diaperguyred

It is really good to hear that other people have the same problem as me. I guess training myself to become aroused will have to be the thing. As I said, I was not interested into sissy things until later on when I noticed many AB captions were fused with sissy themes. As I was originally only attracted to DL, I grew to become attracted to other fetish situations as well (bondage, AB, strap on, and especially sissy things), which makes me think I can somehow train myself to become attracted to normal sex. Maybe I can do that, somehow just connect my fetish with a normal sex situation, and eventually just become attracted to regular sex. I have noticed I can get aroused by hearing a woman moaning during sex. I know I am not gay, though I think I would be open minded to try something about it if I have no luck with women. I do prefer the more dominant role in my significant other, as I am attracted to me being the submissive one. I always knew that I didn't get aroused when I saw a model in a bikini, so I was always afraid of getting in a relationship that went that far (in High school I would imagine that my impotence might be a topic of gossip for the school to have fun with). I kind of wish I could go back in time and just start watching regular porn when I was younger, start programming my brain to become aroused to that early on, but I cannot change time, just move on with it.

Ok, my first post on here: I have been interested into diapers since I was a small boy, I have no idea why. As I aged into puberty ages, my interest became a need. I felt a huge sexual desire to wear diapers. Deathly afraid to wear diapers or have anybody know, I kept it locked up inside me. This was until I found out about ABs and DLs in my freshman year of High school. I finally knew that I was not alone. This more or less grew my interest into more intense forms of AB and DL. I had not really imagined myself in a nursery or whatnot before I had discovered it on the internet, but my seemingly only sexual interest for diapers grew into other forms. A couple years later I grew my fetish to include sissy things. As this was not my original sexual interest, I found it extremely exciting. A common link I have found between my fetishes is humiliation. But my problem: I have always had an interest for girls, but my other brain(my penis) has no desire to rise to just seeing a girl naked. To clear things up, I am not gay, though I feel that sucking another guys cock is sexually exciting (i go back to my humiliation connection). I am a virgin, and for a good reason: when I kiss a girl or do anything sexual, my penis fills a little bit, but goes back down after about a minute or so. The erection is nowhere near what it is like when I am aroused by ABDL things. I have an ex girlfriend who is an ex because of distance. She has been texting me a lot and I can definitely tell that she wants to have sex when I come home in about a month. To get rid of my V card, I would love to have sex with her, but I am afraid that i will not be able to perform as I cannot get the correct arousal. Is there any way I can get a full erection to last me through sex like a pill from the drugstore? I will not tell my ex about my fetish, its just not the right time, and I dont think she would roleplay with me on the fact anyways. Also, do other people have a similar problem? An erection can only be achieved through your fetish? I feel like I have always been attracted to girls in a non sexual way. But if I want to have a normal healthy relationship, I really think I need to be able to have just normal sex where I see my girlfriends boobs and get a hard on. I have tried to quit my fetish to be able to reconfigure my brain to have an arousal for boobs and nudity, but to no avail. I always come crawling back to diapers and sissy play. I would really like to hear everyones advice for what they did in the same situation.