Chinacatsunflower

That was kinda how I was feeling and my boyfriend saw all the messages because I was asking him what I should do and if he had said anything about my fetishes on his Facebook cauz I thought G might have seen something on my boyfriends page. but at this point idk if G is even going to message me again and I worry if I were to message him I would seem too eager maybe if G doesn't say anything for a while I'll find a way to start friendly conversation again but I have never been good at that so idk it might just be a moot point but thanks for replying

So preface hi I'm a long time lurker who finally made an account because I really don't know what I want to do about this and my boyfriend while supportive doesn't quite understand where I'm coming from story time this morning I get a message on social media out of the blue from an old friend who I haven't properly seen in 3 ish years. We will call him G it starts off normal small talk where we are living and stuff.I talk about how living farther out from our circle of friends from the past has cut down on drama after he made a mention of two of the girls in the group making him look bad in the group. Then next message He tells me that the girls found out he is DL and spread it around our group of friends. Now I had stopped hanging with all but like 4 people from the group and I didn't keep in touch with any of the girls so I had no clue this happened. So I'm freaking out at this point internally because like I'm In that closet when it comes to DL or well maybe "in the bedroom" is better because I have only shared my interest in this with my boyfriend of five years. Externally I'm like ok play like it's not an issue so I go like full liberal university mode in the messages so I tell G kink shaming is wrong and say it seems a lot of our generation is into ABDL or some form of the letters he then says I prob know others I hypothesize about why so many nineties babies are into this maybe cartoons maybe disposables G tells me about other friends in the group who wear them ask if I want to know what Attracts people to the fetish. I try to doge it by being like "oh everyone has their experiences and shit" internally I'm like I know why it's amazing I do this all the time he still tells me his reasoning and slightly disproves my "diffeeent experiences" shit so then he try's to video chat and I'm like nope nope I have a boyfriend idk what is gonna be on that screen and I don't want to ever be even slightly considered a cheater cauz that shit ain't cool i quickly spell out that I'm down with being friends and being here to talk but I'm not down with deleting shit and hiding stuff from my boyfriend and then G didn't respond, However I also never revealed I was into DL and he may have took my saying anything sexual to mean talking about DL in general and I didn't mean that so much as I ment not sexting or videochatting while doing dirty things. So finally I request your help because I'm at the point where I would like a couple of friends that were into to DL that I could pad up and go to shows or hiking or camping with but at the same time idk if I want it spread around that I'm into this and I am super happy with my boyfriend who lets me wear whenever I want and even plays along so I am not looking to hide it at home and def not looking for any sort of sexual relationship outside of with my boyfriend. But a diaper pal would be nice TL;DR: I want non sexual diaper pals but don't know if I can trust the one who came out of the closet to me today or if he would be interested in non sexual padded adventures in the first place. Advice?