littleaaron

I was potty trained at a really early age and only wet the bed occasionally. This was due to my father encouraging my independence and my mother not really wanting to care for a baby, so I "matured" quickly.

Unfortunately, my parents divorced, mother remarried and had my two sisters. I was always envious of the care and attention they received, but too proud to say anything or let myself receive that same care and attention. 

Around the time I was in the third grade, a friend slept over at my place. It was a normal night with movies and games. The next morning, after my friend dressed himself for the day, he came out of the bathroom carrying a used diaper and asked my father where he could dispose of it at, to our complete shock as we didn't know he was wearing a diaper. Although I knew better than to tease or make fun of him, I found it hilarious.

Around the time I was in the sixth grade, I watched one of the first GoodNights commercials and proceeded to make fun of the kids in the commercial. My father verbally scolded me and said "some kids can't help it and need them".

Wondering "why" a kid my age would need them, I searched the internet during the few times I was left unsupervised and learned all about bedwetting and incontinence and diapers being a common solution. Then I became curious as to "what"/"how" it felt to wear and use a diaper. 

As a twelve year old, I couldn't get my hands on diapers. My sister's were long out of them and I was a broke kid without the freedom to go to a store unsupervised. Through more Internet searches, I stumbled open the early ABDL websites. For twelves years, I would satisfy my curiosity- which ebbed and flowed -through lurking on forums and reading ABDL stories. 

When I was 24, I was finally able to buy some diapers. However, since I lived with my father, I couldn't take them home, so I settled on wearing around my college campus. I would buy the diapers stuff as many as I could into my backpack, then go to a public restroom to put one on. I immediately wet the diaper and then proceeded to have a nervous breakdown, which led me to ripping off the diaper and throwing all the diapers unceremoniously into the nearest trashcan.

I spent the next month doing some serious introspection as I was really confused and conflicted about my feelings about diapers. My outlet to order these thoughts was in writing a sort of journal/memoir.

Eventually, I came to the conclusion that I liked diapers for their practical applications. I did not have a fetish or sexual interest in diapers or age play. However, I do find the thought of sucking on a pacifier or bottle to be potentially relaxing, but I haven't had the opportunity to explore yet. I do get aroused at the thought of someone changing my diaper, but that is more about the tender loving care offered than the diapers.

For a couple of years, I would sporadically make use of diapers where they were more convenient, such as long college lectures and movies.

However, be careful what you wish for.

When I was 27, I had a relatively minor procedure that require sedation and heavy narcotics afterwards, two things I have never had before in my life. It is assumed that I suffered urinary retention as a side effect to either the sedation or narcotics. I did not pee for nearly 36 hours, and when I finally did, I wet my bed.

Since that night, I have suffered from an overactive bladder/urge incontinence. I rarely have more than one dry night a week. Although I can sometimes go hours without urinating, when the need arises, I usually have less than five minutes to find a bathroom. Thus, I found myself wearing diapers 24/7. It was only from my previous experiences/thoughts that I was able to accept my new diapered status so easily.

Only my father and a few very close friends know about my incontinence. Nobody else has ever mentioned them, even at times when I know I unintentionally revealed them. Nobody knows about my ABDL past.

Initially, Walgreen's Certainty Fitted Briefs were my go-to diaper as they were cheap, easily obtainable, and got the job done. However, I would eventually switch to Abena L4s. When I need to be especially discreet, I sometimes wear the Walgreen's brand or Abena L2s. Also, when exercising or doing a lot of physical labor, I may wear a pull-up style diaper for flexibility.