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Part 5 “Where to go now, Annie? We have an hour left until we get the documents,” Freddie asked Ann when they left the court building. “Freddie, would you like to see the school I’d like to attend? It is a high school specialized in the IT.” “Yeah, I’m quite curious about it,” Freddie really wanted to see more of the alternative world. “Okay, this way,” Ann pointed to the left and they walked down the street. The town center was small, and all of the important buildings were located in the walking distance. Ten minutes later Ann stopped in front of the school. “Brisson 1st high school,” the label read, and Ann opened the entrance door. Freddie followed her to the entrance hall and Ann continued towards a door. “Annie, have you been here already? You seem to be familiar with the school.” “Of course. Before my final exams I was invited to a tour of the school. I have seen the classes and labs already. Now I’d like to apply for admission.” Freddie was astonished by the little girl; she really behaved like a mature person. She knocked on the door and entered an office; Freddie followed her. “Miss Berry, this is my final exams certificate. I’d like to apply for admission to the IT class,” Ann pulled out a document and put it onto the counter. “Let me see …” the woman behind the counter took the document and she nodded,” Ann, you are only ten and you have passed the final exams with flying colors. This is rare. I think you will be admitted but your application has to be approved by the school principal and you also will need the signature of your caretaker. Mister, I suppose you are her caretaker.” “Yeah, miss Berry. We are coming from the court, and I will have the assignment documents soon.” “Okay, Ann will fill in the application and you will sign it when I check your assignment documents,” the lady passed the application form to Ann, “go to the study room and fill in the form there.” “Thank you, miss Berry,” Ann took the form and turned to the door. She led Freddie to the study room. It was a large room equipped with numerous computers and there were shelves full of books on the back wall. Ann sat down and started filling in the form. She was apparently familiar with it, and she finished about ten minutes later. “Freddie, I think we could go back to the court now,” she stood up and packed the form into her backpack. “Okay, Annie, but what about your diapers? Do you need a change?” Freddie apparently got used to her diapered condition. “Not yet,” Ann reached between her legs. The diaper was slightly wet but not soaked. Nevertheless, she didn’t remember when she peed. They left the school building and headed back towards the court. The assistant was waiting for them already and passed Freddie all documents: “Ann’s birth certificate, the adoption decree, caretaker’s assignment and the voucher for the basic hygienic package,” she put the documents onto the counter along with another form, “your signature here, sir.” “Thank you, madam,” Freddie signed the form and took all documents and put them into Ann’s backpack, “Where do we get the hygienic package?” “Go to the next drugstore or pharmacy. Ann will show you the way,” the lady smiled at Ann. __________________________________________________ “Freddie, I’m a bit tired and thirsty,” Ann turned to Freddie when they left the drugstore. The last events were a little challenging for her and she hadn’t eaten or drunk since the breakfast. “No problem, my princess. Let’s find a bistro and have a cup of juice, and I’d like to have a cup of coffee as well,” Freddie nodded and looked around. There was a small bistro nearby and they took place inside. “Two cups of juice and a small espresso, please,” Freddie ordered the drinks. “A big cup please,” Ann added, and Freddie grinned at her. “Hey, do you always drink that much? Don’t you have a health issue?” Freddie got concerned. “No, Freddie, we have had regular medical checks at the Centre, and I am alright. The next appointment has been planned for the next March. “Okay then, but … you need frequent diaper changes.” “Yeah, Freddie. You have noticed it already,” Ann shrugged and grinned, “I’m just peeing.” The waiter brought them the juice and espresso and Ann drank up her cup almost instantly. Freddie sipped his coffee and drank the juice. “Let’s change you now and we can go home.” “Yeah,” Ann nodded and stood up and headed towards the changing room. There were two changing tables there and one of them was occupied. And older lady was changing a teenager girl. However, they didn’t react at all when Freddie entered the room. Ann jumped onto the free table, lifted her skirt and pulled down her tights. She noticed a large wet spot on the tights. “Freddie, I need clean tights; I’ve leaked,” she announced without any sign of embarrassment, removed her shoes, took off the wet garment and lay down on the table. “Okay, my peed-in princess,” Freddie teased her; Ann laughed, and the teenager girl laughed, too. Ann’s diaper was drenched, and Freddie had to clean her thoroughly. He took two clean diapers and put them beneath her behind and powdered her. Meanwhile the older lady and teenager girl finished and left the room. “Annie, I think you have peed more than you thought; maybe I should ask you more often or even check you.” Ann shrugged; she wasn’t used to check her own diapers. The caretakers at the Centre did it for her usually. She wasn’t aware of her urge, and she also wasn’t aware of her peeing. The warm and heavy diaper was the only sign of her wetting, but she was often distracted. Freddie finished the diaper change and pulled out the spare tights and put it on Ann’s legs. Ann jumped down from the changing table and put on her shoes. “Let’s go back to the school and finish the application,” Freddie stepped forward. The procedure was short and half an hour later they were walking towards the city park and the portal. Freddie was carrying a large backpack with Ann’s clothes and the hygienic package. ______________________________________________________________________ “Annie, you have just passed the final exams and the school starts in September. Now you have vacations,” Freddie turned to Ann while they were walking through the forest towards Freddie’s home. “Vacations? What is it?” Ann got curious. “Two months of free time though. Don’t you know it?” “Nope, Freddie. I hardly had a free week. I kept learning and now I’m proud of my knowledge.” “Isn’t it exhausting for a child like you?” “I don’t know,” Ann shrugged. She didn’t feel exhausted, but she realized that something was wrong, “Do all children here have vacations?” “Yeah; they have vacations until they finish school.” “Well, this will be my first vacation. What should I do?” “Whatever you want, princess. You can relax, play, walk around, find friends. I have to work but you are quite independent, and I don’t have to be worried about your safety.” “Can I cook for us and take care of the house?” “Why not, even if it is not a true vacation activity in my opinion. You are not a maid.” “It will be a pleasure for me. I’m thankful to have a good caretaker … or father? The judge has said it.” “Yeah, my princess; you are my daughter here in our world.” Annie suddenly realized that she had missed something; however, she didn’t know what it was. The last night and Freddie’s hugs and her kiss were a new experience and she wanted to have more of it. “Freddie, does a father hug his daughter here? Does she kiss him? “Of course, my princess. It is the usual form of showing their emotions.” “It was very pleasant, Freddie … father?” “Use the word daddy, my princess. Fathers are called daddy.” “Hug me, daddy, please,” Ann stopped and hugged Freddie. “Of course, princess,” Freddie took her in his arms, held her tightly and carried her to his house slowly.

Part 4 The sun peeked into the bedroom; the window was oriented to the east. The sunrays illuminated two sleeping figures in the large bed. Freddie opened his eyes and realized he was still hugging Ann. She was sound asleep, and he noticed the smile on her face. She looked different; the day before she was a premature teenager that was about to start her high school. However, the happy smile belonged to a little girl, younger than her actual age. The diaper package between her legs even highlighted her childish look. Freddie kept watching the sleeping girl for awhile until he pulled his arm carefully from beneath her torso. However, Ann stirred and opened her eyes. “Morning princess,” Freddie smiled at her and stroked her hair involuntarily. “Morning, Freddie,” Ann smiled back. She suddenly sat up and kissed his cheek. It was surprising both for Freddie and for herself. The caretakers at the Centre didn’t like that kind of reactions except for the smallest children. However, she remembered some hugs and kisses when she was a toddler. Now she wasn’t sure about Freddie’s reaction. Freddie didn’t expect a kiss, but he realized his own emotion while he had been hugging her earlier; he recovered quickly and hugged her and held her close. “Time to get up, princess,” he let go of her and sat up minutes later, “do you still want me as your caretaker?" “Of course, Freddie. I wouldn’t find anybody better than you.” “Well then. We should go to your world and arrange everything necessary. You would need more clothes and … diapers.” “Every caretaker obtains the basic hygienic package – 40 pieces of cloth diapers, four pairs of rubber pants and a package of baby wipes. As for clothes, I have some at the Centre but you can buy more.” “Saying about diapers, how much did you pee since I changed you?” “Wait,” Ann reached down between her legs,” Not too much.” “I should change you anyway, you have been in the wet diaper for long.” “Okay” Ann pulled down her tights and lay down. Freddie unbuttoned the rubber pants, pulled them down between her legs. When he pulled the wet diaper down, he noticed a bulge on Ann’s abdomen. Seconds later a stream of pee spurted towards him and onto his pajamas. Freddie grabbed the diaper and pulled it back up to catch the rest of her pee. “Sorry, Freddie,” tears appeared in Ann’s eyes when she realized what happened. “Don’t cry, princess,” he lifted the girl in his arms and calmed her down,” it can happen to little girls and brave knights can deal with all kinds of troubles. Let’s diaper you now and we can have a quick breakfast and set off.” Ann really calmed down and relaxed. Freddie diapered her quickly; he was getting skilled already. Ann got up, grabbed her skirt and jacket and got dressed. After the quick breakfast and a cup of tea they set off. Ann packed the dirty diapers into the plastic bag and the clean ones to the backpack. Freddie took his ID card, his wallet and put on his shoes. They left the house, Freddie locked it and headed towards the forest; he was quite sure where to look for the portal. “Freddie, you have found the portal, haven’t you?” Ann grinned. He apparently knew about its location. “Yeah, Annie. I suppose you arrived through the same portal.” “I think yes.” While they were walking through the forest, Freddie turned to Ann. “Wait. I have my wallet with me, but can I use dollars to pay in your world? Will my ID card be valid there?” “I think you can use dollars in our world, too and your ID card is similar to those I have seen.” “Okay then,” he nodded. Suddenly Ann felt her bowels growling; she stopped and bent her legs, “Freddie, wait. I’m pooping.” “Okay, Annie. Take your time,” he was a but amused by the situation, but he was curious, “does it often happen to you?” “Do you mean pooping outside? Usually not, I use to wait after a meal, but we are in a hurry today and we have too few spare diapers.” “I can’t change you here in the forest now.” “Don’t worry. We will arrive at the Children Centre soon and you can change me there.” Meanwhile Ann finished and stepped forward. Five minutes later they got to the clearing and Ann headed towards the fog without hesitation. Freddie followed her and found himself in a city park. It didn’t differ from the world he lived in. “This way,” Ann pointed to the right, and they walked slowly through the park and down a street until they stopped in front of a building. Freddie would consider it a school or something similar. “Children Centre,” the label read, and Ann opened the door and entered it. Freddie followed her to a counter. “Welcome to the Centre, sir. I supposed you are Ann’s new caretaker,” an older lady asked him. “Yeah, madam; I am about to become her … caretaker,” he hesitated, and the older lady grinned. “Wow, a young man from behind the Border. It is a bit rare. We don’t see many young men here at all and you are even from the other side.” “How do you know?” “You hesitated before saying caretaker. Did you want to say adoptive father or legal guardian?” Freddie nodded only; the lady was quite attentive. “Ann, lead your new caretaker to your room and take your clothes with you. If you need a change, show him the changing station.” Ann nodded and led Freddie upstairs and down a long corridor to a big door. He opened it and stopped dead in his tracks. The room was a large changing station, and it was well equipped. The changing tables looked like medical exam tables with leg stirrups. Ann headed towards the nearest table, removed her shoes and tights, lay down on the table and put her legs into the stirrups. Freddie followed her and stopped. “Push the table front panel inwards,” Ann advised him what to do. He pushed the front panel and a small sink appeared below it. Ann’s bottom was free to clean; her knees was sitting on the stirrups and supporting her. He unbuttoned the rubber pants and removed the messy diaper. A pail was located next to the table, and he could put the diaper there along with the wet diapers from her backpack. “Take the small shower head and clean me thoroughly,” Ann continued. The sink was equipped with a small shower head and there was a container with soap as well there. Freddie showered Ann’s diaper area and used the soap to clean her thoroughly. “The powder and clean diapers are behind you on the shelves,” Ann continued. “Hey, the changing station is really modern and well equipped,” Freddie turned to Ann when they left after the diaper change. “Yeah, it is, and it is necessary if the caretakers have to change dozens of diapers several times daily,” Ann shrugged, “However, I’m glad to be out of here Freddie. A diaper change by you on the plain floor is much better than this station and caretakers.” “Okay, princess. Let’s take your clothes and proceed. Where should we go now?” “We have to visit the judge; you will need the assignment documents.” All Ann’s clothes consisted of several skirts, shirts, jackets and tights. They were plain and without any sign of fashion design. Freddie also didn’t see any pants. “Princess, you might need some beautiful clothes. I’ll ask my girlfriend Marianne and she helps you.” “It will be nice, but I can’t wear those clothes to school. I will get a school uniform then. To be honest, I’ve never seen other kind of clothes.” Freddie and Ann packed the few clothes to a small backpack and left the Centre. Ann felt a great relief when she closed the door. “I’ll never come back, “she turned to Freddie. _______________________________________________________________________________ “Well, we have another courageous person from behind the Border,” the judge seemed to be amused by Freddie when he looked at Freddie’s ID card. The older man smiled only but he looked at Ann like a strict father. “Ann, you crossed the Border and got curious about the world behind it,” there was a reproach in his voice. It was not forbidden to cross the Border, but it was not recommended. The authorities didn’t want to accept the different culture and tried to avoid the contact as much as possible. “Sorry, your Honor,” Ann looked down and apologized herself, “it was my curiosity, but I’ve found a wonderful person.” “Really, Ann? He is a young man; can he take care of you and is he willing to do so?” “Of course, your Honor,” Freddie interjected, “she is like my princess, and I’ll do my best to take care of her and help her become a well-educated young lady.” “Okay, mister Stevens. After all, every adult can become a caretaker. Our legislation doesn’t have any limitation. Come back in an hour, go to the office next door and you will get all necessary documents.” “Your Honor, our legislation is much stricter, and the social services could interfere in our world.” “Don’t worry, mister Stevens. There will be a regular adoption decree among the documents. Ann is your daughter in your world and your cared-for in our world from now on.” “Thank you, your Honor,” Freddie took Ann at hand and led her away. As they left the judge’s office, Ann suddenly hugged Freddie and nuzzled to him. He instinctively lifted her in his arms. “You are my princess now.”

