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  1. JenAndTonic
    For only a moment, Jenny felt embarrassed about standing in front of Katie in nothing but a bulky, crinkling diaper. She put it out of her mind though as Katie pulled her into her arms. Jenny glanced over the pajama sets and took her time making a decision. The butterfly set made her think of her pull-up designs and the pictures she'd colored for Katie, but the other two spoke to something deep within her. The true child she'd once been. The little girl who'd begged for either a puppy or kitty to call her own, but had been rebuffed at every turn. She eventually settled on which not only looked the cutest but were emblazoned with the pet she had wanted most as a real little girl.
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    Jenny felt a strange mix of relaxation and giddiness as her friend slid off her pull-ups and changed her into thicker protection. A part of her loved that Katie didn't even give her a choice or a chance to waiver on being her best friends little girl. Katie loving cleaned her private area before wrapping her gently in a fresh diaper, a real diaper, to last her through the night.
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    Jenny might have blushed from Katie's kind words, but deep down the made her as happy as she'd ever been. After all the constant, effusive praise, Jenny was finally starting to internalize it all. She was her 'Aunt's' cute little girl and she loved it. She loved being little and cute and carefree and loved. She was overjoyed that Katie liked her drawings. Maybe she was a better artist than she had thought if she had had made so many pretty pictures? Jenny blushed deeply, she knew what 'freshen up' meant. Although this wetting had been no accident, she was still a little uneasy at the thought of going through with what she had decided she wanted. It was no longer a Jen/Jenny conflict, more a her/residual shame conflict. Still she let Katie lead her upstairs. Three days ago Jen would have protested even her pull-ups, in the span of a long weekend she'd gone to wetting willingly and looking forward to the change. The only thing that upset her about the events about to unfold, as Katie laid her out ready to change her out of her sopping pants, was that she had probably stained her cute pajamas.
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    Jenny was totally off in her own world when Katie snapped her out of by telling her dinner was almost ready. Dinner was...different. She'd had all the ingredients before but never in this configuration. Still, it did smell good so she took a few exploratory bites before warming up to her food well enough. After such a peckish beginning though, her hunger did catch up with her and soon she'd gobbled down the whole thing. Katie savored the food a bit more, but that was fine with Jenny because it meant she got to show Katie the pictures she'd worked on while dinner was being made. Once they were done, Jenny followed Katie to the kitchen without being asked and helped her friend rinse the dishes off. She had yet to notice the tell-tale wet lines on the back of her pajama pants from where she had flooded over the leak guards or the faint wetness she left in her chair.
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    As if on cue, her stomach gave a loud rumble. It was evening time now and she hadn't eaten since her toast and coffee this morning. "Can you make us some dinner, please?" She asked Katie.
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    Jenny was beaming when Katie put the drawing on the fridge. It was something so small, but it meant the world to her, whether she was being little or not, and it did so much to make her feel very much like the little girl she was aching to be. She scurried back to the living room and spent the next hour or so making Katie more pictures and coloring them as pretty as she could. After the fifth new addition to the refrigerator, Jenny felt the need to pee. She thought about getting up to use the potty for a brief second, before remembering that she had planned to just let nature take its course. Unfortunately, nature wasn't helping and her efforts to force it out only seemed to make it harder to go. She squirmed in place trying to find a comfy position, trying to find some way to sit that took pressure off her cramping bladder and just let her go.
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    Jenny thanked Katie for her juice without taking her eyes from the coloring sheet. Her little girl side was bleeding over into my conscious mind but this time, Jen was doing a good job of synthesizing the two. She didn't fall into full toddler mode, but rather gently slipped into a relaxing, peaceful mindset. Relaxed and peaceful though she may have been, she was paying great attention to her coloring sheet, she wanted it to be perfect. Art had never been one of her several gifts, but in the end, she thought she did quite a good job with her coloring. With a pink crayon, at the bottom right of the page in a spot left uncolored in the green grass meadow, she wrote 'To: Auntie Katie, From: Jenny. She rose from where she sat and folded the paper up like a letter, so Katie would have to open it to see it's message. She crossed the room to where Katie sat and gave the picture too her friend. She had no reason to be nervous, but her stomach was fluttering with butterflies, she hoped Katie like her picture.
