MetroGnome

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kyotothefox/

I prefer baby diapers over adult, but I can't fit in them so I staple them to an an adult diaper, the best fabricated baby diapers I have made i used Huggies little movers size 6 .... The backs fit so well. When I want to make a real heavy diaper I fill the stappled front and back diaper with water. It feels so nnnniiiccceee.

True. I guess he knows now and that's kinda what I was shooting for. So I guess it was a win.

Ya idk if I will I feel like he has repressed it by now, and i kinda don't want to go thorough that again. I think if I do, it will be because the found something. Thanks for the advice though.

I have had those thoughts before, a lot sometimes....

I wish I could hAve he made it so weird, he didn't want to talk to me about it, unlike my mom who had questions and was honestly interested Nd displayed her care and acceptance....he just kinda told me he didn't think of me any less (which honestly didn't feel genuine). I guess if I want to look at things positively at least I got the reaction and acceptance I wanted from my mother. I'm happy I have one parent who actually cares and accepts me. Ultimately I feel closer to my mother now. I'm just going to kinda pass off my dads reaction in hopes of self acceptance..also I kinda want to exspress myself through some DL drawlings and what not. I'm hopping I can quiet my intense urges. Unfortunately working first shift and all I don't exactly have time to wear them while I'm at my dads. Oh well :/ ill finda way. Thank you for the advice to think positively...I will, I need to stop fighting myself!

Yeah, I can't get rid of everything I own, so I'm just going to get a fireproof safe with a key, so she can't open it (right now I have a combo lock). I guess I will just never talk to my Dad about that again.

I have only told a few of my friends...only one paid off when I found out he also had a fetish, after that I have grown a lot closer to him as a friend.

Ya broke the news to my Dad.... He didn't hardly want to talk about it, he asked me why I was telling him such information and I said its because I want you to know that I have a stash in this house, he responded by telling me that was weird. He told me I should get rid of the stash so my step mother won't find it ...which I can't do...he doesn't understand how helpful it is in a time of need. Its just another way of saying that he dosent feel comftrable with me having diapers in his house. I seek acceptance and all I got was a 3min awkward decision I instantly regretted.

Yes luckily he pays for all the maintenance items , all I have to do is put gas in it and pay for the insurance. Sometimes he can get suspicious because I'm kinda a little quiet about my personal life, so I hide things as best I can.... Always searching for new hiding spots... At my dads its kind of difficult, there really isn't any good spots, my car is a place I wouldn't want to put my stash somewhere he is entitled to search... I'm kinda leaning to one of these large locked briefcases, that's really all the space I need.

Thank you so much!

Ya I guess you're right, I have kinda stuffed it in my closet under a lot of stuff, I do however think I'm going to tell him....you all have filled me with an overwhelming sense of confidence (I want to thank everyone)....I really do think I am going take on my biggest fear, I know if this all works out I will be happier, no longer paranoid, and accepted.

Ya I have stored them in my car before, I actually own a subwoffer and I stored the behind the woffer. The only problem I saw was I don't actually own my car my Dad is sort of just letting me use it since its an extra car. Once I get my own car it will move out there in a heart beat. If thinking of throwing out the stuff in my backpack in the closet anyway since I don't ever use them anymore, and going through my suitcase. Then I should be able keep all of my stuff in a locked container and not have to worry about him finding my bag. I used to actually wear a diaper every night for a good 3 months and it kind of made my fetish fade a bit, and it kind of made me a bit lost because this fetish fills about 80% of my sexual intest.I haven't had a job in 2 months until just recently so I haven't been able to afford new diapers. I do think as time goes on and I become more confident I actually might switch to a 24/7 because I have always wanted to.....but as of right now I don't think I am ready. Thank you for responding Dill_Pickle!

I feel like its kind of just a Dad thing, I don't think he would disown me but I feel he wouldn't understand at all. I also don't want him to look at me any different than he sees me now. I was comfortable talking to my Mom because she has always been very understanding.....my Dad not so much. I do want to tell him in one hand to stop my paranoia about him finding my stash, in the other I know it is going to take some serious courage to talk to him, I do hope I can someday and I hope for him to understand me and for him to not look at me any different than now.

Yeah the thought that initially pops into my head would be my best friend I was talking about above. I would have never guessed, he puts up a very masculine face. I was shocked when he started talking to me. I guess you never know a person until they open up. Idk why I forgot that sometimes.... "Don't judge a book by its cover."

Have you been better off with the relationship between your parents?

Well I ended up telling my mother today and she was very accepting, she told me she didn't quite understand but said that she that if it doesn't hurt anyone then its perfectly fine. I told her where I hide them. Ya she is not nosy so I knew I didn't have to go to elaborate for a hiding spot so I ended up putting them in our attic. My dads house is kind of different, he is a little nosy as is my step mom who i can really never trust.I ended up putting them in a locked suitcase just in case (I am very paranoid). I have the rest in a backpack in my closet which is mostly what I'm worried about..

Yeah i can never throw away my stuff, I mean I go through and get rid of stuff every once in a while....but getting rid of everything no matter how disappointed I am can't happen, I know myself to well to know the out come of that. I just have my fingers crossed my parents don't ever find my stashs, it will be hard to confront that! I know I can tell my mother and she would understand, but my dad on the other hand is rather intimidating to me, someday I say to myself....

Thank you Bettypooh, it does mean a lot. Often I forget how many people are out there struggling with the same issues. I guess when I am surrounded by "normal" people I often forget that. After reading through others posts I kinda didn't feel so alone again.

Hi, let me kind of give you a little background of myself I am a DL, this fetish dominates pretty much all of my sexual arousal (I have a few other fetishes, not as strong). I have lived with a diaper fetish since I was 6. I knew what aroused me, but never understood it. I stole diapers from family members homes and what not for pretty much all of my life up until the point when I got a job and could buy them myself. All of my life I have struggled to accept myself for who I am and often felt great amount of depression and loneliness, and disconnection from the rest of society. Until last year when my best friend and I went on a week camping vacation where along the way I learned he was a fury. This was probably the best thing that has ever happened, I began to accept my fetish and embrace it, I finnaly knew I wasn't the only different person. I was able to talk to him about my urges and my feelings. Fast forward a few months and he leaves for the military, I feel alone again. I feel extreme feelings of guilt and hatred after wearing diapers, I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I feel so disappointed in myself, even though I know that it is me, it's who I am. I don't have urges for a week or so, and when I do they are strong and dominate my concentration. Everytime i indulge i get the same feeling again.I guess I am searching for some hope and really some help to eliminating these guilt feelings so I may return back to my normal self. Thank you for your support!