Dansmommy

Im a very new "mommy" but i have children of my own. I really enjoyed my time with my kids when they were very little babies i had to force myself to stop breastfeeding them they were around 2 by the time i finished. i have just met a guy who is ABDL so to me it works out rly well. The main problems are we live very far apart so cant meet up and we are both just starting out to put this scene into practice. I think I am the only person he has told about it and he hasnt tried anything yet (too scared). I have looked for advice but there doesnt rly seem alot out there aimed at me in my role as mommy and how i deal with how i feel about it, my need to be maternal, so if anyone out there can guide me in the right place or how we can grow as a couple from here it would be rly appreciated. I find it hard to cope with it because i have kids and it makes me feel like im weird i want to breastfeed my "baby" so bad and take care of him like a mommy does but i also want a full sexual relationship too. So if any other mommies out there feel like i do i would rly like to hear from you on how you deal with the whole thing.