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    Jenny shook her head at being asked if she needed to use the potty. If she was going to be little like she wanted to be, then she wouldn't be using it for a while, she thought. She didn't mind wetting, not at least in the privacy of the house. in fact, Jen had to admit to herself she kind of liked it and she actually did like Katie helping her get changed. She promised herself that if she was going to try and enjoy being little and try to find some balance between the two parts of her self. Maybe exploring her Jenny side consciously would keep her from slipping so deep that she lost herself and got scared.
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    "Colouring sounds like it might be fun," Jenny pipes up. She had dosed off in Katie's arms while watching telly enough times to know that watching movies means bedtime and she doesn't want to go to sleep just yet.
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    Jenny was a bit upset at being grounded still, but knew she deserved it after being so nasty to Katie. At least her friend had offered her a way out once she demonstrated how sorry she actually was.
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    As for the why. As several have already said, we don't really know why diapers become fetish objects or why regression is appealing, there are theories related to paraphilias more broadly though that are worth checking out. A leading hypothesis is somewhere in our early development our lovemap, what psychiatrists call our ideal sexual situation, gets snagged on something. It can happen due to numerous reasons, but whatever the reason, we develop a hang up on one thing. My grandmother ran a daycare, as my parents never married I was the 'baby' in my dad's family and in my mom's family I was the oldest and there was never a child not in diapers due to having a brother and sister in close age proximity to me until I was 13. Couple that with feeling displaced as my mothers favorite once my sister came along, my experience with duality in age and family roles and my own desire for a girlhood and I think you've got a pretty good example of where a lovemap becomes tangled. I'd suggest if you want to know more about why you have these feelings to explore your past and connect some dots with your 20/20 hindsight.
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    Jenny enjoys the cuddling for a little while before popping the soother out of her mouth, "I'm sorry Katie," she says trying to bridge between the little girl she wants to be right now and the big girl that has to apologize and get her thoughts out. "I shouldn't have acted like that, it was wrong. You've only been nice and tried to help me, I just had a bad day and I was angry and I lashed out. I hope I can not be grounded anymore but if you think I need to be, then I understand."
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    "OK, it's just that- I'm not sure I like being a big girl but I don't want to get really little either. I don't know. I'll try though." Jen, no it was Jenny now, found the Katie's changing her to be relaxing. It was nice letting Katie take care of her. It troubled her how quickly Katie accepted and encouraged her youthful side, but maybe she just had more foresight than Jenny did, seeing as after getting a taste of being little, she was reluctant to give it up. Katie might indeed like her more as a little girl, littler than the one she first met even, but Jenny liked herself that way too. There was no competition. No one yelling at her. No one pitying her, looking down on her, or condescending to her. She just got to be a person, for once just a person who was loved by someone else.
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    Even if she was only deprived of Katie's comfort for a little under two hours, Jen drank it in like she was dying of thirst. "I'm sorry I lost my temper. It was wrong, it's just that I don't, I don't-" Jen stopped herself. She didn't know if she could really put her feelings into words. Everything was so complicated to her right now and she knew she had a lot that she needed to figure out. Grounded or not, some alone time might at least give her some time to think things over. She took comfort in Katie's promise not to send her back home, but wondered how many more days of her acting like a child could Katie take? How long until even her friends resolve wore down? She was done even trying to work up outrage over not being given the option to wear her panties. What was the use, she needed her Drynites, at least until whatever was going on in her head passed.
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    When Katie opened the door, Jen ran to her and threw her arms around her friends waist, burying her face in Katie's chest. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" She said over and over again.
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    Jen continued to cry most of the way home. She was just waiting for something to happen and every moment that it didn't confused and frightened her more. Katie was quiet. She didn't reach out, she didn't reassure her, she didn't even look at Jen. "I'm sorry." Jen croaked. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Please, just get it over with. Katie remained stoic. Only once they were back home did Katie let loose on Jen. Katie didn't shout though, that would have been easy. Jen knew what it was like to be shouted at. She spoke up and she spoke clear, but without emotion. Without pity or empathy. Without the love that Jen thought Katie had for her. She'd done it, she'd lost her one friend in the world. All because she couldn't be an adult. All because she couldn't keep her pants dry. Her former friend pulled her up the stairs, again, no erratic movements, no rage, no anything but a quiet, unrelenting force.
