anymore, when she was wearing and using her diapers while she was pretending to be a little kid. Suddenly, after the helpful employee showed her mum all the details of how the sophisticated system worked, she found herself lying on the soft waterproof fabric waiting for her Mum to undress her. ### “Mummy ... Daddy.... I want to ride again. Please!”, she told them as they exited the slightly less steep but still exciting roller coaster, which was advertised for kids from the age of seven onwards.  But now, as the time had passed, a lot of new passengers were already waiting in the line. And the sign told them that they had to expect at least half an hour of waiting until they could start to have fun again. “One last time before we will have an early lunch”, her dad promised his little girl. Quickly followed by her parents, she raced through the empty lines. When they passed a corner, she was slightly disappointed as she saw the long queue of passengers waiting to board the attraction.  “You can not wait to ride again.”, her mum noticed as her parents finally reached the joyfully dancing girl.  For a short moment, her mum stopped her, to check if her diaper was still dry enough for her last ride before the lunch break. For Lila, this was after so many checks from her mummy not too embarrassing anymore, and it was nice to know that she was not responsible for telling her parents when she needed a change.  “You are still fine to go for now, but we have to change you before we have lunch”, she concluded. And they could go some meters further to the boarding station of the roller coasters because another ride has ended, and the people could hop on again. “Daddy do you think we could have a ride at the wild river as well?”, she wanted to know, still slightly afraid that she would be too young or too small and would be sent away as she was when they tried to get on the big rollercoaster for adults and teens. A flashback of the bad feeling came over her as she remembered the friendly but resolute guide that sent her to the measuring scale and stopped them from boarding the carts.  “You are way too small, even if I would believe your parents that you are thirteen.”, she heard the guard explain in her head.  “Look, you would easily slide out of the safety harness, when you would be doing the first looping.”, he mentioned the immediate danger to her parents.  “You will see, the ride over there is still a lot of fun, and it is more appropriate for kids like you.”, he ended his denial. Hmm yes, in the last three hours she was having a lot of fun on these slightly smaller rides for kids. And she honestly had to confess that she now was fine with his decision. She was having a great morning with exciting adventures, while now the screaming sounds of the people on the big rollercoaster were worrying her. “You are next.”, her dad said as they moved forward another time.  “You again young lady?”, the guard greeted the family.  “Yes, it is our last ride before Mum and Dad want me to take a break and have lunch.”, Lila explained as if he was a friend she met on the playground.   “Oh, then I would have something special for you if you feel confident enough to ride in the front?”  Lila was nodding in joy and could not wait until the small train of carts stopped and everyone was getting out. Her legs needed to move, and she was running around her mum and dad.  “You take her and head straight for the very first exit of the platform”, he told her parents as the train stopped. Just seconds later, they were sitting in the cart and had a full view on the track that was rising high up right in front of them.  “Yes, yes, yes” she cheered as the train started climbing up the steep slope. Suddenly she noticed that the excitement made her tummy feel slightly uncomfortable, so she took daddy's hand and was glad she was not on her own. ### “That was sooooo cool.”, Lila told them as they finally stopped and had to get off. And noticed that her diaper was now quite wet as she peed again while she was riding.  “She definitely needs a change”, her mum concluded as she saw that her daughter was running along the exit walkway and was waiting on her much slower parents as if they were a couple of sloths.   She on the other hand felt her tummy rumbling and was aware that she would not be able to hold it for much longer. But why should she even try?   She wondered how she could go poopy without everyone noticing what she did? She tried to go while standing there waiting, but she could not.  Then she saw the little playground and got an idea.  “Mum, I will play for a bit”, she said, and was again running towards the jungle Jim. As she was climbing and no longer wanted to stop it, she was losing her control over her bowel and a log of mess was leaving her.   I do not even have to stop for this, she wondered while she was climbing over to the slides. Again, she pushed a little while she was crawling and finally got rid of the uncomfortable stuff in her belly without even stopping.  When she would get used to going poopy like this whenever she needed to, nobody would even notice.   “Lila, we really have to go, you need something dry around your bum. Do you still need to go potty?”, she asked her daughter, As she lifted her down while she slung her arms around her mum as if she was a baby sloth herself.   “I ... I just went poopy in my pants, while I was playing.”, she confessed her babyish toileting habit.   Her mum smiled, and she was sure she did not mind her daughter going potty like this.  “It's ok baby, I will change your skunky bum in a second.”, her mum calmed her down and kissed her on her cheek. While she did not set her down on the walkway, she held her child close to her. Giving her the feeling of being a little kid again.  ### “Mummy, can we take a picture here.”, Lila asked when they were waiting in line for the crazy river attraction and could have a great look at the artificial waterway that was meandering through a network of caves and canyons.  The small family was posting while someone took a picture of them when suddenly a splash of water rained down over them and made the picture a perfect memory of the time they spent here together. Some minutes later they could board their raft and the water cooled them down. As she still was pretty afraid of the wild water, Lila cuddled on her daddy's side, trusting he would protect her in the unlikely case that the raft would be shipwrecked.  “Everything ok?”, Bernhard asked his little girl, while he knew that she loved it when he was protecting her from her fear of deep water. Even at the pool at home, when Lila tried learning how to swim, she clamped on him most of the time. And since she never became confident in her skills, she still always wanted her dad on her side when the bluish liquid was close by. So he softly pressed the girl with his shoulder. Calming her as they were released and started to float down. And within moments the wild ride over the waves built up speed. Even his little girl cheered several times as the cold water splashed over them and when they ended up at the raft escalator, the family was dripping wet.  “This was fun, wasn’t it?” her daddy asked the little girl as she was lifted out of the raft and took his hand for a while.  “Yes it was cool, but also a little scary sometimes”, his young daughter added with a strong affection for her parents being back in her heart.  “Bernhard, can we take a look at the souvenirs for a bit. I really want to get some new magnets for our fridge” his wife asked her dad to slow down.  “You want to have a look too?”, Lila's dad proposed, as he knew his little girl probably also wanted to shop. But this time she was not able to let him go, and so both of them walked into the toys section of the store. “Mummy ... Mummy, look, that girl also wears a diaper.” a small child, slightly younger looking than Lila, innocently commented on the colorful diaper that was now visible through the semi-transparent fabric of her wet dress.  Lila quickly hid behind a tray of toys and found herself entangled with the legs of her dad as he did not let her hand go so quickly.  Now her need to be loved was irresistible. She wished she could just cuddle with them, or she would be able to take her pacifier out for some moments and just calm down.  “Sorry for that, we are just learning not to embarrass others.”, the mum of the young boy quickly apologized and added, “You should not judge other kids, should you?”  “No Mummy.”, he answered clearly, only because his mum said so. “Noah, can you apologize to her?”, his mother demanded as Lila was now hiding behind Dad's legs. “I am sorry.”, she heard the little boy's words, and he took a plushie from the shelf and handed it over as if it was a present of apology.  For a moment, the brownish-colored beaver was hanging between them. What should she do with a stuffed animal? But with all the need for love in her, it was as if the fluffy animal was enchanting. It seemed as if she saw him smile. “Lila ... Lila”, it was as if he was calling for her. “You can't offer it to her, it is not yours”, she heard his mum as if she was talking from far, far away.   She saw the adult hand trying to grab the poor water animal, but she was faster. She was taking it out of the offering hand of the boy and hugged it with her arms.  It was as if someone said thanks in her mind. It could not have been real, could it? Her teenage consciousness doubted, while the little girl in her loved the idea of talking with her new-found friend. As his mum finally wanted to continue with her day, the two so similar-looking but also very different children were separated. Just Lila discovering her strange feelings toward that plushie toy remained.  “I am done!”, they heard their mum, already leaving with a small bag.  “Do you want to put him back?”, she noticed her dad talking to her.  But she could not, as soon as she wanted to let him go it felt like treason. “Or maybe you should choose a name for this beaver”, Bernhard suggested lightheartedly. She really wanted to have him. But how could she tell her dad? Would he even purchase the stuffed animal for his teenage kid?  What should I call you? Lila asked the animal in her head, and for a second the boy's Name Noah came to her mind.  