Wondering If Anyone Has Had Similar Feelings

[Guest chhockle]

I have found myself lately coming to a place in my life where I truly am starting to love the baby part of myself. For me that is a huge step and I’m grateful to be coming to that place. In saying that thanks are due to many of the people who post here, I don’t post a lot but I often read discussions and over the years it has really helped me. So thank you. I’m also really lucky that my wife adores my baby side and when I am at home I can be my whole self without any worry. But as I become more comfortable with the baby me, I find it harder and harder to keep the secret from the rest of the world. I feel in some ways feel like I am hiding parts of my authentic self. When I am my most authentic self I live with a sense of wonder and whimsy, I feel like I have to tone that down for the rest of the world. More and more I find the toning down of that part of myself truly exhausting. I’m just wondering if anyone else has had any similar experiences. Thanks again!

[BriGuy]

Absolutely! My fiancé id facilitating in my exiting the closet. She adores it. And I feel the more I find happiness with it the less I want to hide it from anyway. It is important to find a balance though, or at least that's what I am learning to do.

[RMS401]

I have found myself lately coming to a place in my life where I truly am starting to love the baby part of myself. For me that is a huge step and I’m grateful to be coming to that place. In saying that thanks are due to many of the people who post here, I don’t post a lot but I often read discussions and over the years it has really helped me. So thank you. I’m also really lucky that my wife adores my baby side and when I am at home I can be my whole self without any worry. But as I become more comfortable with the baby me, I find it harder and harder to keep the secret from the rest of the world. I feel in some ways feel like I am hiding parts of my authentic self. When I am my most authentic self I live with a sense of wonder and whimsy, I feel like I have to tone that down for the rest of the world. More and more I find the toning down of that part of myself truly exhausting. I’m just wondering if anyone else has had any similar experiences. Thanks again!

I can totally relate, Chhockle. I'm a pure DL, but I find it increasingly difficult to hide this side of myself from my wife. I find myself resenting having to hide it from her, and not being able to live the life I choose. It's not like this changes who I am, I just want to wear different underwear. I understand that this is odd, and a man in his mid-40s shouldn't want to wear and wet diapers, but it's harmless and it's part of who I am.

Unfortunately, there is a cost associated with flaunting your warts. People look at and treat you differently, and some will leave altogether. Since that's not a price I'm willing to pay, it's not something I'm willing to do. Maybe later in life, when the desire to be completely a totally authentic with everyone around me outweighs my need to feel accepted.

-RMS