Part 3 “Hey, Freddie, are you watching the knight and the princess?” Ann grinned; Freddie was staring at the display, “would you like to be that knight?” “Don’t tell me you want to be the princess,” Freddie teased her. “Why not?” Ann repaid his teasing; she really was a smart girl and she showed signs of an adult mind, “a princess with her brave knight at a mansion.” “Do you consider my house a mansion?” “Yeah, I do,” Ann nodded; she found the house quite luxurious, and it was like a mansion after her experience at the Children Centre. “Will you live in a fairy tale then?” Freddie teased her once more. Ann didn’t answer. She felt a growling in her guts, and she knew what would follow. Her bowels were ready to push their contents into her diaper. Ann couldn’t control her poop and she even didn’t have to push. Her poop was mushy, and it would stay like that until her adulthood. She went poop usually once or twice a day after meal and she didn’t go after lunch that day. Seconds later, the muscles relaxed, and a mass of poop filled the back of her diaper. Ann bent her legs slightly and waited until her diaper filled. Her bladder also voided itself. “Hey, Annie, princess,” Freddie turned back and looked at her when she didn’t answer. He didn’t understand what was going on until he heard a fart and felt the spreading smell. “A poopy princess,” Ann laughed. She was used to use her diaper and didn’t feel any embarrassment. However, her diaper was full, and she needed a change before she would leak. Moreover, she yawned; it was late already. “Annie, you can take a bath and go to bed now. You seem to be tired,” Freddie noticed the yawn. “I think I am tired” Ann nodded. “Well, let’s go to the bathroom and I’ll prepare a warm bath for you,” Freddie took Ann at hand instinctively. Ann smiled; she was surprised but she somehow liked the treatment. Freddie led her to the bathroom and stopped. He turned the taps and set up the water temperature. While the tub was filling, he asked Ann. “Annie, it is unusual in our world to wear diapers that long. Children get potty trained before they turn four in our world. Isn’t it unpleasant to wear a wet or messy diaper?” “I didn’t think about it,” Ann shrugged, “all children wear diapers until the age of 18 at least; some of them even longer. Diapers are a part of our life.” “Didn’t you try to potty train?” “How, Freddie?” “You should feel a pressure before you pee, or poop and you should clench the muscles to stop it.” “No, Freddie, I don’t feel anything until the pee or poop is coming out.” “Okay then,” Freddie shrugged. Ann really wasn’t able to potty train if she didn’t feel any urge. “Are you able to wash yourself, Annie?” he asked Ann. “I think I am Freddie. Help me with the diapers and I’ll wash myself,” Ann took off her skirt and pulled down the tights and lay down on the floor. “Open the rubber pants carefully and check them if they are clean,” Ann explained to Freddie how to take care of dirty diapers. Freddie unbuttoned the rubber pants and removed them; fortunately, they were clean, but a strong smell spread in the room. Nevertheless, Ann didn’t seem to mind it. “Grab the diaper front and try to wipe the poop away as much as possible,” she continued, “use the baby wipes to clean my crotch and behind and pull the dirty diaper form beneath me.” Freddie removed the dirty diaper and put it into the pail. Meanwhile the tub filled, Freddie added some bath foam and helped Ann stand up. She removed her jacket and shirt and stepped into the tub. “Take the bath, Annie, and I’ll prepare a bed for you. Unfortunately, there is no pajamas in your backpack.” “Sorry, I didn’t take it with me; I didn’t intend to stay overnight. I will wear my tights and shirt,” Ann answered. Fifteen minutes later Freddie returned and carried two clean diapers and a large towel. Ann was relaxing in the tub, and she was almost asleep. Freddie smiled and lifted her from the tub and wrapped the towel around her. “Up, princess,” he took her in his arms and carried to the bed in the guest room. He laid her down on the bed, dried her thoroughly and returned to the bathroom to take the diapers, rubber pants, tights and shirt. Ann stirred and she spread her legs instinctively. Freddie lifted her legs, put the rubber pants and two diapers beneath her, powdered and diapered her. However, Ann didn’t move; she was sleepy already. “Annie, it’s time to get dressed.” “Help me please,” Ann yawned again. “Okay,” Freddie put on the tights and shirt on her and covered her. “Freddie, juice please,” Ann opened her eyes and looked at Freddie. “Okay, princess,” Freddie nodded and left for the kitchen. He brought her a cup of juice and she drank it up quickly. “More please.” “Hey, do we have enough diapers?” Freddie teased her. “Put the dirty ones into the machine. We will need them.” “Okay,” Freddie brought another cup of juice and Ann drank it up too. Seconds later, she closed her eyes. Freddie rinsed the dirty diapers and put them into the washing machine along with some clothes, took a quick shower and went to bed. He couldn’t sleep; he was too excited and worried at the same time. How would he manage to take care of a child from the parallel world? About half an hour later his eyes closed. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- “Freddie,” he was awakened by Ann’s voice and her small hand grabbing his shoulder. “What’s going on, Annie? It is the middle of the night.” He opened his eyes and looked at the watch; it was 2AM. “I’m all soaked, Freddie, can you change me please?” “Yeah; if a princess drinks too much before going to bed, she pees herself in the night,” Freddie teased Ann a little and poked her nose, but she grinned only. He also called her princess again. “Princess was thirsty, and she would be wet anyway. I often leaked during the night and caretakers had to change me once or even twice until the morning.” “Didn’t they give you more diapers?” “No, I was uncomfortable and couldn’t sleep. Now I wake up at night and check my diapers.” “Okay, lie down, Annie. I’ll bring clean diapers and baby wipes,” Freddie smiled and switched on the night lamp. He stood up and walked over to the bathroom. The washing machine had stopped already, and he could take the clean and dry diapers. Freddie took all six diapers and the baby wipes and returned to his bedroom. Ann was ready; she pulled down her tights and waited. Her diapers were soaked indeed. Freddie changed her quickly and she pulled up her tights again. “Freddie?” “Yeah, princess.” “Can I stay here in your bed?” Ann suddenly got an unknown feeling; she wanted to stay close to Freddie. At the Children Centre, children slept in large common bedrooms, but everyone had their own bed, and the caretakers didn’t like when two children wanted to sleep together in a single bed. She suddenly got curious about how it would be. “Why not? The bed is large enough. Lie down,” Freddie shrugged. Ann lay down, Freddie did the same and covered them. Ann dozed off almost instantly and Freddie’s eyes closed shortly afterwards. Freddie awoke a little later when he felt Annie’s small body nuzzling to him. He was quite surprised and suddenly felt a strong emotion. It wasn’t any sexual arousal; it was something different, just like the brave knight protecting the princess. He hugged the sleeping girl and fell asleep again. There was wide smile on Ann’s lips, but he didn’t see it in the darkness.

Part 2 Freddie was taken aback by the appearance of a little girl from a parallel world, but Ann was taken aback even more. She learned about the Border very soon. The teachers at the Children Centre described the world behind the Border as a monster realm and warned the children not to come even close to a border portal. Some portals were labeled and fenced but the Border was quite flexible, and the portal locations changed sometimes. Ann was smart and curious, and she didn’t believe the teachers. Their explanations sounded untrustworthy, and Ann decided to find a portal and peek behind it. However, the first opportunity arose after her birthday. During her stay at the Children Centre, she was guarded and didn’t have any opportunities to walk around freely. Of course, the caretakers took the children outside to get familiar with the surroundings and learn the necessary skills; Ann was quite able to move around in the town alone. Two days ago, the caretaker announced that Ann had turn 10 and she had to find a caretaker. There was no celebration; the children didn’t know celebrations at all. Instead of a celebration, after the breakfast and the diaper change, Ann was given a list with available caretakers, and she should address them and choose one. Nevertheless, the list was not exhausting, and she could address any adult in the town. The first day was unsuccessful and Ann was quite disappointed by the caretakers she was talking to. They were mostly boring, and nobody was interested in her studies; most of the caretakers were older ladies that called her a baby and Ann felt like a pet rather than a young girl wanted to study. Ann was quite smart and ready to start a high school. Children started their school at the age of four and Ann had finished her 6th grade before her birthday. Despite her age, she was the best student at the Centre, she skipped two years and passed the final exams. Now she could be admitted to a high school. The second day, Ann addressed three more caretakers in the morning and returned to the Centre to get lunch and a diaper change. After lunch, she set off and headed towards the city park. She wanted to relax a little and think of her next steps. The city park was a quiet place, and the bird chirping was the only sound there. Ann sat down on bench and watched the birds for awhile. When her look moved down, she spotted a strange fog among the trees. Ann was a sensitive girl, and she got a strange feeling. There was a kind of glow emanating from the fog and she sensed that glow. Was it a portal? If so, it would be the opportunity to peek in the other world and check if it was a monster realm just like the teachers had said; nevertheless, Ann didn’t believe it. She was overwhelmed by excitement, stood up and headed towards the mysterious fog. At that moment Ann felt her diaper getting wet. It was obvious; she never felt any urge and couldn’t control her bladder muscles. At least, she felt the flowing pee and tried to guess how much she had peed. The stream stopped and the diaper got wet and heavier. Ann hesitated if she should go back to the Centre to get a diaper change. One single wetting wasn’t a reason for a diaper change, but she was heading towards an unknown place. She had her backpack with spare diapers with her, but she would need some adult to change her after the second wetting. Who or what was behind the portal? Ann collected her courage and continued. When she entered the fog, she suddenly found herself on a clearing and a path was leading towards the surrounding forest. Ann noticed something behind the trees and startled; however, it was a doe. There were no monsters around and the world didn’t look different. She headed towards the forest and about fifteen minutes later she stopped in front of a beautiful house. Her heart was beating fast when she knocked on the door. Who lived there? A monster? To her big relief, a young man opened the door. He definitely wasn’t a monster, and he invited her in. The interior looked luxurious. Was the man wealthy? Would he agree to the caretaker idea? Ann was surprised by his words. He was speaking about a different world, but she heard the word ‘adoptive daughter’. Would she become his daughter then? Ann didn’t know her parents and she learned about parents being a woman that had given birth to her and a man that had fertilized the woman. There was no single word about parents taking care of the children in the textbooks. While talking with him, Ann peed herself again and she needed a diaper change. The man was surprised first but he changed her even if he was a bit clumsy. Ann grabbed the wet diapers and carried them to the bathroom to rinse them. As she emerged from the bathroom, she didn’t find him in the living room and dared to search the house. She found Freddie sitting at a computer and apparently working on a software project. Ann got curious instantly and walked over to him. “Freddie, what are you doing? Is it a program you are working on? Can I have a look?” “Of course, Annie. However, what do you know about programming?” “I’ve finished the elementary school and I’d like to study IT.” “What? Have you finished the elementary school at your age? Are you a genius, Annie?” “I’ve skipped two years and I started when I was four.” “Wow, I have to admire you, Annie. Okay, have a look at the program but don’t change it please.” “Of course, I’ll make my private copy,” Ann nodded. However, she realized that Freddie called her Annie. It was unusual and he was the first one who used the diminutive. It sounded strange to her, but it was quite pleasant. “Okay, I’ll make the dinner and call you when it is ready,” Freddie left the working room and Ann was alone. She made her private copy and tried to play with the program a little, but she couldn’t focus on it. The development studio was a bit difficult for her and she couldn’t stop thinking of Freddie as her caretaker. Meanwhile she peed in her diaper and didn’t realize it at all. “Annie, dinner,” she heard Freddie’s voice from the kitchen, and she headed there. The food smell was spreading across the house and Ann was taken aback. The food smelled delicious, and it was delicious. “Thank you, Freddie,” she smiled at him when she finished. “You’re welcome, Annie. If I become your caretaker, you will experience my cooking skills every day,” he smiled back. “If you don’t mind, we can try my cooking skills, too,” Ann grinned and collected the dishes to wash them. “Are you serious? Can you cook?” “Of course. It was an important part of my education, Freddie,” Ann felt pride when she replied to him. She washed the dishes quickly and returned to the working room. “Freddie, wouldn’t you mind if I attended a high school and became an IT expert later?” “Why are you asking me that obvious question? If I was your father, I wouldn’t hesitate any second and I would insist on it.” “Father?” “Of course, Annie. I hate the word caretaker. It sounds like a I was working at an orphanage.” “What is an orphanage?” “It is something like your Children Centre. Children that don’t have their own parents or their parents can’t take care of them, are placed into an orphanage.” “Not all children then?” “Of course not. Parents take care of their own children.” "Freddie, I am not your child though. What would you be here?” “It is called a legal guardian. And back to my question. Why did you ask me it?” “I’ve tried out a few caretakers yesterday and today. They are older ladies that want to have a little baby girl and felt like a pet there.” “Okay, Annie. I want to become your caretaker then. I won’t let you miss your chance and become a pet,” Freddie realized he wanted to have Ann with him. He felt like a brave knight, and it was a surprise for him. It was almost like the game he was working on and a scene with the brave knight and the princess was just displayed.