At least the name would be used for something positive. And it would always remind her of the strange encounter that started in such an embarrassing manner and ended in something so beautiful. “Several more rides are waiting for us”, her dad tried to get his kid back into a good mood. “Daddy this is my beaver Noah and I keep him.”, she demanded to her astonished dad stroking the soft fur of her new companion. Her Daddy picked her up.  “You really want to buy Noah?”, he asked, suddenly becoming aware that his daughter did not make a joke. “Don't you want one of the cool T-shirts instead?”, he wanted to know that he should buy the brownish animal with whom his child fell in love with.  “No, I just want Noah”, she underlined her decision now sounding like a grumpy child. She held his soft fur close and tried to look serious.  And after some seconds, she saw her daddy smile and realized immediately that she would not lose her beaver again.  ### When Lila's energy finally ran out of steam and her feet were getting painful and heavy, her dad picked her up and carried her daughter to the car.  It was late afternoon, and the glazing sun transformed the streets and all the waiting areas in the park into a hot furnace. Even the wild river attraction could no longer cool them down enough to stand the heat for much longer.  The little girl was glad when dad turned on the air conditioning and the air cooled down the car that was standing in the shade of some trees. Her dad sat her down on her quite comfy looking seat and tucked her into the fife point harness.  “Can I have Noah for the drive?”, she demanded from her dad, not wanting to be alone. “Noah?”, her dad seemed to have already forgotten the little beaver that was packed into their day bag to keep the little guy safe.  “My little stuffed beaver.”, she reminded him, and lovingly embraced the brownish animal as he handed it back into her hands. With a smile, they closed her door and started driving back to the hotel.  ‘We had a really nice day.’ She started a conversation with her new friend Alex on the phone and just sent her the last pictures of the afternoon where she was having fun drifting down this artificial river in a round donut-shaped raft.  Then she scrolled to Alex's report of her day in the city, an attraction that their mum and dad skipped due to the hot climate in the streets of downtown.  And while this new-found friendship was new for the young girl, she was wondering if the communication between her and Alex was what the other teenies in her class found in the endless cell phone sessions. The endless staring on the screens nearly ended all normal playing interaction in class and made Lila's life in school not only rather boring but also quite lonely. As the monotone drive was creeping on the little kid, and she was getting tired, She let her phone sink, closed her eyes, and started to cuddle the little beaver in her hand. The fluffy feeling on her skin, his soft fur, and the presence of someone rolled over her.  She could not even get enough of the soft touch, and it felt as if the little animal was there to protect her in her sleep.  He was just there for her. She knew as she drifted away to dreamland.  ### When she woke up again, she noticed the padding in her crotch was suddenly getting warmer and warmer. For a brief moment she thought she wet her pants before she noticed the diapers were soaking up the wetness, just leaving her warm and dry.  Did she just wake up while having an accident? Maybe, but she did not care at the moment. Her diaper at least made waking up like this much more pleasant. She was looking at her parents, who were talking to each other and discussing if they could go out today and have another parent's only dinner.  Mum wanted them to stay in the hotel as her precious Lila was already pretty tired. She knew the little girl upmost hated being on her own, and a babysitter was not an option in a city where they did not know someone who could help them out.  Her dad on the other hand wanted to find a way and wanted to ask Alex mum and dad if they could babysit their teenage child.  Lila normally did not interfere in her parent's discussion over such topics and would just go back playing with what she just did. But this time a thought was put in her mind. Her parents surely would both love to go to a dinner party together, and she had the feeling that she was the reason her mum did not want to come.  She did not want to be a burden for her parents, and she expected them to have fun. Further now with her babyish potty habits they had so much more work with her anyway.  At the same time, she was afraid that they would leave without her and the nightmare of loneliness was creeping through the back of her mind.  She was never good at being on her own. At school, she was still attending the afternoon program, just to avoid coming home to an empty house and waiting for her mum or dad without any company.  ‘Bing’ her cellphone called for her attention. It was a picture of Alex with her brothers. I am taking care of my brothers again because my parents are out shopping for our trip tomorrow. Do you want to come and play with us, she asked? Would that be a solution to her dilemma? Should she just suggest that to her parents? When she would be able to go on a playdate, her mum and dad could have fun, at least for some hours.  