Kinomi

I started at 8. My sister had just become a toddler and i would snag one of her diapers every now and then. I guess mine is a security thing. I just feel... safe, and comfortable while i have one on. I haven't worn in a few months though. It's too much trouble right now. (Nosey household )

First, I'd like to thank you for spending as much time as you have talking to me. It brings me some comfort. It's funny you should ask about the dreams, because, yes, i do. I guess it's common? I'll have a dream about wearing like, once a month or so. And yes, i know, it was a really stupid idea. I was just thinking that at the time, the only people that would see it were those who went to that site and were in my area. If i was right or wrong doesn't make a difference now, but i have learned my lesson.

Well, i figure i'll just dive right in. Good Morning I hope everyone here has a productive day

Hi, it's me, "Anonymous Guest." I was kind of freaking earlier, i am sorry. Although i still have all of these questions. I've been trying diapers on and off since i was 15. The self-destructive and expensive, buy a lot of stuff, throw it all away, feel the urge again, buy all the same stuff over, purge... that's me. Recently, i got frustrated and tried to find other people to talk with so i checked out a site called "dpf." It was ok, but i was stupid and signed up on their roster... with my phone number... So now i get calls, which would be ok, if they weren't all creepy old men. Here's the kicker though, i can't find a way to take my info off of the site. So now i have the same guy calling me every friday and saturday night who sounds like a serial killer. He leaves me disturbing messages in a broken voice. I'll probably have to change my number Is this just a bad experience? I was so desperate to get answers that i put my # on the internet and i get sex-crazed old men... I was looking for someone normal to talk with and i got that. I still feel weird about wearing though. I mean, I don't have the personailty for this. I am a logical, deep-thinking, and caring person. Why can't i figure this out? I also think i look rather ridiculous, I'm not fat, but i am six feet tall. If this is me "regressing" due to stress, i can sort of understand it. I am always worrying about something. I am diagnosed with bi-polar (genetic )and i always have anxiety, even though i'm not diagnosed with that one. I still don't understand why i would choose this as a way to deal with stress though. Is this really a stress-reliever? I've done some reading online these years trying to understand it. But i need something more personal i think. The internet can be a cold resource.