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i dunnos.... But I really hopes i dont find out

Im not the type of person to bring up "mommy issues" on a forum, or bring them up at all, but this is way too out of hand. Im 19, still living with her, hoping to move out next year when I wrap things up with the community college and move onto bigger, better things in Embry Riddle. Okay, well, allow me to introduce myself. Im a ROTC sargeant, I have a 3.9, I play 3, count them, 3 sports, and seen more education in elementary school than my mother has seen in a lifetime. I work hard, very very hard, and this is my "rewarding" life: -Im not allowed to have a safe, Im not allowed to even have a lock on my door. -She abused me when I was little, smacked me around, called me names, was never, and I MEAN NEVER, 'motherly' towards me, now she doesnt do any of that but she tries to control my life - She'll take the car away if I "sass" her, like Im a little kid, and I PAID for that car, down payment, insurance, THE WHOLE NINE YARDS Now lets introduce Ms. Neurotic Weirdo to infantilism When she finds a diaper under my bed, she : 1) calls up every immediate family member: my brother, aunt, father, and blabs my business 2) mocks me, imitates me and teases me constantly 3) tells me how "socially rejected" I am. Let me put it this way, Im too busy to party, at least this year. She tells me that Im going to start 'subconsciously' distancing myself away from people. 4) She tells me that Im gonna turn out a freak if I keep this up 5) She tells me Im a pedophile 6) She tells me I need legal help 7) She takes the car away 8) She tells me I have brain damage 9) She tells me the people I talk to about this are maladapted weirdos and are freaks of society (Ill give you her liscence plate number if you wanna slash her tires) 10) She tries to convince people, my brother, father, aunt, etc, people who respect me (or USED to respect me, rather) to talk to me, but they want no parts of the argument. Now I feel sick to my stomach about the whole thing. I feel like a weirdo. I feel if I were to quit infantilism, Id be lonely and miserable inside, I feel like I kept growing mentally and physically that I was so smart and strong but my emotional side got left behind and stayed as a little baby. If I were to stop, Id feel dead inside, like I have nothing left. I never even had a childhood, I never even had a mother that loved me like "normal" people do. And she doesnt understand that....

stuffs dady told me not to take, but i did it anways. jus bout every candy out there

I would love to! Absolutely love to. This sounds like a dream come true. I live far away, but England's just a plane ride away. Im a huge traveller, and a flyer, and Id love to visit you once I free up my schedule a bit... Im already going "back" to school, (college rather), but Im still 'little' on the side, learning and being little both at once just saves time!

Im from Pasadena, although we call it the Dirty Dena. I couldnt agree more with your statement on toilets, btw.

WOW! I hit the lottery on this one!!! Never knew Id find "pilots" and "diaper lovers" on the same forum! Id love to learn how to fly, or just get the bare bones of the program. Feel free to PM me with further info

This awkward moment brought to you by Dodi.

-giggles- I took candies from mr. mike's store....... no tell dady ok? ok.

I cant decide if Im a mommy or baby yet, maybe you can help. Id like to get to know some of you on here. PM me and Ill add you on facebook so we can chat, or we can chat here, Im down for anything. I dont bite, unless youre into that sorta thing

As for me when I put the baby things away, I also put the mindset away. The only time it really comes to mind is when I play sports, when I'm out practicing in the backyard or about to swing a bat, I re-hear arguments in my head about how 'adult babies are sick', and the most ridiculuous, coming from mom, 'people who wear diapers cannot function in society' and well, its more bang for my buck. Also, everytime I put my BDU's or Blue's on, I get reminded of how "we're so sick" and "dysfunctional" and yet, here's one of us serving the military. It actually makes me proud to be an AB/DL

My mother used to make terrible fun of me, imitating what I must look like diapered and sucking a pacifier, and it killed my confidence. I used to be at peace with my secret until she found out. I got constant reminders of how "sick" I was on a daily basis, almost every argument pointed to my fetish. Now I get sick to my stomach when I think of diapers, before I used to love them, now they make me slightly uncomfortable. But it doesnt mean I wouldnt mind putting a diaper on someone else, though

My mother found out when I was 16, and her response was "when a fetish starts this early it will evolve into pedophelia. you are not normal, you are sick, you need help, and if I find out you dont try to help yourself, you will leave because I am not raising a pedophile in my house" I never did become a pedophile, but thats still a lot to stomach, comin from your own mother

Paycheck + clueless diaper girl = diapers, although I cant figure out which brand I want yet. Here's what I'm looking for: Thick Soft A good, overall fit (I will be wearin for a long time) VERY quiet (I dont live alone) Plastic backed And also, are the Bambino duo pads a good buy? What about the quatros? They seem pretty huge, width wise and length wise, are they just for 'larger' people? Thanks!

I think its interesting to find out professions of AB/DLs...... there's some that go as far as doctors or engineers, and manly ones are common, such as truck drivers and soldiers. Im a soldier myself, or I will be in a few years But the point is, I know AB/DLs come from all walks of life and they range from nurses to secretaries, to cage fighters, to whatever. Dont mind me if I be nosy. Oh? My profession? Burger King supervisor, Ive been workin there for 3 yrs, hope to get promoted to manager this summer. Im sure in a few years my answer will be "Military officer" or "Air Force Pilot", somethin along the lines of that. Thanks!

Alice and Chains, Chevelle, Zep, RATM and Sublime? Youre my new best friend When I work out, I listen to all angry stuff, the music I listen to is angrier than a keebler elf demoted to fudge packer. x 10. Front Line Assembly Nine Inch Nails (90's Nin mainly) Front 242 Muse RATM When Im chillaxing, I like to listen to classic rock and grunge such as. Motley Crue Guns N Roses Alice in Chains Everlast KISS Iron Maiden Muse (there's a Muse song for every occasion) Filter INXS Motorhead Whitesnake Zep Chevelle Baby me likes raggae and "chill" music such as Bobby Marley Sublime Pepper SOME classical more Bob Marley and Muse