Her memories of play-dates she had in elementary school flashed back into her consciousness. She remembered laying on the floor and building with Legos all day long with her friend, and how sad she was when he moved away.  ‘Bing’ you don't want to? Her teenage friend demanded a decision. I have to ask my mum and dad, she quickly replied.  Should she just start a conversation with them while they were talking? And of course, playing with her new friends all night long would be an additional benefit for her. Maybe she should ask dad, he wanted to go out, so he may be on her side too.  Finally, she decided to just drop in.  “Daddy?” she asked while her heart was beating in her chest.  Both adults suddenly noticed they were not alone in the car, and her little daughter was already listening to them for a while. “Alex invited me to come over”, she explained. “She is watching her brothers, and they surely have a lot of fun.” “No Honey, I don't think so, you should have an early bedtime today, you were busy all day long at the amusement park.”, her mum replied. “But maybe this would be our chance to go out. Maybe Alex could be watching her and even bring her to bed when it is time.”, she heard her dad, not letting the decision of her mum become final.   “You mean, she could be her babysitter for tonight.”, her mum said, slowly accepting the opportunity that their evening together could become possible after all.  Lila on her side was frightened from hearing the word. Alex was her friend not her babysitter after all, wasn't she? “If she can handle her two small brothers, our child should not be too much effort.”, he argued. “She is not using the potty at all, and if she goes poopy in her diaper she is even more work than their little five-year-old Lukas, and I don't think Alex could handle that.”, her mum insisted on her doubts.  “But mummy, I promise to go with you and really try to go to the potty. But could you at least talk to Alex.”, she said while she was sniffing a little and noticing the tears flowing down her cheeks.  Her parents looked into each other’s eyes.  “You have Alex on your phone, don't you”, her dad asked.  “Sure, I will call her so we can talk together.”, she quickly replied and hit the dial button to create hard facts.  “Hello Lila”, she heard the teenage voice of her friend right before the first ring.  “Hi Alex. My parents still have doubts that I could come.”, she said in a sad voice.  There was a second of silence.  “Do they hear me?”, she wanted to know.  “Hello Alex we can hear you.”, her dad was first to take action and with a piercing glance, he took her phone.  “We actually wanted to go out tonight, but we cannot leave Lila on her own, because she is always desperately afraid and very lonely when she has to.“ “Oh, I would never leave her alone, she will be with me, and you can pick her up when you come back.”, she argued.  “Do you know how to handle her when she has an accident?” her mum wanted to know. “Hmm ...” I heard Alex talk in an unrecognizable voice with someone in the background.   “Hello Maria” now Alex's mum joined the call. “Actually, my daughter really wants to learn how to babysit younger children. She is quite experienced with our little Lukas, and she did quite well when she changed him.” “And I am sure I can take care of her too, and she will have fun with us.”, the teenager assured her mum.  Actually, Lila did not want to be babysat. She wanted to just go on a playdate. But at the same time, she felt that she no longer was a burden for her parents and the feeling of being safe and protected, was something she never could get enough of. So the idea of her needing someone who took care of her was worrying and wonderful at once, and at least knowing that Alex was the one to help her was good.   At least, even if having a babysitter was strange, it was Alex, one of her few teenage friends whom she could trust.  “I think we can approve that Lila can stay over for a trial run of babysitting.”, Dad concluded and ordered child care for her precious teenage daughter at the same time.  ###  Thirty minutes later, the family was standing at the door of Alex's family's hotel room. The closed door was feeling strange for the little girl, and she could not help to see it as a portal to her new world. Her mum had a big bag with her that contained not only the diapers of the thirteen-year-old kid but also her pyjama and her toothbrush. The plushie her parents just got her in the park was mounted at the side, fixed with the straps of the backpack. Her feelings were right in the middle between her embarrassment that she needed someone to look after her and the anticipation of joy that she was expecting when she could play with her friends.  Her daddy just knocked one time when the door swung wide open while her teenage friend was standing there, just greeting them and letting her daughter inside.  