JustaLittleCreature

Next update time!! I dont know exactly what triggered it, but sometime over the last few days i think something kind of clicked in my head. One morning i kind of just woke up and unconciously changed myself, but something about the mentality of it felt different. Before, i was keenly aware of a mentality like "youre doing this because you like the way it feels" or "youre doing this to make it feel more normal", and i was really used to that. I dont know exactly what changed, but when i woke up today and went to change, those feelings werent really there? Sure i still enjoy it and i wont deny that by any means. But today when i did, it kind of just felt... like a way of life?(if that makes sense). Like if the habit finally formed or if some part of me really just accepted my incontinence in the small degree and just said "yup this is my life." "Im safe like this" "its better this way" and even "phew, now i wont have to worry about having an accident later". *edit* Before, everytime i put one on, i felt like id needed to justify to myself why i was doing it. When i did it this morning though, there was no justification necessary in my mind.. i just changed because i needed to *end edit* It felt really profound, which might be a little silly. Some part of me deep within is still kind of struggling with the finality of total acceptance, but im really excited to get over that hurdle. I feel so much more comfortable just "being" than i have in a long while.

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hello! i wanted to make an update. i went 24/7 for about 9 days, and it was absolutely wonderful. i dont remember exactly what went through my head, but i took a break one night and just... didnt wear for the next week. i dont know why and im very dissapointed in myself. after that week of break i started wearing again, for about 3 days that time, and then took another break. another week passed of not wearing, and i put a diaper on again today and it felt like home. i was able to relax not only my bladder but my entire body. it felt like stress that i didnt even know i had left me, and i was supremely thankful for it. i genuinely dont know why i stopped for those periods of time but i cant help but be... mad at myself actually. i feel like i took a few steps backwards and lost progress during those weeks off, and my desire to be thoroughly incontinent strengthened in a way that i wasnt expecting. i genuinely dont want to be without my diapers, but i worry about feeling like wanting breaks in the future. i dont want to take breaks... i feel like a part of the reason why i had stopped during those times was because the plastic of the diaper just started feeling really hot and uncomfortable, but i dont feel like thats enough of an excuse to get out of them. the day after i stopped wearing i wet myself and had to change pants 3 times, it felt amazing.. i want to get back to that point

after making my initial post,i was reading on a few of the forums on this board as well as just, really taking in the concepts in the 12 month plan document, i decided i was ready, and from that moment i was incontinent. i stopped trying to hold it at all, and while it still takes a concious effort to start, the moment i feel an urge i let go, which has resulted in multiple occasions over the last week where i had some very wet pants until i managed to switch out of them after this week of repeated accidents, my diapers finally arrived. i cannot begin to say the relief that i felt when i put it on. it was an odd feeling that im having a bit of a hard time putting into words, but the knowledge that i wont (hopefully) just have dripping pants now is fantastic

i full admit the difficulty of that. im doing the best i can, and i can only imagine that the longer i go the easier it will get, and im honestly super excited for it. thank you for the encouragement!

hello all, im new here, but i wanted to try and maybe... reach out for some encouragement? ive wanted to be diaper dependent for well over a decade, but bad experience after bad experience had left me with a severe distaste for them for a period of years, being disgusted at my own desires. its honestly only been in the last year that ive begun REALLY coming to terms with what i want, and that its genuinely okay to want in the first place. when i had my bottom surgery back in 2017, i was unfortunately one of the cases where the surgeon fucked up real bad, and among other lingering effects, i have always struggled with leaking a little bit when i do things like excersize rigorously, laugh too hard, or do things of the sort, so my brain is already aware that this would be a "good thing for me anyways" the setup so far is that ive tried to be 24/7 once or twice in that year, and each time felt like home, but for some reason or another that i cant remember, i kept falling off. this time though, im determined...DETERMINED, to make it happen. i have ordered my first full case of megamax's, and set it up to autosend to me, so that i dont even have to think about not using them because theyre coming anyways. i have lots of supportive friends, and a close one who is acting as my primary "coach" or biggest confidant and encourager. so i wanted to ask, if you have any tips for a newbie, what would you suggest? and any kind of positive reinforcement is really appreciated