I am a girl and I have also enjoyed secretly pooping my pants since the age of 8. Hence, my nick "Doo Doo Girl". In a similar fashion, I also felt and still feel presently that pooping your pants or diaper was a secure thing to do. I simply just got enjoyment of the entire doing it in secret thing though. I was NEVER EVER caught, and I don't plan on being caught either. Pooping also gives me an orgasm and makes my boobs firmer. Just an observation of mine. Lol. And as far as looking at the poop, yes it's repulsive sometimes, but it reminds me of a sense of accomplishment, especially if I have done a massive dark brown poo...sorry if too descriptive, lol. The stink also gets me turned on too...to know that a little baby girl like me made such a naughty stink stink....gets me going every time. Lol.