For a second it seems as if Lila was somewhat reserved now that the only slightly older, but much bigger Alex was her official guardian. The fact that she was her babysitter, was kind of strange. Then suddenly, she put the arm around the childlike girl. “We will have fun together like yesterday.”, she promised while she allowed herself to cuddle a little bit with her friend.  “Hi”, her brother, Georg, came over to greet her as well. “Do you want to come and play with us? Alex and Lukas created a strong fortress from the bed’s blankets, and I tried to take it, but I don't stand a chance and desperately need reinforcements.”, he declared if she was his young recruit for the pillow fight of Cape Dorm. “Have fun Lila.”, she heard her parents as I ran off, not noticing that her mum also handed over her bag that contained some fresh diapers and her new plushie.  Their room was much bigger than their own and was a little apartment on its own. It even had a little kitchen built in and a separate bedroom for the parents and the kids.  She was hardly aware of her mummy and daddy leaving when the door was closed.  “You are Ok?”, the big teenager asked her as she let her backpack drop on the couch and noticed that Lila suddenly was not so sure about staying just with her friends.  “I want to have Lila!”, the little brother, Lukas, emerged from the omnipresent pile of blankets and pillows on the floor. He was just wearing a shirt and a dry pull-up, which she clearly recognized as the same brand that she used at home.  “Collect all you can carry and follow me.”, he advised her, trying to pack three pillows in each hand. Lila also stocked up with the white and fluffy ammunition and followed him into the tiny hideout that was created under the table.  “You are ready?”, Alex asked, also bristled with weapon-like pillows.  “Yes!”, Lukas yelled, firing the first fluffy shot on his brother. While the others also started to bombard them with an armada of flying pillows. The fight was nearly over when Lila took her first one and fired it at Alex. She seemed to allow her to score a hit, but instantly returned the pillow to its origin.  “We won”, Lukas declared, while Lila was sure the two opponents had hit their little hideout pretty hard. He quickly repaired the structure and packed all the pillows before starting the next round.   Fifteen minutes later she was exhausted as the fight had quickly drawn all her energy. So instead of helping them to get ready for the next round, she just looked over at Alex.  “Do you need a break?”, she realized that Lila was done with playing for the day. “Can you help me put everything back on our beds?”  “Mmmm no, I don't want to stop now”, Lukas protested while he was yawning but was clearly just as exhausted as Lila.   In moments, the battleground disappeared and they found themselves back in the bedroom. With the action and the excitement slowly ebbing away, the need to be close to someone crept back on her.  “I am thirsty.”, the little boy that just fought side on side with her, declared as Alex cleaned up.  “And I am hungry.”, the much older Georg declared, expecting that his big sister would bring them something to eat. Lila on the other side just wanted to be cuddled. Should she just go and hug her? Could she just ask for help? But Alex seemed to know what she was doing, she prepared something to drink for them and even filled a baby bottle for her little Lukas.  Lukas took his bottle, jumped on the bed, and seemed so happy with his drink, while they stayed in the kitchen area for a moment. She carefully sipped on her glass, feeling the cold touch of the taped water.   “Our mum will bring us something to eat when they are back shopping for our picnic on the beach tomorrow.”  He still looked at her with his puppy eyes.  “And no, we can not eat sweets before we have dinner!”, she seemed to read what was on his mind, as the boy who appeared older than Lila walked away disappointed.  “You need my help too.”, she noticed that she could not raise her concern as the siblings could. She finally put her arm around her and Lila instantly cuddled on her chest.  “You miss your parents?”, she asked, slowly padding her little head and even drying one of her tears. She nodded, still finding it hard to talk.  “Come, I will carry you.”, Alex said softly, lifting her up as her mum and dad did.  “Thanks.”, Lila mumbled, as she finally got the love that she desperately needed like water in the desert and gave up all her teenage reservedness, and accepted that she needed her as a babysitter.  She let her friend down as she sat on the bed.  “I also want to cuddle with you.”, her little brother demanded. Lila noticed as her babysitter placed her on her side and her little brother on the other, while  Alex had to dry another tear that rolled over her cheek.  “Why is she so sad?”, he innocently asked.  “I think she is missing her parents.” “Oh, but what can we do?”, the boys worried. “Maybe I could introduce her to my stuffed lion plushie.”  “She doesn't have stuffed animals like the two of us anymore. She is thirteen, remember.”, Georg said.   She looked at Alex and begged her for help.   Indeed, the little beaver could really do something for her.  “Georg, having a stuffy is not something only little children do. I have one, even if I don't sleep with her every night anymore. You have a cute beaver, don't you? Do you want to have it?” She offered.  