GannerStorm14

thats exactly me, oh wow. Because I always see myself in the tie up, submissive role..with diapers. hmm

Well im not 100%...like i was watching gay diaper porn and usually it takes ages without wearing a diaper to cum cos my body is so used to it, but i was just turned on so much that it exploded, given i was watching other stuff too....

Hi so im wondering what am i... on the spectrum. Ive generally only always crushed on girls... however my brain is pretty wired with diapers and the fetish so that tends to elevate it. Now when i look at people in diapers, it doesnt bother me looking at young guys or females in diapers, they both turn me on.... but also in terms of diaper sex, the thought with having a guy do it with me turns me on more than a girl.... but ive never crushed on guys, only girls

Think is this is the worst binge yet, i bought 3 x 15. And usually i end up throwing away the rest of the pack and desire fades. This time i haven't thrown away the pack, but the desire to wear is still strong. Its not fading for now. I just want to wear more.

So my story is, im currently 29 years old. I vaguely remember being toilet trained and being told off as a kid, and not liking it. I do remember wetting the bed a few times but i dont remember ever being put into diapers. Never had a girlfriend but when i was around 17/18, i started with rubber--rubber fetish. Then when i was 18 and i was watching this advert for baby nappies and it clicked. From almost nowhere i had this desire to try and wear nappies. I got bambino first, and they were like XXL and far too big for me. Then i started on and off getting diapers / nappies. Purging and binging for almost 10 years. By 2015 it was starting to fade, then family members diied. It came back with a surgence but i also suddenly want to do adult baby stuff like pacifiers. Im in the process of going through another binge. I feel really guilty when using, though its easier, wearing especially without a sexual release. Any advice or help?