Part 1 Freddie Stevens was sitting at his computer and working on his last game project. It was a large fantasy adventure, and he was about to perform the very first playtests. The game was almost ready to play, and he planned to provide the alpha version to his friends. “It’s time to send e-mails to Tony and Marianne,” he told to himself and opened the e-mail program. Tony and Marianne were his friends and they often helped him. All of sudden, he noticed an unknown wi-fi network in the list. A wi-fi network wasn’t anything extraordinaire but Freddie lived in a small house about five miles away from the nearest village and he used his private access point with a satellite modem. There were no more access points around. Somebody could wander through the forest but there was no mobile signal there. The satellite modem was the only connection to the outer world. Freddie liked the life far from the civilization. He could work on his projects undisturbed, and his loyal companions were rabbits and does that came close to his house. The house itself was well equipped and mostly independent on the external power. The unknown wi-fi network wasn’t the only strange phenomenon. About a month ago, Freddie walked through the forest. He arrived at a small clearing and noticed a strange fog. He was taken aback; it was a sunny day. Suddenly, he spotted a doe appearing out of the fog. The next day he returned to the same clearing and noticed another doe disappearing in the fog. He was tempted to enter the fog, but he didn’t have the courage to do it. Freddie was staring at the unknown wi-fi network, and he decided to succumb to the temptation and connect. The network was public and unprotected. To his utter shock, the e-mail program disconnected instantly. Freddie didn’t panic and tried to open Google. Google worked but Freddie was not able to find any familiar places or persons. Was he looking at a different world? After browsing several sites, he felt like in a daydream or fairy-tale. A knocking on the door awakened Freddie from his dreams. Who could arrive at his place? He wasn’t aware of any visit and does didn’t knock on the door. He stood up and walked over to the door. When he opened it, he stared at the visitor in utter surprise. “Good afternoon, sir,” a small girl at about ten was standing in front of the door. She was short and slender with long dark hair arranged in a ponytail and deep brown eyes. She was wearing clothes resembling a school uniform – a white blouse, a knee length skirt and jacket with a checkered pattern, thick tights and low-heeled shoes. Freddie also noticed a rather big backpack on her back. “Hey, little girl, how did you get here? Did you get lost? Where are your parents? Are you all alone here?” “My name is Ann, and I probably passed the Border. Where am I?” “W … what? What border? My name is Freddie and the next village is Chatsson. I live in a small house and I’m alone here.” “Don’t you know about the Border? We learned about it and about another strange world behind it.” “Strange? I live here and I don’t find it strange,” Freddie shrugged, “In either case, come in. We can talk inside.” Ann nodded and walked in. Freddie showed her the way and they stopped in his small living room. “Sit down. Would you like to have something to drink or eat?” “Yeah, please. Can I have a cup of juice?” Ann put the backpack off her back and sat down. “Of course, Ann,” Freddie left for the kitchen and returned with a cup of juice, “have your drink and tell me more about yourself. Why are you walking through the forest? Can you walk all alone? Where are your parents.” “I should explain you, sir …” “Call me Freddie.” “Okay, Freddie. I am looking for a Caretaker and I don’t know my parents.” “W … what? Where do you live then? Who takes care of you?” “Freddie, I live in the Children Centre now, but I turned ten two days ago and now I should find a Caretaker. Children live in the Centers until they turn ten.” “What happens then?” “They have to find a Caretaker that will take care until their adulthood. Otherwise, they are assigned to public caretakers. To be honest, I wouldn’t like to get assigned. Some of my friends have been assigned and they complained about the treatment by the public caretakers.” Freddie kept listening and he couldn’t believe his ears. What world was the little girl talking about? However, he remembered the sites he had found shortly ago. “Okay, I need some time to cope with everything you’ve told me. You are looking for a caretaker. How did you cross the border? Do you believe to find a caretaker here?” “Why not. Would you like to become my caretaker?” “Wait, Ann. It is not that simple. We don’t know caretakers in our world. It would be an adoption and a judge had to assign you as my adoptive daughter.” “It is simple. Come with me and you become my caretaker in our world. We can return and live here if you want to.” “Okay, but I don’t have any experience with children, Ann. I’m a bachelor.” Freddie watched Ann and tried to imagine himself as a parent; he didn’t like the word Caretaker. “Don’t worry, Freddie. I won’t trouble you at all and I’ll help you with all chores. I’ve learned it at the Children Centre.” “What if somebody comes to visit? How do I explain your presence? Somebody could call the social services.” Ann kept silent. She wasn’t aware of the laws on the other side. It was simple to assign an adult as her caretaker in her world. Nevertheless, she believed that it could be solved somehow. “Would you like to try it at least? You wouldn’t be alone here though.” “I don’t know, Ann ….” “Please,” Ann made puppy eyes at Freddie. “Okay then; you convinced me even if I’m not able to imagine a life with a child. However, it is getting late now. You shouldn’t go to the forest in the darkness. Stay here and we will go to your world tomorrow. I’ll make a dinner and find some bedsheets for you. Won’t you get missing?” “I don’t think so. Children like me can look for their caretakers for several days even if I don’t remember a caretaker from behind the Border.” Ann suddenly kept silent for about a minute, and she turned to Freddie then. “Freddie, I need a diaper change. I’ve just peed myself and the diaper is soaked already.” “A diaper change? Do you need diapers? You are ten though.” “Yeah, I need diapers. Hopefully I’ll get toilet trained at 18 or later.” “Well, that’s another challenge. I’ve never changed diapers. Can’t you change them on your own?” “Sorry, Freddie, I can’t do it. We can learn it when we turn 17. However, it is not difficult, Freddie. I have everything necessary with me,” Ann pointed at the backpack. Freddie sighed quietly. The parent role itself was a challenge and changing diapers made it even harder. He opened the backpack and pulled out several cloth diapers, a package of baby wipes, a spare pair of rubber pants and spare tights. There was a plastic bag and a changing mat inside, too. “Ann, is it enough until tomorrow?” Freddie looked at the diapers. There were six large flat diapers there. “I need two diapers for every change. You will need two of them now, two after dinner and the last two during the night. Can you wash the four diapers after dinner?” “Of course, I can, and the washing machine can dry them as well.” “That’s fine, change me now please. I don’t like the wet feeling,” Ann walked over to a couch and lay down. She removed her shoes and tights and lifted her skirt. The rubber pants were exposed, and Ann spread her legs. “Unbutton the pants,” she asked Freddie. He did it and the urine reek spread across the room. The diapers between her legs were soaked. “Pull the diapers from beneath me, take the baby wipes and wipe my crotch,” Ann continued. Freddie nodded and obeyed her commands. He put two clean diapers beneath her, powdered her, pulled the diapers between her legs and buttoned the rubber pants. Five minutes later Ann was clean and dry. She put on the tights and shoes and jumped down from the couch. “The first caretaker task accomplished,” she grinned, “where is the bathroom? We have to rinse the dirty diapers and put them into a pail.” Ann headed towards the bathroom and Freddie shook his head only. What the hell did he get into?

Part 7: Anette, Margot and Astri were walking down the narrow forest path. Anette was used to the tied-up condition and skilled at walking in her long skirt. On the other hand, Margot and Astri had to be quite careful not to trip or catch on a branch. Anette was quite uncomfortable. The poop in her diaper kept smearing at every step and it started itching. She relaxed her bladder muscles and peed in the diaper, but it didn’t help at all. Even worse she had to endure the smelly diaper until the evening. Olaf had to change her; otherwise she would get another laxative treatment. Astri was quite nervous and scared. She was shocked by the men that had tied them up. She had been to the village more often, but she never experienced that kind of treatment. People sometimes called them witches, but nobody tried to touch them until now. Her nervous condition had unpleasant consequences; her bladder was filling up. Astri always wore diapers in the village, but she didn’t use them for real. Her stay was short, and she was able to hold her pee until she returned home, and Leif untied her. Now the pressure was growing by every step, and she kept clenching her bladder muscles. She instinctively pulled on the ropes but they were tight and her attempts pulled them even tighter. The small group stopped in front of the Hallvard’s booth and Anette turned to Margot: “Miss Margot, we should try to loosen the knots on out arms. Otherwise, we won’t be able to search the booth and take the books.” “I think so, Anette, but I’m afraid it will be quite a challenge,” Margot sighed and turned her back to Anette. Anette tried to reach the knots on Margot’s ropes, but she could use her left hand only and the knots were too tight. “I’m sorry, miss Margot, the men did a good ropework,” Anette sighed, “I can’t untie your knots with my left hand. Try to untie my knots. You tied me up though.” “Okay, let me try, Anette,” Margot nodded. However, her task was even harder. The men pulled the ropes tightly and her fingers were numb. She wasn’t able to grab the rope and untie the knots. “Sorry, Anette, I can’t untie you,” she sighed and turned to Astri, “Astri, you are our last chance if we want to search the house. Try to untie Anette, her ropes are not that tight.” Astri didn’t listen to her mother. She was distracted by the growing pressure in her bladder. Pressing her legs together didn’t help anymore and she did an attempt to ease the pressure by letting a few drops into the diaper. She released the muscles and the urine started flowing. Unfortunately, clenching the muscles again was impossible. A long stream of pee drenched her diaper and didn’t stop until her bladder was empty. “ASTRI,” Margot asked her again. “Sorry, mom.” “Try to untie Anette. We should search the house.” Astri nodded and turned her back to Anette. Unfortunately, her fingers were numb after her former attempts, and she couldn’t grab any knot let alone untie it. “Sorry, I can’t do anything; my fingers are numb. Let’s go home please, I need a diaper change,” she blushed. ”Hey, can’t you wait, Astri?” Anette turned to her, “my diaper is smelly and full, and I have to wait until evening unless I’ll find Olaf. He mustn’t find out that somebody else had changed me.” “Sorry, I behave like a little girl,” Astri blushed again, “nevertheless, we have to go back to the village now. Hopefully we will find an ally.” Anette headed back towards the forest path and Margot with Astri followed her. Margot also felt a growing urge to pee, and she relaxed her muscles instead of fighting the growing pressure. About one hour later they reached the village and headed towards the inn in a hope to find James. This time they were lucky. “James, could you help us please?” Anette turned to him. “Yeah, what do you need, Anette?” “Can you go with us to the Hallvard’s booth.” “Sorry, I’m busy here; my dad needs my help now.” “Okay, can you accompany us out of the village and untie our arms?” “Of course, let’s go,” he stepped forward and the women followed him. Behind the first trees James untied Astri and Margot quickly. “Untie Anette, I have to go back,” he turned away and left for the inn. Margot didn’t hesitate ad untied Anette. “Let’s go back.” “Oh,” Astri sighed when she realized the wet diaper. However, she was untied and couldn’t go to the village now. The journey back to the booth was easy and they stopped inside the booth. The books were still sitting on the table but there were no more vials there. “Let’s have a look,” Anette took the first book and walked out of the dark booth. “I hope that somebody will find this book and help the people in our country. Unfortunately, I can’t do anything; I’m weak and I’m afraid I will be killed. The crystal was damaged, but it kept its devilish power and changed the life of the country. I managed to create an elixir to remove that power. Go and find the alchemic laboratory in the abandoned temple. The recipe and all ingredients can be found there along with another recipe for an elixir that destroys the Lord Thorkant’s power forever.” Anette closed the book and walked back int the booth. She took another book but there was nothing important there. Margot and Astri took more books, but they also didn’t find anything. “We can look for the abandoned temple now. Do you have an idea where we can find it?” Anette turned to Margot. “I think I know, Anette. We have got an old map at home, and I’ll show it to you. Let’s go home now. Unfortunately, we can’t take the books with us. We must be tied up again.” “Oh no! I have to pee again; help me mom,” Astri sighed. There was no latrine around and it was hard to take off the diaper and squat down in the long skirt and put the diaper back on. “Okay, wait and lift your skirt,” Margot unbuttoned the rubber pants while Anette was holding Astri’s skirt when Astri squatted down. As Astri did her business, Margot put the diaper and rubber pants back. Margot also felt an urge, but she didn’t want to have the same problems and peed in her diaper again before leaving. They stopped in the same place where James had untied them. Margot tied Anette in the same boxtie and Astri’s wrists behind her back in a simple tie. After that she arranged a noose and tied her own wrists behind her back. “I think we should hurry up home, Anette. Come tomorrow again,” Margot stepped forward and hurried up, followed by Astri. This time, they passed the village uneventfully. Anette headed towards the inn; she was thirsty and she was looking forward to a beer even if her diaper was heavy; she hoped that the thick package will hold another pee. She sat down and realized the smelly poop in the diaper. Nevertheless, nobody commented it; smelly diapers weren’t any exception. Sigrid was sitting at the table and Anette almost asked her when she realized that Sigrid was still affected by the crystal and didn’t remember anything. James brought a beer and helped her drink it. Anette drank up the beer almost instantly. She kept talking with Sigrid and she peed in her diaper about half an hour later. The diaper was soaked already when Olaf arrived. “Good evening, girls. It’s the dinner time already, isn’t it,” he grinned at Anette.

Part 6 “How are you, Anette?” Olaf smiled at Anette when he entered her house. He hated what he had to do in the morning, but He was worried about Anette’s behavior and wanted to protect her. He wasn’t able to understand what had happened. “Thanks, Olaf,” she smiled back. Her stomach was grumbling already, “My stomach is grumbling already.” “Okay but we should change your diaper first. I’d guess you need a change.” Olaf expected a messy diaper. Anette usually pooped after her breakfast. “We? You can untie me during the lunch time, and I’ll take care of it,” Anette was surprised by his reaction, and she got worried about being tied up the entire day. “Sorry, love. I’m worried about you. Something happened to you, and I wouldn’t like you having problems with the law.” Olaf reacted even if it wasn’t the entire truth. He somehow liked taking care of Anette. Feeding her and changing her diapers was exciting and even arousing. He had felt an erection while changing her diaper earlier in the morning. “It is a bit strange; you haven’t pooped after breakfast, Anette. Are you okay?” he asked Anette when he opened the wet diaper. “I am okay, love. Why are you worried about my condition? I think this isn’t for the first time,” Anette realized her probable mistake. It was for the first time indeed. Her bowels worked regularly, and she messed her diaper at least once after her breakfast. “It is okay, but you should have a regular bowel movement anyway. Mona and Hannah often have bowel movement issues and they need help. I think that a suppository wouldn’t hurt you,” he cleaned her crotch, took a suppository and inserted it into her anus. Anette was taken aback but she couldn’t protest and reveal her secret to Olaf; he wasn’t prepared yet. Her only hope was that the suppository wouldn’t work quickly. “Well, love. Let’s have our lunch,” he helped her to the kitchen and fed her lunch. He was aroused again, and it was hard to hide it. “Hey, love; you like my condition; admit it,” Anette grinned, and her mood improved a little. However, she realized that the afternoon would be long, and she would wear a smelly diaper. Olaf finished feeding her, took the pot and left. Anette was alone. Margot had told her to come again, and Anette intended it. They could go to the Brother Hallvard’s booth and search the booth thoroughly. Anette stood up and headed towards the door. The diaper package between her legs was thick again and she had to waddle. “Welcome back, child,” Margot smiled at Anette when she entered the house. “We have just had our lunch. This is my son Leif,” she pointed at a young boy sitting next to Astri, “Leif, this is Anette, I told you about her already.” “Nice to meet you, Anette,” Leif smiled at Anette widely. He rarely had an opportunity to meet a girl and she caught his eyes instantly. He blushed when he realized his arousal. Anette smiled at him and noticed his blush; he was handsome, and the blush was cute. However, she had an important mission ahead. Leif could wait a little. “Miss Margot, we could go to the Waderior Woods now and search the Brother Hallvard’s booth. What do you think about that idea?” “I think it’s a good idea, Anette. Unfortunately, Leif can’t accompany us; he has to work in the field. There will be no one to untie us in the booth unless we manage it on our own.” “James could help us though,” Anette replied, “he knows already.” “Okay, hopefully he won’t be busy like Leif is,” Margot replied and turned to Leif, “Leif, could you prepare Astri and me, please?” “Of course, mom. Go to the bedroom,” Leif nodded and headed towards the shed. A minute later he was back, and he was carrying two pieces of rope. “Yeah, but we should go to the latrine first,” Margot didn’t head towards the bedroom; she walked over to the entrance. She returned and Astri left for the latrine as well. In the bedroom, Margot opened the cabinet and took four diapers: two for Astri and two for herself. Leif waited until she lay down, lifted her skirt, pulled down her panties and put two diapers on her and secured them by rubber pants. He usually took care of his mother and sister. and he was quite skilled. As Margot was diapered, he tied her wrists behind her back. He didn’t tie her up too tightly; she should be able to get untied. Margot left the bedroom and Astri got the same treatment. Ten minutes later, they were ready to leave. “Go first, Anette; it won’t be good if people notice you and us together,” Margot asked Anette. Anette nodded and left the house and hurried up towards the Waderior woods. She stopped behind the first trees and waited. To her utter horror, she felt her guts growling; the suppository started working. Margot and Astri left the house about ten minutes later and walked towards the village. While they were walking past the inn, two men emerged from there and they seemed to be slightly drunk. “Hey, look at the two witches. Are they tied up thoroughly?” the older man laughed and grabbed Margot. “Let us go! We are tied up though,” Astri protested but the man grabbed her shoulder and slapped her. Two more men emerged from the inn, and they joined the group. One of them untied Margot’s wrists and retied them in a tight boxtie. Astri had to face the same treatment. Even worse, the men got two scarves and gagged Margot and Astri. “Now you are properly tied up, witches,” the men laughed and left. Margot and Astri were shocked by the treatment, but they were helpless. James wasn’t to be seen. Anette was waiting behind the trees and she got worried; what could happen to Margot and Astri? They should have come already, and they should have James with them. However, she couldn’t do anything but wait and hope for help. The pressure in her guts was growing quickly and she desperately tried to press her legs together, but the thick diaper package kept them away. She clenched her muscles several times, but a surprising cramp made her sphincters fail. A semi liquid mass of poop filled the back of her diaper and Margot and Astri arrived at the same moment. “Oh, what happened to you?” Anette exclaimed when she realized they were gagged, “turn your backs to me and I try to untie the scarves.” As they turned their backs to Anette, she noticed their arms tied in a tight boxtie and realized their plan was in danger. Nevertheless, she grabbed the knots with her teeth and managed to untie them. “Thank you, Anette but what will we do now? We haven’t found James and a group of drunkasses retied us.” “Let’s do our best, miss Margot. We are three and will help each other somehow. Let’s go. I’ll show you the booth,” Anette turned away and set off. “Okay then,” Margot nodded and stepped forward. Astri followed her even if she was quite uncomfortable. She was still shocked, and the ropes were really tight. However, she realized she was a noble and she should behave like that and not complain.