She thought if she could confess her need for more help. “Yes, I need my Noah.”, Lila finally mumbled sheepishly. “Then we can celebrate a tea party for our stuffed animals.”, her little Lukas cheered, jumped up and ran over to the children's bedroom and returned with his Simba-like lion and a dark green turtle before he finally picked up the brownish Noah. She could not help but as soon as he let the brownish animal fall on the bed, she grabbed it in midair and pressed him on her free side. She closed her eyes for a second.  “Sorry Noah, I missed you so much”, she mumbled as if he could actually understand her and stroke over his soft face.  “I love you too, and you really don't have to be afraid.”, came to her mind, and she could not say if she wished he had said that or if the stuffed animal could really talk to her in her consciousness. Then she noticed her crotch was suddenly warm and wet, and for a second she was not sure if she deliberately peed herself or if she paid so little attention to her blather that she actually had a daytime accident in her diapers. Especially when she was dreaming, it definitely seemed to become harder to not pee herself in the last days.  “Alex, can we watch TV while we are waiting for our parents.”, Georg wanted to kill some time and had the remote controls already in his hand. “You cannot watch your action-loaded TV shows with Lukas, and I don't think they are good for Lila either.”, she explained to her younger brother and sounded just like mom to the little teenage girl.  “Why can't I?”, he moringed grumpily.   “We could watch some little kids' shows. So all of us could have fun, don't you think so.” Alex insisted. “But I am not a baby, and it is so boring.” Lila was not too keen on watching anything. But a movie for a five-year-old could not be that bad, could it? Maybe it would be more fun than she anticipated if she could engross herself in the stories and characters, while still being sure everything would be ok? “You want to choose?”, Lila asked the little boy that was lying on the other side of her babysitter's chest. I really want to see Bobo, it is my favorite, but Georg always complains that it is for babies only. “Yes, and Bobo does not even talk like a real kid.”, Georg complained, “He just uses that simplified two-word sentence language.” “But I still love him, and he is always sleeping in the end.” The little five years old Lukas proudly explained.  “I have never seen this movie”, Lila confessed. “Two against one - Bobo it is.”, Alex decided, switching on the television  “Thank you”, I heard as Lukas smiled into my face.  Bobo was indeed a very simple show, clearly created for toddlers, with Lukas being on the highest end of the possible age scale. But while Georg rolled his eyes on every clear and foreseeable move that the story took. Lila and Lukas were really watching it.  Sure it was very babyish in Lila's eyes, but she was also quite busy cuddling with Noah and strangely also talking to him in her mind, and she started to feel a bond between her emotions and her beaver Noah. And on the other hand, as she trusted her little fluffy companion. He made her more and more open to the little kid's TV show and the limited safe boundaries, which the stories were not violating once.  When she heard their parents return, Alex and Georg got up, while Lukas and Lila found each other after their babysitter left the bed, and they did not want to be alone.  “Everything ok in your growing babysitting business?”, her mum asked her 15-Year-old daughter. As they brought the shopping bags in together. “Yes, Georg is a little hungry, but I did not allow him snacks before our family dinner and the other two are watching Bobo together.” “Lila watches Bobo?”, her mum wondered.  Her daughter nodded and added, “You should have a glance at her before we tell them that dinner is ready.” They both stopped for a second at the door  “I still can not believe that she is thirteen, she even seems much younger than our Georgy.” Alex whispered.  “Maybe this is a lesson you have to learn about caring for kids.” “What lesson?”, she wanted to know.  “Kids grew up at their own pace. And you should never judge someone only by their age.“ Her mum noticed that her oldest teenage child needed to talk  “Actually she was a little homesick when her parents left”, Alex reflected with her mum. “I let her cuddle with me a little so that she could calm down.” “She is not as developed emotionally as you. Maybe she even has more needs than Georg, but you should not see her as dumb. She is just different and, as her mum said, not ready to be on her own. Maybe you should see her as a very intelligent eight-year-old girl.”  “I have one more thing.” Alex now mumbled to ensure that only her mum could hear her.  “When we were watching Bobo, I saw that she has a pacifier in her bib’s pocket and I think she is afraid of using it. Should I maybe offer her a bottle to drink when I bring her to bed?“ “You should be careful not to hurt her. It could be something that she carries like a security blanket.” Her mum warned her. Alex nodded.  “But what if I just offer her one when it's her bedtime and I just make two baby bottles, one for Lukas and one for Lila. Maybe she would not be afraid of using it when she needs help.”, she suggested.  “Try it, maybe she trusts you so far.” “You don't think George would laugh at her when she is so little and innocent?”   “No, I would not tolerate it if he is making fun of her. I think I did a wonderful job on raising you without thinking bad of others, and he will learn that lesson, too.” “You know, I am really proud of my professional babysitter.”, her mum smiled at her and gave her a tab on her shoulder.   “Could you check on the two little ones, I don't want to have them with a soaked or smelly diaper on our dinner table.”   “OK”, she confirmed that order from her mum and headed to the two youngsters on the bed still watching one short movie after the other.   “Are you hungry?“, she invited them to the dinner table when the screen finally was switched off and they both just became aware that the movie time was over?  “Lukas are you wet?”, she asked her little brother and without waiting for an answer she put the long shirt up and checked the front of his pull-ups.  “You are still pretty dry, good job.”, she praised him, “But you will hop over and go to the bathroom really quick.” He nodded and smiled.  “And what about you?”, she asked Lila. Not waiting for her answer, either. She knew she was not dry anymore, and she was actually so used to being checked and changed by her parents that she did not pay any attention to her diapers.  “Can I take a look?”, she demanded as it became clear to her that her little but still teenage friend must have wet herself several times.   Petrified by Alex, who seemed to take the babysitting tasks seriously, she just nodded in approval, she let her open her pants that hardly were doing anything to cover the thick diaper bulk between her legs.   “You really need a change into something dry.”, she insisted, sliding the sweaty pants down her legs. “Alex took Lila on her hips. But you are not messy, aren't you?”, she asked and lifted the waistband of her diaper.  The little girl who was mindlessly watching TV just some seconds ago now was becoming aware that she just peed in her diaper whenever she needed to go. But now with her teenage friend finding out how wet she really was, she was kind of embarrassed.   “You don't need to be embarrassed around me, I know you cannot help it.” She wanted to calm her down. “And I think you are actually kind of cute with your diaper on and just going potty in it like this.”   With a quick hand, she grabbed her bag with the spare diapers and unfolded a changing mat on the bed. And sliding it under her little friend's bum. “It's ok for you if I do that?”, she wanted to assure herself that she did not hurt Lila’s little soul.  She saw her little head nod as she opened the Velcro strips in the front.  “You don't forget to use some cream after you cleaned up her accident. She will probably sleep in it all night long.”, her mum advised, as she was coming to check that her daughter was doing well with the change.  “Sure” she said while whipping her clean in the front. She used some baby oil and made the now fresh skin soft and comfy. “And now I have to clean her bum.”, she explained as if it was an exam in class. She lifted Lila’s legs in the air, started to wipe her clean, and removed the old sticky white cream. While Alex was caring for her, she had Noah in her arms and was not thinking about the childish procedure that just happened to her. Instead, she was worried about how this all would come to an end when their vacation was over. She actually did not want to go back to all her stress in her quickly changing teenage life.  ### “You already had enough?”, Alex asked Lila as she was having dinner with them and was sitting comfortably on Alex's lap like Lukas did on his mommy's. Yes, she confirmed the food they brought from any takeaway restaurant was delicious, but despite the early hour, she actually was pretty tired. But no, she could not confess that to her babysitter. It was not even Lukas's bedtime jet, and when she started heading to bed, it would make her appear even more like a little child.  As she leaned back on her lap, she yawned and could not help but rub her eyes.  At least Lukas was tired too, his mum had moved him to her lap as he started getting grumpy while he was eating alone in his place.    “It's bedtime for you soon, Lukas”, her mum had announced as she cleaned his face.  “I don't want to and Lila does not have to go either”, he protested, immediately comparing him to the in fact much older girl. Instead of arguing, Alex and her mother were looking at Lila. And with a blink of their eyes, they understood each other. “Actually, I think it is time for Lila as well, look at her.”, Alex's mum suggested to her babysitting daughter. “No”, the small teenager in her lap, complained without really meaning it. “You would have to go to bed in an hour anyway.”, Alex explained. “I promised that to your mummy.”  “But ...”, she tried again but did not find words and was just too tired of fighting any further.  “Bedtime it is, for Lila and Lukas at least. George can watch some cartoons for an hour or so.” Alex's mum said strictly to avoid any further discussion with their five-year-old son. The fifteen-year-old babysitter on the other hand noticed that the actual teenage child on her lap relaxed and seemed to have accepted that the day for her was over and started cuddling with her as if she would embrace the peace and rest that it would bring when she is finally tucked in bed.  For Lila, it was kind of strange, the strict words that sent her and the little Lukas to bed were comforting. She no longer had to argue with her teenage side if it would be appropriate and with the ease of mind that she would be safe she accepted it.  “You two go and brush your teeth?”, Alex commanded them into the bathroom as if they were both small kids. Handing out the toothbrush that Maria packed in her backpack. “Can you help me?”, the little Lukas asked Lila instead of his sister who was watching them right at their side as if any of them needed help.  “Sure, I can do that”, she cheered, glad she could at least be a little help to them. She put some of the funny-looking toothpaste on his brush before she took it over to her own. She had a short look at the tube in her hand. It was for little kids 3 to 7 Years old, as it was mentioned on the package.  “You can use it if you want,” Alex explained, ”It is just a little sweet and does not have the fresh smell as the adult toothpaste.”  Why not, Lila thought, put it on and proceeded with her nighttime routine.  “Mummy, do I have to wear a diaper tonight?” Lukas protested, when he was back from going to the potty, and was put on the Changing Mat with one Pampers Overnights Diaper right by his side.  Everyone could see that he was slightly embarrassed to have to wear a diaper when sleeping next to his new friend Lila.  “You actually never wake up at night to go pee or poop, so you cannot wear the pull-ups.” his mum said in a strict voice.   “But I don't want to, I am not a baby anymore.”, he protested again  What could she do to help him, she asked herself while holding Noah tight on her Chest.  Just tell him, came the answer from Noah in her mind.  “I don't mind you needing diapers ...” she said to calm him down. “I am not potty-trained, just like you, but I even need them during the day.”, she confessed not knowing if this was the truth now or if she just lied to him, and noticed that the young child finally gave up the fight and let his mum put his diaper on.  As the last tape was fixed and Lukas was changed into his pyjama by his mommy, he cuddled right next to me. While Alex brought us a glass and two baby bottles. Looking into my eyes, she shyly mumbled “I saw your pacifier when you were watching TV, so I wondered if you want a baba too just like Lukas?”  “I ...“, she stumbled, not knowing if she should share that secret as well. And did not even notice as her hand graded the childish drinking glass and pressed the warm object on her chest. Then slowly she took the nibble in her mouth and started to drink the warm, yummy tea. “You want to hear a bedtime story?” she offered and as if this was their normal nighttime routine she took the storybook, laid herself right in the empty spot between the two children, and began to read. “It was in a time maybe a thousand years ago ... “, was all she really could remember before she drifted back to sleep.  ### Lila opened her eyes a little bit as she noticed some strange voices. “Just try to sleep some more”, her daddy mumbled as her mum opened the door to their room.  But it was much too bright, even with Dad tucking her back in the bed. She did wake up a bit.  “Mummy Daddy did you have fun tonight.”, she asked them, noticing that she had not seen her mum so happy, and it seemed that her mother was still dancing deep down in her heart.  “Oh, yes we were in one of these nice restaurants and afterward your dad took me out dancing.” her mum cheered and after a second she was looking at her, she added  “Thank you so much, Lila. Thanks for staying with Alex for tonight.”, she gave her a kiss on her cheeks. And now try to sleep some more.  “It was fun for me too”, she told them and glad to see her parents happy.  She rolled from one side to the other, trying to find back to sleep. Even when the light was out, she could not. Something was bothering her and after some moments she felt the slight need to poop in her belly. Just poop in your diaper and go back to sleep, she heard the easy solution in her head and as she relaxed she noticed the first log of mess leaving her even before she pushed everything out and immediately fell back to a good night's sleep.   

It was clear that the movie theater would make trouble and they probably won't be interested in the student ID. I'm sorry about Wattpad because it was always easier to read because of the chapter function, but I completely understand that. Fun fact in Germany there is a currywurst with 7.777.777 Scovill and you get a certificate when you have eaten it... unfortunately I lost my certificate when I moved a few years ago. So I would shock the Amazons even more than Stacy and her spawn.