abashedlypadded

Well I don't see how I'm supposed to trust my diaper if I can't trust my diaper for pooping. I poop at the same time every day so my plan is to wake up earlier and take care of it before work so I can shower and spend the rest of the day wetting. I still bring all my supplies that I can use for cleaning up a poopy diaper while out if need be. And I pretty much only wear printed diapers on my days off and at night. What I want to do achieve is "pre-continence," which is a regression to the infant body's rhythm of urine and feces excretion. My difficulties in doing so are outlined in the original post, and I'm hoping that strict diaper usage no matter what will help my shape my subconscious so I can learn to wet more easily, because right now it is very difficult.

After reading up on some threads, I realized that I've been neglecting the importance of the subconscious in untraining. I knew it was important of course, I do lots of hypnosis, but I think I was trying to cut some corners for convenience sake. For instance, if I can't pee then I'll go into the bathroom for some privacy to pee in my diaper. I also go poop on the potty so I don't have to deal with poopy diapers at work. But think I can't do any of that anymore. I can't use the potty for any reason. I can't care what happens in my diapers, whether I poop or leak or what, because babies aren't concerned with that happens in their diapers, they just do it. I'm hoping that can shift my subconscious so my body can follow suit. I think I'm going to focus more on this approach. I've done lots of hypnosis, and it's hard to shake the inkling of doubt in my mind hat hypnosis will work. But maybe strengthening my hypno regimen combined with my shift in behavior (no more potty for any reason) will help.

What regimen did you follow to get to that point?

ugh. that sucks. whats the suffocation method?

I guess I don't really do anything, but I relish in how good it feels

This is my first time posting here, but I have been attempting to do diaper training (aka unpotty training) for 2 and a half years now. Before that, I was wearing diapers nearly 24/7 for about 4 years. So I'm going on 7 years of wearing diapers and have had plenty of time to practice wetting in them, and yet I still find it so difficult to just relax and wet that sometimes I can't do it. It's very demoralizing, and I don't know what to do. Most of the advice I get is to just keep practicing, practice in different positions and situations, etc. but I feel like I must be doing something wrong. Maybe I don't know how exactly to practice. Sometimes it's easier than others to wet, like in the morning. When I sit down at my desk at work and feel the need to go, most of the time I can just relax let it flow. But then throughout the day it gets more difficult. By the time I do eventually wet, it will have taken so much effort and concentration just to get my muscles relaxed and the flow started, that sometimes it takes like 30 minutes from the moment I notice I need to go to the moment I actually do. And forget peeing while in the presence of others, I have never been able to do that. And most certainly not while walking. Sometimes at a red light I can let it flow, but again usually after a significant amount of effort. I have always been pee shy, so I think that probably has to do with my difficulties. I get so jealous of other ABDLs who can just pee while hanging out with people and while sitting down or cuddling etc. I know it will take practice to get to that point, but I just feel like I'm practicing "wrong," because it's been years and I'm not getting any better. I want this so bad. It's hard to explain, but it would just make sense for me to be incontinent lol. I have no reservations about it and I know it's what I've wanted for years. Can anybody relate to this? I feel like I'm the only one with this problem and I just spiral over it, it's so upsetting. BTW I'm doing the classic method of diaper training outlined in the infamous 12 month guide. I knew from the beginning that it would take me more than 12 months, but I thought that I might be making at least some progress by now.