To be honest, I've been liking them since I played The Longest Journey. It was developed by a Scandinavian team and I liked the dark atmosphere. I'm not a Norwegian I developed a game named The Dragon ritual and the background of this story is based on that game. Another game is planned; it will ber the sequel of the Dragon Ritual and it will be based on this story. Tell me if you are interested in playing it (I mean the old Dragon Ritual).

Part 5 Anette headed towards the inn in a hope to find James. The inn was deserted, and James was tidying up. “Morning James, how are you doing?” “Morning, Anette. I’m good but busy. Do you need anything?” “I’ve just been at the rectory and our priest translated the mysterious words. However; it is still a big mystery.” “Well, what do the words mean?” “Crystal power removal.” “It is a mystery indeed. What crystal? Maybe we will find some, but I can’t help you now. Wait until afternoon.” “Oh, it’s a long time. I can’t wait to find something useful.” “I have an idea, Anette. Do you know about the small house behind the creek? I was always curious about the people living there, but my father didn’t allow me even to get close to the house. It is cursed allegedly.” “A good idea, James. I’ll go there. I don’t think that monsters live there. At worst, they kick me out. Thanks.” Anette headed towards the house James mentioned. She knew about that house. A mother with two children lived there and they rarely showed up in the village. According to the rumors, the mother was a witch and she possessed magic powers. Although Anette didn’t believe in magic, she was confused by the elixir and mysterious words. Now she was ready for another surprise. “Good morning,” she greeted the older woman when she entered the small garden; the woman was working in the garden and the children were nowhere to be seen. “Morning, miss. You are the very first person that dared to come to our house. Aren’t you afraid of witchcraft?” “No, madam. I’m not. To be honest I don’t believe in rumors and I‘ve had a strange experience.” “Well, I’m all ears, miss.” “I’ve found a vial and drank the contents. Now I’m confused about our village. For an unknown reason I can control my bladder and I remember my past when women were not tied up and they didn’t need diapers. However, something happened but I don’t know what it was.” “Do you still have the vial? Was there any label on it?” “Yeah, madam. The label read about a crystal; it was written in an ancient language, but our priest translated it for me.” The older woman suddenly stopped and stared at Anette as if she was a ghost. “W … what? You have found the elixir! Come child and make yourself comfortable,” she gestured at the house and Anette followed her. “Astri; we have an important visitor,” the woman turned to the young girl working in the kitchen, “she has found the elixir.” “Oh, it’s a miracle, miss. Let me introduce myself,” the girl looked at Anette, “My name is Astri and this is my mother Margot. Mom, untie her.” “My name is Anette, but I can’t be untied outside my house.” “Don’t worry, child”, the mother smiled, “this is a safe place. Nobody will come here, and we won’t tell anyone”, she untied Anette and gestured at the table, “sit down; we have a lot of talking about. Would you like to have some tea?” “Yes, please,” Anette sat down but she suddenly felt the pressure in her guts, “Can I go to the latrine now?” she realized she didn’t need any assistance. “Of course, child; it is on your left when you exit the house.” Anette nodded and headed towards the latrine. She removed her wet diaper and sat down and relieved herself. It was a great feeling after using diapers for a long time. However, putting the diaper back on was a real issue while standing and in the long skirt. She took the diaper in her hand and returned to the house blushing deeply. “Please …”, she opened her mouth, but Margot interrupted her, “no problem, child. Let me help you,” she ushered Anette into the bedroom and pointed at the bed. “Oh, child, this diaper is soaked. I’ll find a clean one. We don’t use diapers regularly but Astri and me have to wear them if we go to the village and our hands are tied up.” “How so? Can you control your bladders and bowels, too?” “Yeah, Anette and we have even more secrets. Let’s talk about them now. By the way, you can stay without diapers until you leave.” “You are right, miss Margot,” Anette realized that she didn’t need diapers. Margot cleaned her crotch and Anette stood up and returned to the kitchen. Three cups of tea were sitting on the table already and Margot sat down next to her. Astri also sat down but she kept watching the food on the stove. “Anette, let me fill in your memories. However, tell me, what else you remember.” “Miss Margot, there is not much that I remember; the life was better than it is now. I remember the Murledge Manor and our former lord Jonny Lone. There were some rumors about him and his eternal youth, but I don’t know anything more about it; I also don’t believe in rumors just like I told you earlier.” “Anette, you are wrong this time; let me introduce myself once more. I am the wife of Jonny Lone and this is my daughter Emilia.” “What? How can you be still alive, your Highness?” “Anette, leave out the Highness. I am Margot now. Let me explain what happened. My husband really found a way to the eternal life, but the prize was high. Seven innocent girls were sacrificed every seven years. Jonny, me and our children got younger by seven years, and the manor and its equipment also got renewed.” “Oh, it was terrible. What happened to the seven girls?” “They died and passed their life energy to us.” “How could you accept it, miss Margot. Didn’t you feel sorry for the poor victims?” “Anette, I’ve regretted it thousand times already. I was blinded by the image of eternal life and our children didn’t know about the terrible ritual.” “What happened? You don’t live in the manor anymore though. Where is your husband?” “Thanks to a courageous girl, the ritual was stopped. Sigrid damaged the crystal that enabled the life energy transfer.” “THAT Sigrid?” “Yeah, child. She is a courageous woman. Unfortunately, the crystal was more powerful than everyone expected. It exploded and the dust spread across the entire country. Our family died but our souls found other bodies to live in. To be honest, this is my third body already.” “Oh, I see,” Anette nodded when she heard about the crystal. She recalled the words ‘Crystal power’. “What is the crystal power, miss Margot?” “It’s caused all the changes in our life. All women are incontinent, and the men believe that the women have to be tied up. Now you drank the elixir and changed back.” “By the way, where is the soul of your husband?” “Oh, he lives in the body or our new lord, and he calls himself Lord Thorkant. Our ruler Kristian is his obedient servant.” “Oh, miss Margot, stop please. I need time to accept everything you told me. I’ll come again later, and we can continue.” “I understand you, child. It has to be a shock for you. Now we have to rearrange everything. Nobody should learn what happened here. Come with me.” Anette followed Margot to the bedroom. Her diapers were sitting in the floor. She felt an urge to pee and wanted to go to the latrine, but Margot stopped her. “You should use your wet diaper. Nobody can find out that you were free and used the latrine. It isn’t a good idea to put a clean one on you.” The diaper was cold and unpleasant, but Anette realized that Margot was right. Margot diapered her and tied her arms in the same boxtie. “Thank you for everything,” Anette smiled at Margot and Astri. “You are welcome and come again. We can think of how to help others. Maybe we can find or even make more of the elixir.” Anette nodded and headed home; it was almost lunch time. Meanwhile the pressure in her bladder grew and she peed in the diaper; it got warm again.

Part 4 “Morning, Anette,” Olaf smiled when he opened the door, “how did you sleep? What about the elixir? Are you okay?” he put the bowl with food onto the table. “Olaf, it definitely isn’t a poison, but I suddenly recalled my old memories. Can you imagine that the women wouldn’t be tied up?” “No, Anette. This is the rule that’s been existing for ages. Do you remember something else?” “Olaf, my memories are different indeed.” “Well, let’s get ready for the day,” Olaf walked over to the bed and started untying the knots. However, he was surprised; the knots got tightened while Anette was pulling on them earlier in the night. “Hey, what were you doing in the night? Did you try to get free?” his fingers kept working on the knots, “the knots are a real challenge, Anette. I don’t understand you, but I have to be careful with you. You could break the rules and I can’t tolerate it. I’d be responsible if you got free. Consider it a warning.” Anette realized she had made a big mistake by pulling on the ropes and revealing her memories. “Olaf, I didn’t …” “Don’t lie, Anette! Why were you pulling on the ropes then?” Olaf sighed, “I have to take additional security measures.” he uncovered her and lifted her nightshirt, “now I’ll change your diaper, help you get dressed and feed you breakfast.” Without untying her legs, he unbuttoned the rubber pants. Anette tried to lift her behind, but she couldn’t do it. Olaf was strong and he could lift her easily, remove the wet diaper, clean her crotch and put three diapers beneath her. The package was quite thick and Anette almost protested but she was afraid of his reaction. “Let’s get dressed now,” he brought a dress and pulled the nightshirt from beneath her, “now I’ll untie your wrists and help you change your clothes.” Angie almost opened her mouth to protest but she kept silent. Olaf untied her wrists from the bedposts, helped her sit up and she could pull the nightshirt over her head and put on the dress. “Put your arms behind your back!” he took two pieces of rope and tied her arms in a tight boxtie and finally untied her ankles from the lower bedposts. “Sit up and I’ll put on your shoes,” he helped her sit up; it was difficult for her. “Sorry, Anette, but I have to be sure you won’t break the rules,” Olaf’s voice sounded apologizing when he finished feeding her and left. Anette sighed; she was alone and tied up tightly. The position of her arms prevented her from doing anything. She had to think of her next step. The first task was the mysterious label on the vial and some books about history. However, she couldn’t turn the pages and needed help at it. Maybe the priest could help her; he was friendly and willing to help anyone. The vial was still sitting on the table, but Anette couldn’t grab it; she tried to memorize the strange words. “Crustalix canto revoxo .“ After reading it over and over she walked out of the house and headed towards the church. The thick diaper package made her waddle. There were few people outside; most of the residents were working in the fields or forests. Anette entered the church, but it was empty, and she walked over to the rectory. “Good morning, child,” the priest smiled at Anette. He was a bit surprised when she arrived at his office; Anette wasn’t too religious, and she usually attended the worship once a week. “Father, can you help me?” “Of course, child. What do you need?” “I’ve read a strange script. It read “Crustylis canto reduxo .“ Anette didn’t remember the words exactly. “This is wrong, child. It should be “Crustalix canto revoxo .“” “Yeah, father. I didn’t remember it correctly. What does it mean?” “Crystal power revoke. It is an ancient language. But … I don’t understand where you found these words. It sounds like a tag or label.” “Yeah, father; it is a label on a vial,” Anette didn’t want to reveal that she had drunk the elixir. “This sounds reasonably. It could be an elixir that revokes a crystal power. However, I don’t know about a magic crystal, child.” “If you don’t know, we could try to find some books about it.” “Why not? To be honest, you made me curious, child,” he nodded and stood up, “I’ll show you our library.” Anette followed him and she stopped in front of a large bookshelf. There were dozens of books there and she realized she would need weeks to read all of them. “Oh, there are too many of them, father,” she exclaimed, “how do we find something useful?” “Yeah, there are many books here but most of them are not related to a crystal or an ancient language. Most of them are novels, schoolbooks or religious books. Our library serves to all residents in Vennesvik. We can limit our search to the language and history probably. However, there are still many books about it here. This is really a problem, child. Do you know anything else besides the words?” “Yeah, I do. Can we look for Brother Hallvard?” “Brother Hallvard? How do you know about him?” “Old women were talking about him.” “Well, and why do you think that there is a connection between him and a crystal and these words?” “No idea, father, but the women were talking about Brother Hallvard like he was a mysterious person. The crystal power and the ancient language also looks like a mystery. Maybe it is an attempt worth.” “Okay then; let’s have a look at the history books and the records about our orders; maybe I’ll find something about Brother Hallvard,” he moved to the upper left shelf and took the first book from it. Anette kept watching him and she got frustrated. She wasn’t able to do anything but wait until the priest found some useful information. Even worse, she suddenly felt an urge to pee. The thick package kept her legs slightly apart and she felt that her bladder muscles were weak. She tried to clench the muscles and suddenly felt embarrassed; it was different than the incontinency. She couldn’t ask the priest for assistance, and she couldn’t use her arms and remove the diaper. Fortunately, the priest was focused on the books and didn’t notice her blush when she peed in her diaper. However he browsed several books and shook his head. “Sorry, child, I can’t help you. There is nothing about the crystal and nothing about the Brother Hallvard in these books.” “Father, you knew him, didn’t you?” “Yeah, he visited me long ago, but I don’t remember anything particular about him. He was an old pilgrim and lived in a wooden booth in the Waderior Woods. However, I haven’t seen him for some time as if he disappeared without track.” “The old women also said about his disappearance. What happened?” “No idea, child,” the priest shrugged only. Anette suddenly realized that something was wrong with him. He was either affected by the curse or had to keep secret. In either case he wouldn’t help her. “Thank you, father; you helped me,” Anette turned away and left. Despite the fact he hadn’t told her more, he translated the words at least. It definitely was a track. Anette decided to find James and ask him to go to Hallvard’s booth again. Maybe the books would reveal some secret.