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    Jen took her seat in the car, just happy to be alone with Katie when her friend asked the question. Jen's face flushed, "yes.." She answered meekly before averting her eyes. She didn't want to be seen right now by anyone. How could she handle school by herself? She couldn't even handle using the bathroom by herself the past few days. She was a failure. Her parents were right. Without them she had transformed from a mature competent young lady to a kid who couldn't keep her pull-ups dry and she hated it. She hated them, she hated herself, she just couldn't take it anymore. Jen knew Katie didn't believe her and a days worth of fought back tears started pooling in her eyes.
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    Jen and Katie quietly advanced to the front of the line. Jen noticed that Katie seemed upset and wondered if perhaps she had done something to upset her. Katie's noticeable tension caused Jen to pull away. She wondered if perhaps she had made her best friend angry? Even if she hadn't, she didn't feel comfortable approaching Katie for comfort right now. Jen stood silent, staring down at the floor. She managed to fake a smile while her picture was taken. She wanted to cuddle up to Katie so badly, Jenny was pounding down the door in her head, yelling to be let out, to take over. Jen was caught in the middle of this inner tempest, torn between trying to keep up appearances as a teenager when everyone in the world saw her otherwise and giving in to the happy, scary control that her Jenny self had over her.
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    Katie sticking up for her did embolden her a little bit, but as the day wore on, Katie constantly had to inform those they came in contact with that Jen was the student, not her. It hurt. She had went to so much effort to try and come off like the future student she would be, but her apprehension and the mounting assumptions that she was merely a tween, kid sister tag along were weighing on her. She stuck close to Katie and didn't speak much. She wanted to reach out and clutch Katie's hand in hers and hold on. But she wouldn't. She couldn't let herself. Her pride was bruised and her ego was battered but neither would let her seek comfort in Katie. Not after yesterday. Jenny was too strong and she had to be big, not just for herself but for her parents and Katie as well. She had to prove everybody else wrong.
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    The campus was buzzing with people and, Jen had to be honest with herself, a little intimidating. Everything was so big and spread out and full of people. Jenny rose up inside her, empowered by Jen's nervousness.
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    While Jen at first would have enjoyed the idea of exploring on her own, she remembered the debacle from their day at the castle. She felt Jenny under her skin. The child was upset with not being let out, with being denied after having spent a day being indulged. If Jen got lost or separated from Katie, Jenny just might take the opportunity to take over again. Not so soon, not after going so deep, and certainly not in front of future classmates.
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    Those didn't sound too hard. Jen started on her tasks eagerly, hoping to finish up before Katie came back from upstairs. Unfortunately the task was a little more than she had expected and Katie was already back and ready to head out the door before she finished up. In her mind she thought about Katie being upset about this or thinking she was useless. The one time she looked back and made eye contact with Katie, she gave a soft smile to Jen. She still couldn't get over flinching at her every mistake or shortcoming. 16 years of programming wasn't just hanging around in her head, by so consciously exiling Jenny, she curt, derisive words of her mom and dad rung in her ears. With some reassurance that Katie wasn't angry and it was all in her head, she kept from panicking and finished her task.
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    All those sounded pretty agreeable to Jen. It must be some library though for just sitting outside of it to be an attraction unto itself. Maybe they could get some books while they were there for pleasure reading. She only had a few more days to cram any of that in before school began to dominate her time.
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    Jen was excited at the idea of getting a new computer, too excited even to complain about adding to the debt that she was internally keeping track of. Besides, it wouldn't have dissuaded Katie anyway.
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    Jen muched on the toast and jam and slurped down her coffee. "So what are you thinking of doing today.." she forced herself to take a pause "..Katie? I know we need to go get my luggage and we probably should go buy my books from the university. Did you have anything else planned to do today?"
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