HeavenlyCreature

As a child, I used to strongly enjoy wearing diapers past the age that I needed to. I spent some quite happy (but nervous-for-fear-of-being-discovered) time wearing diapers that I pilfered from the ones that my younger sister was still using. Alas, once she graduated out of them, I didn't have a ready supply anymore; and it was a sad day when my last diaper was thrown out. Though I fantasized about diaper-wearing and diaper-play as I grew older, around the age of puberty interest kinda dwindled for me. I do remember doing some internet reading about ABDL, and enjoyed some such-themed erotic stories, but I guess other things started seeming more appealing - or maybe I just managed to successfully repress the feelings, since I definitely felt shame about them.The thought of it still niggled at me every once in a while in a "come hither" or "pay attention to me" way, but it's been out of my mind until fairly recently. Lately, I've been mentally revisiting parts of my past and trying to confront suppressed/repressed urges in general - and so, thinking about the strong impact diapers had on me as a child, I started doing a little poking around on the internet again. After finding this community and doing some other reading, I abruptly realized that I really, really, really wanted some diapers. Like, immediately. Long story short, after doing some researching and seeing what might be available in my town, I picked up some Pampers Baby Dry Size 6 at a Walgreens and excitedly took them home for some experimentation. I know, I know, and I knew then that they wouldn't fit (without some grotesque stretching). But I also really dislike how almost all the adult diapers I've seen have looked. The Pampers are SO cute, smell wonderful, and feel fantastic... aesthetically, I prefer seeing quite small diapers on myself and others, to seeing enormous, thick-but-practical adult-sized diapers. Making tape extenders according to this page allows for a surprisingly comfy fit around the waist with minimal stretching, and I don't mind that the front and back don't reach up as high as they ought. (If you imagine them as odd low-rise panties, their fit isn't too unusual .) I gather a fair number of folk on this forum kinda look down on wearing baby diapers like that; but I'm not as interested in using diapers "as diapers" as I am in just wearing them, and I find a tight fit to be pretty erotic. To each his or her own, I suppose. As you might guess, I'm way more a DL than an AB. So hi! I'm Sandra. I'm a trans girl (in progress), a recently (re)discovered DL who's partial to small diapers and baby diapers over the functionality of properly fitting adult diapers, and I applaud you if you made it all the way through this intro without dozing or wandering off. (Also, I keep thinking how much I'm gong to regret posting this online if it ever gets associated with me IRL. Oh weellllllll...)