Part 3 “Hello, Anette, how are you?” Olaf smiled when he arrived at the inn and sat down and ordered his beer. “I’m that excited, Olaf,” Anette wasn’t able to hide her excitement; she had to tell Olaf, “I’ve found some mysterious vial and drank it.” “What? Aren’t you afraid of a poison? Are you crazy” Olaf shook his head. “No, Olaf. I’m still here and don’t feel anything,” Anette smiled, “except my wet diaper. James brought me a beer and I peed myself shortly ago,” she didn’t mind to talk about her diapers. After all, they was an inseparable part of her life. “Okay. Do you need a change soon or can I start my round elsewhere?” Olaf looked at her. Anette hesitated but she didn’t need an urgent change. If Olaf finished his round with her, they could have some more pleasure. However, they had their pleasure earlier that day and Anette didn’t want to abuse his good will. “Olaf, do your round as planned; you don’t need to change it,” Anette shook her head and Olaf nodded, finished his beer and left. “Hey, Anette, what is this? Is it the vial you have found,” Olaf asked Anette when he arrived at her house and untied her. “Yeah, Olaf, it is the vial,” Anette replied from the bathroom while cleaning herself and changing her diaper. “Crustalix canto revoxo. This is a foreign language,” Olaf read the label and shook his head, “however, it doesn’t sound as a poison. Where did you find it?” “In an old wooden cabin in the forest,” Anette emerged from the bathroom and sat down to eat her dinner. “To be honest, I am really curious about it. It does sound like a fairy tale – a mysterious vial in an old, abandoned cabin in the forest,” Olaf grinned. “Okay, time to go to bed, Anette,” he asked her when she finished her dinner, “I have to take care of the two old hags before I go to my bed.” “Okay, Olaf,” Anette took off her dress and put on her nightshirt. Olaf tied her to the bed in the spread-eagled position like usual. “Good night,” he greeted her and left. Anette tried to relax and fall asleep, but she was too excited. However, she dozed off about half an hour later; there was silence and darkness all around. In the middle of the night Anette opened her eyes. Suddenly, she realized that something serious happened. She was awakened by the strong pressure in her bladder. Her diaper was still dry, but she felt a strong urge to pee. To her utter surprise, the bladder muscles didn’t relax, and she was able to clench them. However, that was not the last surprise. She felt like a door in her mind opened and she could remember the past. An image of Vennesvik in the past appeared deep in her mind. The life was quite different. Her father was alive and she could walk around without the ropes on her wrists. She also didn’t need diapers and went to the latrine whenever she needed to. Unfortunately, she wasn’t able to recall any events that would link the past to the present time. Something happened but she wasn’t able to remember it. A connecting link of the chain of events was missing as if it had been removed from her memories. Despite the missing information Anette suddenly knew that something was terribly wrong. Why the hell she had to be tied up? She imagined all women in Vennesvik and realized that no one had protested. What happened to them? Were they cursed or enchanted? Probably yes; Anette also hadn’t protested at all until this moment. Until … The vial! It changed her attitude and revealed her old memories; whatever caused her former condition, it was over now. She drank only half of the vial and James drank up the second half; she had to ask him as soon as possible. She also needed to decipher the label. “Crustalix canto revoxo .“ What did the words mean? Maybe the priest could help her, but she wasn’t sure if she should show the vial to him. The full bladder reminded her of the ropes again. She desperately wanted to stand up and go to the latrine behind the house, but her limbs were fixed to the bed. Pulling on the ropes was useless and she felt the ropes tightening. Her legs were kept wide apart, and she couldn’t press them together. As the pressure grew, her muscles failed, and a spurt of pee escaped her bladder. Anette desperately tried to clench the muscles, but they refused to obey her commands and a long stream of pee soaked the diaper. Anette sighed only. She was helpless and couldn’t do anything but wait. She realized that the wet diaper was the smallest issue. She was afraid about the Vennesvik people. How would they react if she told them about her memories? What about James? Would he change his memories? Anette was afraid of it; he was too small and hardly could remember the past. In either case, she was curious. Nevertheless, she was still tired, and her eyes closed again. “Morning, Anette,” James’s voice awakened her. She opened her eyes and smiled at the boy. “Morning James, what are you doing here that early in the morning?” she didn’t want to reveal anything and waited for his reaction. “Anette, I’m confused. Why are you tied up? It is a nonsense though. Why are all other women tied up. I can’t understand it.” “James, why are you asking me?” Anette wanted to know more. What happened to James? “I don’t know, Anette, but I know it is wrong. Why don’t they protest?” “James, we have drunk the elixir in the vial and something serious happened. Unfortunately, I don’t know exactly what happened. In either case, I think that we are the only ones that know it. Let’s keep it a secret for now and we will look for answers.” “Where? Do we go to the abandoned booth in the Waderior Woods?” “Exactly, James. However, can I ask you for a favor?” “Of course, Anette.” “Can you untie me from the bed? I have to pee.” “W … what? Do you feel the urge?” “Yeah, James. I can control my bladder even if I don’t know why. Maybe the elixir did the change.” “Wait, Anette,” James walked over to the upper bedposts and tried to untie the ropes. However, the knots were quite tight; Anette had tightened them earlier, “sorry, Anette, my fingers are too weak.” “Okay then; I’ll pee in the diaper then,” Anette sighed and relaxed her muscles. The diaper got heavy, wet, and warm. “Anette, you should be careful. If you have less dirty diapers, people can be suspicious,” James realized an issue. “Right, James, you are a clever boy. Anyway, I can’t be untied inside the village. Maybe you will help me sometimes.” “You can count on me, Anette,” James smiled and patted her head, “wait for Olaf now, and I have to return home and help my father,” he left. Anette was alone and thinking of Olaf. What could she reveal to him? He was still enchanted. A careless question wouldn’t help her. The wet diaper kept reminding her of the fact she would wear dirty diapers even if she would control her bladder and bowels; it would be the necessary evil to keep her secret.

Part 2 Anette opened her eyes when the sun was peeking in her room. Olaf hadn’t arrived yet and she had to wait. Her diaper was soaked, and her stomach was empty. However, her mood improved when she imagined the upcoming day; it was her reserved morning, and she was the last one in Olaf’s round. Olaf would stay with her until lunch. “Morning, Anette. How did you sleep? We have the entire morning ahead,” Olaf’s voice sounded cheerful just like every day. He put the bag with food onto the table and walked over to her bed. “How do we start this nice morning?” his hand moved to her right leg and stroked it gently from her ankle up to the rubber pants, “Do we remove this wet garment?” Anette nodded and moaned as he lifted her nightshirt, unbuttoned the rubber pants, pulled the wet diapers from beneath her and wiped her crotch. She couldn’t wait his next step when he undressed quickly and knelt above her. He was nice and gentle, and Anette somehow liked that treatment. She kept pulling on the ropes while his penis entered her body. “Hey, love, we have a lot of work ahead,” he grinned after they had climaxed and caught their breath. He untied Anette and she hurried up to the bathroom to clean herself and put on a clean diaper. As she dressed herself and ate her breakfast, she started washing her dirty diapers. She took the big and heavy pail and carried it to the creek behind the house. Olaf stayed with her, and he even helped her carry the pail. About an hour after the breakfast Anette felt the pressure in her bowels while she was washing her diapers. She instinctively pushed and the back of her diaper was filled with her poop. She basically could control the pushing, but she never thought of it. She also didn’t think of an immediate change and continued washing. Olaf noticed what had happened, but he didn’t react; it happened to all his clients. “Anette, should I change your diaper? It will be simpler for you,” Olaf asked Anette when she finished washing and the diapers were hanging on the clothesline. “Okay, Olaf,” Anette nodded and headed towards the house. She was able to change the messy diaper on her own, but Olaf could do it quicker and Anette was looking forward to his touches during the change. Anette lay down on the bed, Olaf lifted her skirt, unbuttoned the rubber pants and removed the dirty diaper. He used a wet rag to clean her crotch thoroughly and Anette closed her eyes and moaned quietly. When Olaf finished the change, he helped Anette stand up and tied her wrists behind her back. “Let’s go to the inn to fetch your lunch,” he stepped forward and headed towards the inn; Anette followed him. “Should I feed you?” he smiled at Anette and Anette nodded; she liked his care and didn’t mind to be fed in public. They sat down in the patio and Olaf fed her gently. “Do you need another diaper change?” he asked Anette and she shook her head. The thick diaper package was still dry. “Thanks, Olaf,” she smiled at him, stood up and left. Now she had the entire afternoon ahead and her friends were busy. She was all alone and had to decide where to go. Anette liked to roam through the forests around Vennesvik; she liked the leaves rustle, and birds’ singing and she was never afraid of wild animals. When she left the inn, she headed towards the Waderior Woods. She was wandering aimlessly through the forest when she spotted a small wooden booth; she had never seen it before. Her curiosity drove her to the booth. The door was open, and Anette stepped inside the single room. It was apparently abandoned, and everything was covered by dust. There was a table, two chairs and a cabinet there. Several books were sitting on the table but Anette couldn’t open and read them with her tied up hands. All of sudden, a small vial between two books caught her eyes; Anette turned her back to the table and grabbed the vial and wiped away the dust; she wanted to read the label. However, there was dark inside the booth. She walked out of the booth and carried the vial in her tied hands. Back in the patio, Anette put the vial onto the table, turned back and read the label. “Crustalix canto revoxo.” “What did you find, Anette?” James’s voice sounded behind her back. He stared at the vial and shook his head. “I’ve found this vial in the old abandoned wooden booth in Waderior Woods,” Anette explained to James what had happened. “Which booth? I’ve never seen any booth. Anyway, you should ask Mona or Hannah.” “Oh no!” Anette was disgusted by the image of talking with the old yentas and smelling their peed in dresses. However, they knew about all local rumors. However, she didn’t want to show the vial to them. “James, I’ll carry this vial home first.” “Anette, I’ll do it for you,” James offered her the favor, grabbed the vial and headed towards Anette’s home. Anette sighed and walked over to the old women; they were sitting at the table and the innkeeper was holding two glasses at their lips. “Miss Mona, could you tell me about an old wooden booth in the Waderior Woods?” Anette turned to Mona. “Yeah, child. It is the abode of the old Brother Hallvard.” “Who is it? What happened to him?” “Brother Hallvard was an old monk. He disappeared about three years ago.” “Disappeared? How can a man disappear?” “No idea, child. He plainly disappeared without track. According to the rumors, he was a bit unwelcome for our ruler.” “Is it possible that he knew about some mystery?” Anette remembered the books. “I’d guess that he knew, and the knowledge cost him life.” “Thank you, Mona,” Anette turned back and hurried up to escape the urine smell. Mona’s skirt was wet again. How many beers had she drunk already? Anette need time to settle her thoughts and she headed home slowly. “What has Mona said?” James was waiting for her. “An old monk lived in the booth, and he probably knew some kind of mystery.” “Wow, that’s great. What will we do with the vial?” “Do you have the courage to drink it?” “If you drink it as well.” “Okay, open it and hold it at my lips,” Anette asked James. James opened the vial, drank about a half of the contents and held the vial to Anette’s lips. She drank up the rest. “Do you feel anything, James?” “Nope, Anette. What about you?” “Nothing, James.” “Well, let’s go back to the inn. I could have a beer before dinner,” Anette grinned. Her diaper was slightly wet, and she could drink a glass of beer. “Well, Anette,” he walked out of the house and Anette followed him. He brought her a glass of beer and she drank it slowly. James left; he had to help his father. Anette was sitting and waiting for Olaf. She was thinking of the vial and if she should tell Olaf about it. ‘I will wait if something happens and I’ll tell Olaf then,’ she told to herself.

Part 1 It was a hot late afternoon in August 1875 when a small group of girls was sitting in the patio of the Vennesvik inn. However, a random observer would notice that their arms were tied behind their backs. The group was no exception. All women around had their arms tied up as well. According to the Restriction Law in the Estreamund Kingdom, all females over 16 had to have their arms tied except for at home. Their husbands, fathers or brothers had to take care of their needs but they also had the authority to keep their wives, daughters or sisters tied up even more than necessary by the Law. In case of missing a family-related male caretaker, a public male caretaker was assigned. Almost all females were plagued by incontinence and they had to wear diapers. Of course, there were no disposables diapers available at those times, and dozens of washed diapers were hanging behind every house. The women and girls had to wash their diapers two or three times in a week. Surprisingly, there was no sign of rebellion from either side. The males accepted their role even if it was quite uncomfortable, and the females didn’t try to protest or try to escape. There was something like a dark mystery and curse hanging over the country as if the mind of every human was affected by a magic power. “How are you doing today, Anette?” a blonde girl turned to her neighbor, “It’s fine I’ve finished my chores and my father allowed me go here and drink a beer.” “You’re lucky, Sigrid; you have your father. My father passed away long ago and Olaf has been taking care of me since then.” “I know, Anette; Olaf is a good caretaker; I haven’t heard any complaints.” “Of course, he is but he has to take care of five girls including me and I have to stay tied up whenever he isn’t around. That’s quite frustrating. I can’t do anything on my own and I have to wear a thick diaper package. Today he stopped at my house at lunch and I could eat and change my diapers. Since then, I’ve been browsing the village and trying to waste time. He will come in the evening to do his round, and he will tie me to the bed then.” Sigrid nodded only. She knew about Anette and several more girls and women that were assigned a public caretaker. Olaf was really a good man, but he was a bit overloaded. Each of his clients had one morning and one afternoon reserved during workdays and about two days of weekend every month. Most of the reserved time they washed their diapers and tidied up. Nevertheless, Olaf’s life was even harder; he had only two days off in a month. James walked over to the girls and he held the glassof beer at their lips so they could drink. James was a nice young boy; he was the innkeeper’s son and he often helped his father. “Thank you, James,” Sigrid smiled at him. “You’re welcome, Sigrid,” he replied and moved to Anette. Anette drank up her cup and almost asked James for another one when she felt a stream of pee soaking her diaper package. The package was quite heavy and uncomfortable, and she couldn’t dare to pee once more until the next change. “Good afternoon, ladies; hopefully I don’t disturb” Olaf’s voice sounded cheerful and the middle aged man sat down next to the group. “Not at least, Olaf. Is your shift over already?” Anette turned to him. “Yeah, Anette, it is getting late. Maybe I should start my evening round soon. Would you like to be the first one?” “Why not, Olaf?” Anette’s heart jumped; she would get rid of the damn wet diaper. “Well, I’ll drink a beer and we can go then,” Olaf nodded, “James, bring me a glass of beer and the dinners for my girls.” The women cared for by public caretakers couldn’t work and the municipality took care of all their needs. The innkeeper prepared food and his expenses were refunded. Unfortunately, that was a reason for bad relationships. The poor women were considered parasites despite the fact they couldn’t work. Five minutes later James appeared with the beer and a big bag, Olaf paid for the beer and lifted the glass to his lips. He really was thirsty. Anette watched him only. “Let’s go, Anette,” Olaf stood up and stepped forward. Anette also stood up and waddled behind him. The wet package between her legs was heavy and Anette was worried about a leakage. “Hurry up? Anette,” Olaf closed the door and Anette hurried up to the small bathroom to remove the diaper package, wash herself and put on a new diaper and change into her nightshirt. She ate her dinner quickly and washed dishes. “Up to the bed,” Olaf took several pieces of rope and followed Anette. She lay down obediently and stretched her arms behind her head. Olaf tied her wrists to the upper bedposts. “Spread your legs,” Olaf took another piece of rope and tied it around her left ankle, “Sorry but I have to be sure you won’t try to get free, Anette.” “Don’t worry, Olaf. Why should I try to do it?” Anette smiled at Olaf. He was a handsome man, and he sometimes couldn’t resist the temptation when he took care of women. He was single; no woman wanted to marry a public caretaker for a good reason. Anette liked him and they had an intimate relationship. “Okay then,” Olaf tied her ankle to the lower bedpost and moved to her right side to repeat the procedure with her right ankle. Anette moaned quietly when she felt his hands on her bare legs. “Good night and think of me.” He covered her, leaned down, kissed her lips, put out the light and left. Anette couldn’t fall asleep; it was too early. She was thinking of Olaf, and she felt a slight arousal. Her life was almost miserable, and the time spent with Olaf was a pleasant one. Of course, she had several friends in the village, but they met rarely. Sigrid and Kristi were quite busy with helping their families. Mona and Hannah were two widows, and they were also cared for by Olaf; nevertheless they were quite boring and Anette wouldn’t like to meet them because of the urine smell. The old women liked beer and their diapers leaked almost every day. The thoughts of Olaf caused an itching feeling down between her legs, and she started pulling on the ropes in a vain effort to scratch that itch. Unfortunately, the inability to scratch the itch made it even more intense. She started moaning and pulling on the ropes but the response was unexpected; a stream of pee soaked her diaper. She sighed only, and the arousal disappeared. Suddenly the door opened, and a small figure sneaked in. “Hello, Anette,” James’s vice sounded cheerful. “Hi, James, nice to see you. Have you finished today?” “Not exactly but I wanted to see you. You are that lonely and you might need a friend.” “Oh, it is really nice from you, James. Right, I am quite lonely, and Olaf had to leave to take care of other his clients.” “Would you like to have one more beer to sleep better?” “Oh no,” Anette realized the wet package between her legs and blushed a little, “I would leak until morning.” “Unless,” James grinned mischievously, “unless somebody changed your diaper.” “Hey, what would you like to say?” “Don’t worry. I think Olaf has changed your diaper already. I know how to do it; I’ve changed my mother and sister already.” “Okay then. I might use it,” she smiled at the small boy. Was he really that nice? “Wait a little,” James set off and he returned fifteen minutes later with a glass of beer. “Drink,” he held the glass at Anette’s lips and let her drink. Anette was quite thirsty and drank it up quickly. The reaction was almost immediate, and another stream of pee escaped her bladder. “James …”, she grinned, and James nodded. He brought two cleans diapers and lifted Anette’s nightshirt, unbuttoned the rubber pants and removed the wet diapers. “You are all wet indeed,” he pulled the wet diapers form beneath Anette and put on two clean ones. “Well, it will hold until morning,” he covered her, took the wet diapers, put them into the pail and left, “good night.” Anette closed her eyes and fell asleep quickly. She was glad to have a new friend even if it was a small boy.

