im new here... but have been reading everyones post for quuiite a while... i have tried 1 banana.. once.. and slept over night to find it completely liquid.. i wanna try the real deal.. very intrested but 2 things i have in mind... i cant get my hands on an enema kit or any laxative, other than castor oil and such natural stuff.. what i can use instead .. !? plus, a rolled up maxi pad (love em') looks like its too big to get in there should i force it ? plus can i heavily diaper myself without having to worry about sitting down and forcing the pad totally in??