Curio

Hi everyone!

I've been exploring Diapers in private for some time now and even own some clothes, a pacifier and bottle. I'm something of a closet ABDL as I live with my mother and brother, which is why I am reaching out. I feel like I have explored this part of me as much as I can in private, and I am hoping that I can make some friends with whom I can explore being and ABDL a bit further.

I have been a DL for a few years, but living with family has made exploring it a bit difficult. Whenever I get the oppertunity I enjoy just hanging out in a diaper, going about my day with it in place of my regular underwear. I have used it as a form of stress relief by playing baby in private, just doing whatever somes into my head but I dont think I have a full 'little space' just yet as I find it difficult to let of my adult sensibilities, although I have gone full little a few times and found it a cathartic experience.

However, I will admit there is a sexual element to this for me, when I first started exploring this kink it was through stories of adults being forcufully diapered by machines, a la 'Bottleneck Baby.' These usally held other fetish elements like spanking, and light bondage. If I want to be little I can generally be little, but I want to be upfront and say someimes I like doing adult things when appropriate.

Hopefully this doesnt sound too creepy, I have difficulty expressing myself through keyboard and I can be quite shy when talking about things like this in person.

Anyways thats a little about me, I understand its a bit personal and I hope it doesnt put people off, but I want to be honest about myself as I feel that it would be best to start off on the right foot. I am looking forward to meeting everyone and I hope to hear from you soon!