Did you see the 1899 series? That matrix-like topic was my inspiration even if it ended in a mild way. After all, Emily died in the happiest moment of her life - the last sentence reads: "The day had been the best one in my life. If I could choose the moment to die, this one would be my choice." I have some real experience with disabled people so I wanted to express it. They need to be accepted by the majority instead of being separated and regretted (if possible). Remember my story Timetron.

Part 10 I needed a minute or two to catch my breath; the breathing controller did its best to prevent me from passing out. Thomas lifted himself and stood up next to my bed. “Thanks, Thomas; it’s been great,” I smiled at him but a familiar smell hit my nostrils and I blushed deeply. During the climax my muscles convulsed and I pooped on the diaper. All my pleasure went away instantly and tears appeared in my eyes. How would he react? “Hey, what happened?” Thomas leaned down and kissed me, “my little girl needs another cleaning.” “W … what? Aren’t you disgusted?” I stared at him. “Why, love? I had to change Angie’s dirty diaper many times and a poop can’t disturb our pleasure. Anyway, I should clean you again now.” He took another wipe and rubbed my crotch first. There were my love juices there. Afterwards, he lifted my legs and cleaned my messy behind and pulled the messy diaper from beneath me. He was strong and skilled. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the cleaning. “Hey, I’ll call you the next time I’ll mess my diaper,” I joked and he laughed. I got aroused again when he was putting the rash cream on my crotch. After diapering me, he started dressing me again. I felt his fingers on my legs while he was pulling the pantyhose up my legs. My bra was a bit challenge, but he managed it as well. “Okay, love, let’s go back to the table now; there is some wine left,” he put the dress on me, lifted me from the bed and carried me back to the living room. I was sitting on his lap again and he poured two cups of wine. About an hour later, Michelle and Angie came back from the movie and dinner. Angie was smiling happily. “It’s been a great evening; bro. Michelle is a super companion, and the dinner was delicious,” she turned to Michelle and took her at hand. “Thanks, Angie. I’d say you needed this kind of relaxation,” Michelle grinned, “Thomas, Angie needs some clean clothes now. Don’t worry, I’ll take care of her. Stay with Emily,” Michelle wheeled Angie to the guest room. “Okay, love, we have a bit more private time now. Michelle takes care of Angie,” I smiled at Thomas. Fifteen minutes later Michelle wheeled Angie back. Angie was wearing a pair of my pants and one of my T-shirts. “What happened, sis?” Thomas gave Angie a reproaching look. “Nothing bro. I’ve leaked. The evening was great and I kinda forgot to check my diaper condition. It isn’t for the first time though. Don’t look at me this way and focus on your love,” she grinned, “hopefully you’ve had a great time.” “Of course,” I answered and grinned at her, “a great time indeed.” My messy diaper experience appeared as a nice addition. “Thomas has been assigned an important task,” I added, and Thomas laughed this time. His strict gaze was gone. “I should change her messy diaper,” he reacted and laughed even more. I blushed a little but seconds later the blush faded away. “Well, Michelle can change my diapers in exchange,” Angie interjected. “Even better, let’s arrange a caretaker exchange party,” Michelle had an excellent idea, “We can stay here, have a delicious dinner, drink wine, watch a movie and have lots of fun all together.” “A great idea,” Thomas poured the rest of wine into four cups, raised his cup and help mine to my lips, “Cheers!” Later in the evening Thomas and Angie left and I was alone with Michelle. “Michelle, it’s been great. Now I’m thinking of my last dream. Did I really choose my own lifepath? If so, I don’t want to have more dreams; I can’t imagine a better lifepath.” “That’s nice, Emily. Let’s go to bed now.” Michelle wheeled me to the bathroom, gave me a warm bath, diapered me and put me to bed. My eyes closed. The day had been the best one in my life. If I could choose the moment to die, this one would be my choice. Epilogue “Dr. Warner; here you are today’s report of the Dreamhall project,” the young assistant passed a sheet to an older man sitting at his desk. Virtual scenes history of the test subject #24: Object from scene #3 were inserted into the scene #7 and caused an emotional reaction of the test subject and the choice of the scene #3. Negative experiences in the scene #3 summoned another reaction but she overreacted and chose the scene #11 The test subject somehow revealed the experiment background and she chose the scene #7 repeatedly and directly and isn’t willing to change it. “Well, well, she is really our best test subject,” the older man nodded and sighed, “Unfortunately, we can’t use her anymore.” He stood up and headed towards a large hall. The side wall was framed by a row of hospital beds. All persons on the beds were in coma and their bodies were spiked with tubes. Their heads were covered by helmets and a thick cable was connected to every helmet. “This is our test subject #24, Dr. Warner. Look at the video records,” the assistant stepped to the display and started replay. “Fascinating, Annie. However, it’s time to finish the experiment.” “Dr. Warner, she is a living person though. Do you want to commit a murder?” “Let’s call it euthanasia rather than murder. Mrs. Maxwell is suffering from sclerosis multiplex in the final stage. Nothing in her body is working except her brain and she has accepted the participation of this experiment.” “Dr. Warner, can you explain me about the experiment. I’m new here and I’m an assistant only but I’d like to know more about why you are doing this.” “Annie, this is a psychological experiment about human behavior. Mrs. Maxwell was disabled for years, and the experiment revealed her reactions in different environments.” “But … what is the outcome of it?” “It is important for the families and caretakers; we can help them a lot and show them the reactions of a fictive subject in fictive environments. In that way they can change their own behavior and relationship to their disabled family member. Let’s call it some kind of simulator.” “Right, Dr. Warner, but I’m not able to switch off the machines,” Annie stepped back. “Of course, dear. It is my task,” the old man sighed. “Thanks a lot, Mrs. Maxwell,” he stepped forward and pressed the OFF button.

More adult contents Part 9 My heart was beating fast when I spotted Angie in her wheelchair and Thomas pushing her inside. He was carrying a flower bouquet and smiling at me. “Good evening, Emily,” Angie also smiled at me and I repaid the smile. She was wearing a beautiful dress as well even if her skirt was wider and longer. Excuse me for awhile; I’ll get dressed,” Michelle left the room and headed towards her bedroom. Thomas put the flowers into a vase and pushed me to the table and kissed me passionately. I returned the kiss, and he hugged me tightly. “How are you tonight, love?” he asked me cheerfully, “You are beautiful today,” his sight slid down to my short skirt and the diaper package peeking from beneath it. As I noticed it, he blushed a little and gave me another kiss, “Sorry but you look a bit … cute.” “I can’t be better when you are here, love,” I replied instantly, “we have a wonderful evening ahead.” “So have we,” Angie grinned, “I’m looking forward to the movie and Michelle invited me to a dinner afterwards.” I grinned only; Michelle wanted to provide us with more time in the evening; I guessed that Angie knew it, too. Michelle emerged from the bedroom and she also changed her look a lot. The loving caretaker changed into an elegant lady. She pushed Angie’s wheelchair out of the room and five minutes later we were alone with Thomas. “Thomas, your blush was cute as well, when you stared at my diapers peeking from beneath the skirt. Can I be curious and ask you about Angie? She also needs diapers. Do you have to change her every time? How did you get used to changing diapers of a girl? Wasn’t it arousing for you?” “Emily, you can ask me about it. Angie usually needs my help; sometimes she is able to change her own diaper, but it is strenuous for her. When she was released for the hospital, I had to learn everything. I really got aroused even if she was my sister. However, she didn’t have any sensation below her waist and didn’t get aroused at all. I got used to the diaper changes without any sex-related thoughts.” “Well, I do have my sensations down there,” I laughed and winked at him. “Should I test it?” he laughed and reached down to my nylon clad legs. He stroked my thigh and I was overwhelmed by a wave of arousal. I moaned aloud and a stream of pee soaked my diaper. “Hey, wait. Your little girl is hungry, and she’s just wet herself,” I laughed again, “we have the entire evening ahead.” “Okay, love,” he reached to the diaper package and pressed it against my crotch, “Really. Do you need a clean diaper?” “Not necessary; it will hold one more wetting,” I shook my head. “Well, let’s have our dinner,” he took the bottle of wine, opened it and poured the wine into two cups, “Cheers,” he put one of the cups to my lips and drank up his. “Cheers,” I sipped form my cup, “I have to drink slowly, love.” “I know,” he put the cup away and started feeding me dinner. I opened my mouth obediently and enjoyed his loving care. “It’s different with Angie, she can eat on her own,” I turned to him between two bites. “Yeah but it’s fun and even a bit sexy, love,” he smiled and stroked my hair. The dinner was delicious; after all Michelle was a skilled cook. When we finished, Thomas let me drink more wine. My mood improved; a small cup of wine was enough for me. “Love, would you mind if I sit you on my lap instead of the wheelchair?” Thomas asked me when I finished the wine. “Of course not,” I smiled, and he lifted me from the wheelchair and sat me on his lap. He had to hold me tight, but it was pleasant for me. Instead of the hard surfaces I was leaning to his soft body. Thomas’s hands were holding me and stroking my breasts. His member hardened and I felt it even through the diaper pack. “Love, don’t you want to put me down on my bed; it would be more comfortable for you and for me,” I whispered in his ear and he nodded. “The door on our right,” I navigated him while he was carrying me in his arms. He lay me down on my bed and sat down. His left hand stroked my breasts while his right hand moved to my legs. A new wave of arousal overwhelmed me. My heart sped up, the breathing controller detected my arousal and my breathing rate increased. “O – o – o,” my moaning got loud and I felt a cramp in my abdomen. Even if I couldn’t control the muscles and move on the bed, I enjoyed the feeling. Meanwhile, another stream of pee soaked the diaper. “Love, your little girl has peed herself again; you must change her diaper,” I grinned at Thomas when I caught my breath and the controller slowed down the breathing rate. “Well, it will be a pleasure for me,” he grinned at me and turned to me, “let’s undress her first,” he grabbed the hem of my dress and pulled it up my torso slowly. “Hey, do you undress Angie when you are changing her diaper?” I teased him. Of course, it was not necessary, but I didn’t mind that unusual change. “Why should I undress her? You need a special care,” he played along, pulled the dress over my head and unclasped my bra. Now I was naked from waist up. He kissed my nipples and his hands moved to my pantyhose. Every touch was like an electric pulse and he waited and pulled it down my legs very slowly. “Let’s remove this smelly garment,” he untapped the diaper and the mix of urine and love juices smells spread across the room. My crotch was all wet and exposed. “Love; hurry up please; I can’t wait anymore,” I begged him, but he shook his head. “Wait a bit, you need a thorough cleaning from outside and inside,” he turned to the cabinet and pulled out a package of wet cleaning wipes, “let’s begin from outside,” he took the wipe and started cleaning my crotch. However, he was rubbing more than necessary and my arousal started growing again. When my moaning got louder, he finally pulled the wet diaper from beneath my behind, put a clean one there and spread my legs, “now we can do the second phase.” Thomas stood up and started undressing himself. I kept watching him and wished him to be quicker. Unfortunately, I couldn’t do anything but wait while my heart and breathing were speeding up. After a seemingly endless waiting he was naked and lay down slowly. His member entered my body and his body rested on top of me but her supported himself by his arms. He started moving and my vaginal muscles convulsed involuntarily, controlled by my arousal. I couldn’t move but he did his best. Five minutes later my body convulsed in a massive orgasmic cramp and I experienced a great climax. Was it the first one in my life? I didn’t remember another one.

Part 8 “Morning, Emily, it’s time to start another nice day,” Michelle’s voice sounded cheerful just like every day. I opened my eyes and looked into the deep brown eyes of my caretaker. I wished I could sit up and hug her but my body was paralyzed and my left hand was the only limb I could move. Although I couldn’t lift my arm, I could move my fingers and use my mobile or computer. It was a very little freedom of movement, but I wasn’t paralyzed totally. My breathing controller noticed my awake condition and switched to the day mode. It was the last model, and its sensors kept detecting my actual oxygen need. “Morning, Michelle,” I smiled at her. Her smile and voice improved my mood every time, “You won’t believe me, but I had a strange dream this night.” “This isn’t surprising, Emily. I’m kind of used to your dreams. What was it about?” “Michelle, I was lying on a hard stone floor in a cave and somebody ask me about my lifepath, and I could choose it. There were several doors above me, and I was dragged into one of them. However, I can’t get rid of a feeling that I had been dragged into the same door earlier.” “Really? You have been living here since you were released from the hospital, and I became your caretaker. I even don’t remember when it was. Anyway, let’s take care of you now and we can talk about your dreams later.” She removed the cover and the urine smell spread across the room. My diaper was soaked after the long night. I knew about the newest neuro implants controlling the sphincters but they were useless if I couldn’t stand up and go to the toilet. Moreover, the diaper changes were … pleasant? Michelle untapped the diaper and started cleaning me. I closed my eyes and enjoyed her care. She always rubbed my privates longer than necessary and I moaned every time. “Emily, don’t forget about your … date today. Thomas will come in the evening, and I’ll take Angie to the movie.” I grinned at the word date. Thomas was the librarian in our local library. We met by chance about a month ago and we became friends. His sister Angie was paralyzed after a traffic accident. Thomas and Angie were very nice people, and they often came to visit us. We even spent two weekends together. I also spent some nice time with Thomas alone and I fell in love with him. The first kiss was like an electric pulse, and I peed in my diaper instantly. He probably noticed it and smiled at me. Today was the day D for me. I should spend an evening with him. My heart was beating fast when I imagined that evening. What would happen? Will he have sex with a paralyzed girl? Michelle cleaned my crotch and put a clean diaper on me and dressed me for the day. I chose a T-shirt and a denim knee length skirt. We planned a short shopping trip to buy a nice dress for the evening. After breakfast and another diaper change Michelle wheeled me to the shopping center. “Are you sure in your … condition?” The shop assistant looked a bit surprised when I asked for a sexy dress, but I insisted on my wish: “Miss, I want to look sexy tonight. Which condition? I’m still a woman and a paralyzed girl can be sexy just like a healthy one, can’t she?” “Sorry, okay,” she showed my a nice short dress. I realized that my diaper pack would peek out of the dress but I didn’t mind it at all. Maybe it would be even sexier. “Miss, can you help me with trying out the dress?” Michelle asked the shop assistant, and she faced a surprised look. However, the young woman nodded; she realized her mistake earlier and wanted to be as nice as possible. Michell wheeled me into a larger changing room and the shop assistant helped her undress me and put on the dress. As expected, the diaper pack was clearly visible. The short skirt didn’t hide it; my legs were kept apart by the diaper. “Sorry miss, but you look like an overgrown toddler,” the shop assistant laughed shortly but I didn’t get angry at her. After all, she was right. “Yeah, miss, I look like one exactly, but I don’t mind it at all. I’ll spend the evening with a nice man and he knows about my condition,” I grinned at her. “Really? To be honest, it’s kind of cute,” the shop assistant smiled at me, and Michelle nodded. “Can you turn me to the mirror so I can watch myself in the new dress please?” I asked Michelle and she turned my wheelchair. I had to control myself not to laugh when I noticed the diaper package peeking from beneath the short skirt. On the other hand, it was arousing. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine Thomas touching the diaper or … I blushed and my heart was beating faster again. I suddenly felt an intense urge to pee and a massive stream of urine soaked the diaper. I peed myself out of arousal and my face turned deep red. The shop assistant turned away, but Michelle watched me, and I could swear she was amused. They dressed me back into my T-shirt and skirt and Michelle wheeled me to the cash desk to pay for the dress. She paid and we hurried up home. “Emily, I’m sorry but you looked cute in the short dress and your blush was even cuter when you wet your diaper,” Michelle whispered to me while pushing the wheelchair. As we arrived at home, she put me onto my bed, pulled down my tights and untaped the diaper. The urine smell spread across the room, but it was mixed with another smell. “Dear, the love juices smell more intense than your pee,” Michelle smiled and started wiping my crotch. This time I felt a strong arousal and moaned aloud. “Hey, wait. What will you do if Thomas touches your legs, let alone your sensitive areas,” she grinned. “I can’t wait it, Michelle,” I sighed and tried to calm down. It was quite hard when every touch aroused me. Finally, she finished and pulled up the tights and my breathing returned to normal; the breathing controller worked perfectly and adapted to my level of arousal. The rest of the day passed quickly. Michelle cooked a delicious lunch and we had a short afternoon nap. After that I was watching TV while Michelle was doing the preparations for the evening. She laid the table for me and Thomas and made a dinner and put a bottle of wine onto the table. “Emily, let’s change your diaper and put the dress on you,” Michelle wheeled me to the bedroom and took of my T-shirt and denim skirt. My diaper was soaked, and the smell of my love juices was apparent again. I was quite impatient. Michelle dressed me and she even put some lipstick and makeup on my face. I watched my mirror image and almost fainted; I was looking at another girl; a sexy one; the diaper pack was peeking from beneath the skirt and I looked somehow mischievous. At 6PM the bell rang, and Michelle went answer the door.

