dlconfusion

I've worn them to lots of things including class. I go to people houses for my job all day. I've often worn crinkly diapers under my khakis and I don't think anyone's every noticed. I do however tuck my shirt in, wear and wear a tight belt. Most of the time we're outside and you really don't hear little crinkles over natural sounds. The one time I heard it kind of loud, I pulled a plastic baggy out of my packet with some of the pieces I needed for my job and let them make the connection.

I told my girlfriend that I had a really really embarrassing secret a while ago and I built it up so much that when I finally told her, she just laughed (nicely) and was completely relieved. She told me without me asking her that she'd be willing to "help me out" and everything. A little over a week ago we actually did some playing with them for the first time together. When I went to buy the diapers she told me she was even excited. She's been great about it. I'm the one with the problem. I feel so weird and goofy for liking diapers (and have since I was 3 or 4) that I can hardly enjoy being with her doing this. In my mind I'm constantly playing very negative little things I think she's thinking (but I know she's not). I'm so embarrassed that it's hard for me to relax. Any suggestions?