Being into this. I don't want to be. If I could chose to I wouldn't.
I have purchased diapers for myself and used them a few times (probably no more than 5 times) and often throw most of them away. I just feel so horrible. The story goes on, but its just my version of what other people go through.
Who here honestly deep down wishes they could somehow reverse it? I really wish that the things about adult diapers that do it for me, didn't. I know, love myself and just be who I am... but thats a bunch of garbage. I suck for my own reasons but I wish I didn't have this need. I don't want to think about this stuff when I think about women.
It's funny. When I was younger, the diaper websites were just starting out. DPF wasn't very old and had pretty mature people there. I must have been a little more than 12 or 13 years old. I know thats way to young, ya ya. But then it wasn't sexual. It was just this thing that seemed to feel good in my head.
As I got older I got real world results instead of just using towels. As it got better it got worse. As good as it feels, I feel equally ashamed. Its not even for others, its ashamed of myself. ugh... This post sucks. Im such a wimp for writing this.
But anyways.
Who here honestly deep down wishes they could somehow reverse it?
I do.