Part 7 “Yeah, miss Emily. It is quite possible,” Susie looked like she was I a shock. “Wait, let me check more data.” “Miss Emily,” seconds later Susie’s eyes went wide, “there are no records on me and everybody here until today.” “Susie, is it possible that we were literally created at the moment when I woke up? Somebody or something created me in this life along with you and along with our memories. No, it is too complicated. Something or somebody inserted this image into my mind.” “Yeah, miss Emily but there has to be your real body and mind somewhere and everything around here is like your dream.” “Right, Susie. Now I’m getting curious about this real body. Who am I? Am I a part of an experiment? Can I find it out?” “No idea, miss Emily. If I exist in your mind only, I can’t help you and neither can anybody around here. However, you can ask for another life but I’m afraid you can’t ask for the real one.” “Well, let’s stop now and forget it. I’m living this life and I can decide for another one when I ask for it. We can go to the park and walk for awhile.” Susie grinned and stepped forward. Walking was a good way to start my bowel movement. The muscles in my torso were controlled by the computer to enable walking and they also massaged my bowels. It was a way to have my BM almost in the natural way without any unpleasant massage. “Command, turn left. Command, stand up!” seconds later I was standing next to Mark and the small joystick moved to my lips. Mark grabbed the wheels and headed towards the exit, and I followed him. I was quite skilled at the control of my walking. The park was large and there were numerous trees there. The pathways were well maintained, and we could walk comfortably. “Good morning, Emily, good morning,” several of my mates were already walking around an we greeted each other. The morning routine began and several of my mates were walking for the same reason. While walking, I kept thinking of the life I could ask for. This life wasn’t that bad, but I still could find some improvements. I wanted to be exact in my wishes to avoid unpleasant surprises. Anyway, I probably could ask for a change as many times as I wanted to. It sounded crazy but it seemed to be true. My thoughts were interrupted by the feeling of my bowel movement and a mass of poop was filing the back of my diaper. However I didn’t want to be disturbed and my diaper change could wait until I’d finish my planning; it was a planning of my next life though. I suddenly got amused by the scene. I was walking with help of my neural implants, my diaper was messy and I wanted to change my life. How should the new life look like? I didn’t have any idea of the former ones and I even didn’t know how many choices I had done in the past. All I had was the actual choice and the dream about the overprotective mother. First of all, I didn’t want to life in an isolated area. I desperately wanted a life among healthy people even if I was disabled. A PAR was a very good options, but a human caretaker would be better. What about the neuro implants? I definitely wanted to be able to breath on my own; I didn’t want the old breathing machine I saw in the books. The walking was nice, but it wasn’t very comfortable with the joystick and commands. Was there a compromise solution? Maybe some partial movement ability after the polio. As for the bladder and bowels control, I wasn’t sure. Should I ask for it? If I couldn’t go to the toilet on my own, I didn’t need it. To be honest, I somehow liked my diapers. The diaper changes were … pleasant? “Susie, I need a diaper change please,” I turned to Susie when I summarized my thoughts. “Okay, miss Emily, let’s go to the bathroom now; don’t stay in your messy diaper too long,” Susie smiled. She probably knew about my earlier accident, but she didn’t want to disturb me. I followed her back to the bathroom and lay down on the changing table. As I commanded to relax my muscles and Susie started cleaning me, I suddenly got a strange and pleasant feeling. Did I like diapers and the changing process indeed? Susie finished the diaper change and I returned to the park. I moved to the fence, sat down on a bench and watched the street behind the fence. It would be great to leave the Center and try out the life outside. The center wasn’t a prison, we could walk outside but our PARs were not allowed to leave the grounds. All I could do was walking outside and returning to the Center. I walked outside several times in the past, but it was not fun. Mark could leave the Center more often in his wheelchair. Suddenly I realized that all my past and memories had been created and inserted into my mind. All the walks were not real. It was only an illusion of the past. On the other hand, I could ask for a new lifepath and have a new past. That idea was quite exciting. “Emily, I listened to your conversation and it really looked crazy,” Mark’s voice interrupted my thread of thoughts. “Yeah, Mark. Sorry, I completely forgot about you,” I smiled at him. During breakfast, Mark was sitting next to me, and he heard my every word. “Don’t worry about it, Emily. According to that theory, I exist in your mind only. I am something like your dream.” “A wonderful dream, Mark. I couldn’t have wished for a better one.” “Thanks, Emily.” A crazy idea hit me. Could Mark stay in my next dream? Would it be a good idea to ask the doors for it? The rest of the day I kept thinking of the next dream and tried to get ready for that important moment. I somehow felt sorry for my mates and the Centre but I had to repeat over and over: “They don’t exist, they don’t exist!” ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- “Can I ask for my new lifepath?” my voice sounded odd in the dark room. I was lying on the cold ground and three torches were burning above my head. “Yeah, Emily. Go ahead but be aware of your limits,” the cold and impersonal voice echoed in the cave. “Wait. What limitations?” I was a little surprised. I remembered the last dream when I wanted to walk and didn’t want an overprotective mother. The voice hadn’t told me about any limitations and my wish had been accepted. “The last time you had a simple request but this time you seem to be ready for more; that’s why I notify you about them.” “Is this life a dream?” “Basically, it is a kind of dream.” “Can I ask about my true life?” “You can ask about it bit you can’t ask for it. However, you can have almost everything you want in your dream.” “Almost? What is the exception?” “You will be disabled but you can have any possible kind of artificial support.” “Can I keep some limited movement ability?” “This is possible, Emily.” “Can I live among healthy people and not in an isolated center?” “Of course you can and you won’t have any overprotective mother. However, this is the end of your wishes for this time.” A door opened and an invisible force dragged me towards it. I got a feeling that I had been dragged to that door earlier in the past.

Part 6 “Good morning, miss Emily. It’s time to get up.” I opened my eyes and looked at my PAR, model 7.5. The PAR stood for Personal Assistance Robot. However, I hated to call it that way and used a more familiar name. “Morning, Susie,” although robots didn’t have gender, I used a female name. PAR accepted it instantly; personal assistance robots were programmed to accept human names. PARs looked like humans, but they were equipped with more limbs than humans to ease their tasks. My breathing stimulator reacted instantly when it detected my awake state and my breathing rate increased. This model was full autonomous, and no manual action was necessary. Another set of neural stimulators were activated, and I was able to sit up and even walk. My body was limp after overcoming polio, but the neuro implants were controlled by a small computer and I could use simple spoken commands to move around and make gestures. Unfortunately, fine motoric was not possible yet and I still needed assistance. Nevertheless, the ability of walking was great in comparison to lying in a bed or sitting in a wheelchair. I remembered the last dream. I was lying on a hard surface and several doors appeared above me. I didn’t know why but I asked a door to open; I wanted to walk, and I didn’t want an overprotective mother. Why the hell did I ask not to have an overprotective mother? To my utter horror I realized that I didn’t remember her at all. “Susie, could you explain dreams?” Susie was an intelligent robot and she had access to all kind of information. “Of course, I can, miss Emily; however you would need a clean diaper first. Come to the bathroom please,” Susie turned away and headed towards the bathroom. “Command, sit up; Command, turn right; Command, stand up!” three command activated my muscles and I was standing near the bed. A small joystick was moved to my mouth and I could control my walking. Despite the fact I could walk, I couldn’t control my bladder and bowels. I didn’t understand why; controlling the bladder and bowel muscles was simpler than controlling the torso and leg muscles. The diaper between my legs was warm and heavy; I had peed a lot during the night. I entered the bathroom and turned my back towards the changing table. “Command, crawl up; Command, lie down; Command, relax!” seconds later I was lying on the changing table. Susie spread my limp legs, opened the diaper and the urine stench spread in the bathroom. She cleaned my crotch and put a clean diaper on me and dressed me for the day. Her four arms were a big advantage. The next commands made my body stand up and walk out of the bathroom and head towards the common rooms. I lived in a center for disabled people together with about twenty more mates. There was a PAR for every person there but there was no human staff there except an IT expert monitoring all systems. Unfortunately, the expert usually wasn’t around, and he worked mostly from home. Although we could talk with PARs, we still missed human company. “Susie, I had a strange dream. I was lying in some kind of cave and several doors appeared in front of me. I asked a door to open. I wanted to walk, and I didn’t want an overprotective mother.” “Well, a really strange dream, miss Emily. Let me check some databases …,” Susie smiled at me; it was a nice feature of the higher PAR models; they used facial expressions in addition to words. “Miss Emily, the doors were life paths.” “What life paths? Would you like to say that I could pick a life path by asking the doors? This is crazy!” “Miss Emily, this is not my own deduction; I’ve found it elsewhere,” Susie’s voice sounded as if she was offended. The new PARs had their own emotions. “Sorry, Susie; I didn’t want to hurt you. Can you try to find some info on my mother? Why did I think she was overprotective?” “It is alright, miss Emily. Wait a little … sorry. There is no information available.” “How is it possible? I must have a mother though!” “I know, miss Emily but I can’t find her. Maybe some data is missing.” Meanwhile we reached the dining room. I spotted Mark sitting in his wheelchair and eating breakfast. His PAR was nowhere to be seen; after all Mark was able to take care of himself most of the time. “Good morning, Mark.” “Morning, Emily. Would you like me to feed you today or will Susie do it?” “It would be nice of you, Mark,” I smiled at him. He was a cheerful young man and he liked to take care of me. Susie smiled as well and stepped back. Mark finished his portion and fed me. However, something was wrong. “Mark, I had a strange dream this night,” I described the dream and he shrugged. “This is a dream only.” “I know but Susie told me about the doors and life paths. I wanted to walk, and I didn’t want an overprotective mother. Susie didn’t find any information on my mother. What is going on? What happened before the dream?” “Nothing, Emily. You were here yesterday, and we spent a nice evening.” “Okay but why did I mention an overprotective mother if I don’t know her? Wait … when did I come to the center?” “No idea, Emily … oh, something is amiss. I also don’t remember when I came here and why I’m paralyzed.” At that moment I felt a stream of pee soaking my diaper and recalled the former thoughts. “Mark, do you have any neuro implants?” “No, Emily. I have got my PAR and I don’t need anything else. Why are you asking me? You apparently have some.” “Yeah, and I’m a bit surprised. My breathing and walking is controlled by them but,” I blushed, “my sphincters are not. It is much simpler than walking, isn’t it?” “Definitely, it is. I don’t understand it. Wait … what did you say about the dream? You wanted to walk, and you didn’t want an overprotective mother. Your wish came true then. You can walk and you have a PAR. Susie is a pro and she is not overprotective. “Well, that’s true but … why did I ask for it if I’ve been here for long? I apparently asked for a change in my life but I didn’t have an reason to do so. No change has happened.” “Ask Susie. What if she can find something in the databases?” “A good idea. Susie, can you ask for more information? Do you know when I arrived at this center?” “No, miss Emily. You have been living here for long and so has Mark,” Susie replied instantly. “Would you consider me crazy if I ask you to check the records? My mother hasn’t been found though. It is a bit odd even if can imagine some missing data.” “I understand your curiosity, miss Emily. Let me check … wait … there are no records about you until today.” “Oh, this is impossible. Mark remembers me, you remember me and according to the records, I wasn’t here. I don’t believe in another missing data.” “Yeah, miss Emily. According to the records, your life began today. However, you were born somewhere, you have your family, you overcame polio and you arrived at this center. Something is wrong; as if your life was fake.” “Fake? How? Do I live in some kind of Matrix?” at that moment I realized that I had asked for a life path and that path came true. My eyes went wide.

Part 5 I sighed when mommy told me about the Community, but, on the other hand, it was one of few opportunities to see something else than my bed and my room. I loved Jimmy, Andy’s brother. Andy was a disabled boy about at my age; unfortunately, he was mentally disabled and was able to speak a few words only. Jimmy was a cheerful small boy and he often accompanied his big brother and liked talking with other community clients. Usually, he was the only person I could talk with. He was bright and more intelligent than most children at his age. Mommy and the nurse dressed me into dress and tights. The dress was a bit short and the diaper package was clearly visible. I couldn’t arrange the skirt or move my legs to hide it. They placed me into a wheelchair and switched the breathing machine to a battery. The nurse prepared a large diaper bag with spare diapers and cleaning utensils. About ten minutes later, a community van arrived. The Community offered that kind of service for transport between home, hospital, church and the Community. The van was equipped with a lifting platform and power socket for breathing machines, so the battery wasn’t discharged during the transport. The driver helped mommy load my wheelchair and drove off towards the Community. As we stopped and the driver unloaded my wheelchair, my heart jumped when I spotted Jimmy; he ran towards my wheelchair and stroked my limp arm. “Emily, it’s nice you have arrived,” he smiled, “how are you?” “Thank you, Jimmy. We should talk together; come with me. I have a secret for you.” “I can’t wait to hear it,” he was enthusiastic. Mommy wheeled me to a table next to Andy and Jimmy was following us. Andy smiled at me and tried to utter a few words to welcome me. “Mi – wi, me – glad.” “I’m glad to see you either, Andy,” I smiled back, and he stroked my arm just like Jimmy did earlier. Maybe he repeated his brother’s actions. “Emily, tell me the secret, please,” Jimmy turned to me when mommy left to talk with Andy’s mother. They were close friends and used to have coffee and talk. “Yeah, Jimmy. I had a strange dream,” I told him the mysterious dream and his eyes went wide. “Emily, this is a fairy tale though. I wish I would have that dream either,” he didn’t mind the hospital bed and diapers, or he didn’t listen closely. “Wouldn’t you be scared by the dark dungeon?” “Why; it is exciting, Emily. You could be there with me as well,” he continued and his next question surprised me a lot, “Weren’t you curious about the other doors? You were carried to one but there were more of them.” “Right, Jimmy. To be honest, I’d like to know it.” All of sudden, I heard a familiar sound and felt the back of my diaper getting warm. Mommy always used laxatives; I wasn’t able to push and void my bowels. She sometimes massaged me, but it was strenuous for her. Laxatives were easier to use but I hated the feeling and the smell. My bladder muscles relaxed seconds later and the hissing sound revealed what was going on. I blushed but Jimmy smiled only. “Did you pee and poop yourself? No problem, your mommy will change you,” I realized he experienced it often; Andy also needed diapers, “should I call her now?” “Not necessary, Jimmy; I can wait until she comes back,” I smiled. It wasn’t for the first time and the diaper would hold it. “Okay, Emily,” he paused, “You told me your secret, but I also have a secret.” “Really? Tell me please.” “Yesterday I saw you in the park, but you didn’t recognize me. You were sitting in another wheelchair, and a caretaker was sitting on the bench next to you.” “How so? Yesterday I was at home and I don’t have any caretaker except a nurse.” “It wasn’t her, Emily. I know the nurse that helps your mommy.” “Well, we have two secrets then,” I grinned but I was taken aback. What was going on? Was it possible that the events were a coincidence or were they related? “Hey, what are you talking about?” mommy’s voice sounded from behind me, “Jimmy, did you experience it indeed or is it your fantasy?” “No fantasy, auntie Annie. I swear I saw her indeed.” He looked like offended that my mommy didn’t believe him. “Okay, Jimmy; I believe you because I have the same experience. Yesterday I saw Emily with caretaker near the shopping center and I was sure she was at home. She also didn’t recognize me.” “W … what are you saying, mom? Something is wrong. I was at home yesterday though. How could you see me there? Who was the caretaker?” “No idea, Emily. We should ask our priest then but … you need a clean diaper first. Betty will help me.” I sighed. Betty was Andy’s and Jimmy’s mother. I hated the diaper changes in public, but I could stay long in a messy diaper. Mommy could have waited at home rather than hurry up to the Community. Mommy wheeled me to the family bathroom. There was a mechanical arm there and Mommy with Beth lifted me from the wheelchair and put me onto a changing table. Mommy pulled down my tights and opened the diaper and the terrible smell spread across the room. She took a wet rag and cleaned me thoroughly. The laxative had a small advantage; the stool was easy to wipe away. After the diaper change mommy wheeled me to the priest to talk about the strange dream. He listened to my explanation and his reaction encouraged me. “This is a dream only. Mrs. Riley, don’t worry about dreams. Emily, how did you feel?” he turned to me. “I don’t know, father. It’s been somehow strange. What do the doors mean?” “Many doors are many life paths, Emily.” “Many lifepaths? How can I have another one?” “Ask it when you have that dream again and don’t worry, child. Our Lord will protect you whatever paths you choose.” “Father, I saw my Emily yesterday in a place where she couldn’t have been. She was at home and I saw her near the shopping center.” “Difficult to say; I believe you saw somebody else that looked like her.” “I try to convince myself, but the similarity was immense. Anyway thanks, father. I try to forget the experience.” “That’s the best you can do, Mrs. Riley.” We returned to Andy and Jimmy, and I talked with the little boy even more. He always improved my mood. “Emily, where have you been?” “Jimmy, we asked the priest about my dream.” “What did he say?” “The doors are lifepaths.” “What are lifepaths, Emily?” Jimmy was 5 and he didn’t have any idea of that strange word. I tried to find an example. “Jimmy, can you imagine a life like a cat or dog? Or a girl? These are different lifepaths.” “Oh, I’d like to run as fast as a dog and bark. It would be great. Is this a lifepath, too?” “Basically yes,” I tried to explain the difficult term to him in a way he would understand. Everything could happen in his child mind; he lived in a fairy tale realm where he could change into a dog. “Emily, try it out, ask the doors for a dog lifepath and bark at me when you meet me in a dog body.” “Of course, Jimmy; I will bark at you,” I smiled at him happily. Half an hour later mommy brought a snack and a cup of tea. “Auntie, can I feed Emily?” Jimmy surprised mommy when he asked her. “Of course, Jimmy, but not the tea. You could hurt her when you pour it onto her.” “Okay,” he nodded, took the sandwich and fed me. He was a bit clumsy but nobody minded it; he probably fed his brother earlier. Mommy gave me the tea and I peed myself instantly when I finished drinking it. However, I didn’t say anything. The diaper was wet but I didn’t want another diaper change in public. Later, when we were back at home, I couldn’t get rid of Jimmy’s words. The innocent child mind provided me with a useful advice. Was it possible to ask the doors to open and take me to another lifepath? After all, it was a dream only. Of course, I didn’t have any intention to turn into a dog. I was satisfied with my current body. I wanted to be able to walk and a less protective mother. She really loved me, but I wanted to be treated as an adult rather than a baby. I decided to try the crazy idea and ask the doors; it was my last thought before my eyes closed.

Part 4 Cold, dark and fear! What was going on? My body was resting on a soft surface, and I felt like a heavy stone was resting on my chest. I tried to push it away but my muscles refused to react. How did I get here? I wasn’t able to remember anything. “Emily, try to think! You don’t belong here,” my mind was working hard but everything was hidden like in a fog. All I knew was my name and the fact that my body was paralyzed; however, I didn’t have any idea what had happened. All of sudden three small flames appeared above me and I spotted a stone cave. There were several doors on the perimeter wall. The doors were somehow familiar, and a vague memory appeared in front of my eyes. I was here long ago, one of them had opened and I had passed it. However, I didn’t know what was behind them. I also realized I was lying on a hospital bed and the heavy stone on my chest was some kind of machine. I was dressed in a hospital gown; my legs were kept apart by a thick diaper package. To my utter horror I felt the weight and wetness of the diaper; it was soaked. My bladder was full, and I felt a strong urge to pee. I tried to clench the muscles, but my body again refused to obey my commands. The muscles relaxed and I peed myself like a little baby. The diaper probably leaked, and I couldn’t do anything but wait until somebody would change it. One of the doors opened and I guessed it was a different door; my body was lifted from the bed and carried towards the open door. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ “Emily! My little girl! Wake up.” My mom’s voice made me open my eyes. I was lying in my hospital bed and a breathing machine was resting on my chest. I was paralyzed because of a polio attack when I was about 12. Since then I spent most of my life in this damn hospital bed. I couldn’t move a single finger. My mother and a nurse had to feed me, change my diapers, and massage my limp body to avoid bedsores. “How did my baby sleep?” my mom asked me this question almost every day and I hated when she called me a baby. I was an adult woman, and my mind was clear, but my body was paralyzed. However, she liked the care and instinctively considered me a baby. “Mom, I’m not a baby. Although … I need diapers and you have to feed … me, I’m still adult,” I asked her just like many times before. I had to make breaks when the breathing machine pulled on my chest, and I inhaled. “I had a strange dream.” “What dream, my … my little Emily?” I described her the dream and she stared at me in utter surprise. “Are you okay? Should I call a doctor?” “No please; it’s been a dream only,” I hated her overprotective behavior. She would be willing to call a psychiatrist. I was quite curious to find out about that dream, but I didn’t know whom to ask. I didn’t have any real friends; my entire world consisted of home, hospital, church, and the Caring Heart community. My mom homeschooled me, so I didn’t attend school either. I sometimes asked mom to take me to the park, to a shopping center or to movies but her usual answer was like ‘the people are bad; they wouldn’t accept a crippled person’. I desperately tried to remember my life before I overcame polio; that life had to be different, and I had to have friends and fun then. Unfortunately, I couldn’t recall any single person or experience. I also didn’t remember the polio itself. Something was amiss; was it caused by the illness? “Okay, we can talk about it at the Community then. A meeting has been scheduled today. Are you looking forward to it?” “Okay, mom,” I sighed. Mom’s mention of Community spoiled my mood. The Caring Heart community was a place where we met other disabled people. Unfortunately, most of them were disabled mentally and I couldn’t even talk with them. There were several exceptions, but their opinions were like my mother’s ones, and I didn’t understand them. Why didn’t they want to spend their time with healthy people? The community looked like an isolated island where the inhabitants liked to live there and refused any contacts to the surroundings. I felt lonely and abandoned and unhappy, and I couldn’t change it without help. Without waiting for my answer, she reached to the breathing machine and switched it into the DAY mode. My breathing got faster. After that she lifted the blanket and noticed a wet patch beneath my behind. “Oh, poor thing. You have leaked during the night. Mommy has to add an extra diaper the next night.” I sighed when I heard the words. The package between my legs was thick already. Mom used cloth diapers and they were uncomfortable. My legs were held wide apart in the night. She sometimes mentioned the disposable ones, but they were too expensive for her, and she told something about a foundation; according to her the foundation was devil’s work. Finally mom opened the rubber pants and removed the wet package from between my legs. I felt a big relief even if the urine reek spread across the room. She cleaned my crotch but she was careful not to rub more than necessary. I sometimes got a pleasant feeling and moaned, but she instantly stopped and gave me an accusing look. My bedsheet was wet and mom needed help; she called the nurse and they lifted me from the bed and changed the sheet. After that mom put a clean diaper and clean rubber pants on me. “Emily, wait a little until mommy brings you breakfast,” she switched on the TV and left. However, an infantile show was on, and I closed my eyes not to watch it. I rarely could watch some an interesting movie or an interesting show; my mom was strict, and she carefully picked the programs I could watch. I knew that she loved me deeply, but she still ignored my adult condition.” About fifteen minutes later mom came back and she was carrying a tray with breakfast. There was cake and cocoa on the tray. It was a bit childish, but I didn’t mind it. Mom’s cakes were always delicious, and she was even famous by them. Our neighbors and the people in the Community kept praising her cooking skills. Mom fed me the breakfast and I really felt like a baby. She was a loving mother indeed and I forgot about her behavior for awhile. However, this idyll suddenly ended with the last bite of my breakfast. Her words brought me back to the sad reality. “Well, let’s prepare you now. It’s time to go to the Community.”

Part 3: “Morning, dear,” Michelle’s voice sounded cheerful like usual, “let’s begin another sunny day.” “Morning, Michelle,” I opened my eyes and smiled. I loved the way Michelle woke me up. I sometimes dreamed about a handsome man that would wake me up with a passionate kiss but it was a dream only. Who would live with a paralyzed girl? Suddenly Thomas’s face appeared in front of my mind eyes. He took care of his disabled sister, and he knew about that kind of care even if I was a challenge even for him. He didn’t have to feed Angie or take care of her breathing. While Michelle was cleaning my crotch, I closed my eyes and enjoyed her touches. To be honest, I didn’t like diapers, but the diaper change was a pleasant experience. Again, I imagined Thomas and smiled. “Hey, what are you thinking of?” Michelle’s voice returned me to reality, “According to the smile you are daydreaming.” “Yeah,” I nodded and blushed and Michelle noticed my blush and laughed. “You like the diaper change, and you would accept some handsome man rubbing your crotch or even more,” she rubbed my crotch even stronger. My blush revealed she was right. “Will we go look for a boyfriend?” she teased me, and I laughed. “No, dear, but we could go to a movie today. Some romantic stuff would be fine.” “Well, why not? Let’s have our breakfast and we can go.” After breakfast and the necessary diaper change Michelle dressed me and put me into my wheelchair and we headed towards the city center. The movie was great, and I almost cried at some scenes. I really loved that kind of movies and I also liked to go to movie instead watching them on TV. I needed company and I felt good among other people. I rarely faced surprised or sympathetic looks; most people accepted my condition and didn’t ask me stupid questions. While Michelle was wheeling me out from the cinema, I still was daydreaming about a prince when my thread of thoughts was interrupted by a voice: “Emily! What are you doing here? Who is this person?” I lifted my head and looked at an older woman. She was apparently taken aback. “What am I doing here? I’m going home from a cinema, and this is my caretaker, Michelle. But who are you?” “How so? I’m your mother! Don’t you recognize me?” “No, madam. Sorry but you have to be wrong and consider me somebody else.” “Emily! My Emily! How could you forget your mother?” “I’m terribly sorry, madam. Are you okay? Don’t you need help?” The woman kept silent, and tears appeared in her eyes. She turned away and left. “Michelle, let’s go home please, and hurry up,” I turned to Michelle. She also needed some time to recover from the shock but she composed herself and wheeled me back home. “Who was the woman? Was she insane? I really don’t recognize her,” we were sitting at the table, Michelle was drinking her own coffee and holding another cup at my lips. “I don’t recognize her either,” Michelle replied, “but she looked sincere and sane.” “It is a mystery indeed. What if we asked Angie? Let’s go to the library.” “Right, a good idea,” Michelle nodded and stood up to get dressed. Half an hour later we were sitting in the library and Angie was listening to our last experience. “I don’t know, Emily. She could be your mother but why didn’t you recognize her?” “No idea, Angie. I don’t remember anything from my past, and you told me yesterday you didn’t either.” “Emily, I have got a really crazy idea. Don’t laugh upon me please. Could you imagine that we live a part of our lives? It is just like a novel in more parts, and we have only one of them. Your parents and your polio and my accident are included in other parts.” “Wow, it looks crazy indeed,” I nodded, “but it would match our condition. Our lives are somehow limited to a period.” “Okay but how did your mother get into another part?” “A book page went astray and ended into another part,” I laughed. “Well, it’s easy in a book. Tear out a page and put it into another chapter. Our lives are not a book though.” “Hey, Angie, I have got another crazy idea. What do you think about switching parts? Would it be possible to get to another part of the book to see the events in our past?” “Why past only? What about future?” she was amused by the idea. “Wait! The dream and doors!” I realized the possible connection. “Right. The doors could be the parts.” “Stop please. We are fantasizing though. All the ideas are crazy indeed. To be honest, I need a bit of fresh air to get rid of all this bullshit. Could we go to the park?” “I’ll join you with pleasure; I have to tell Thomas,” Angie headed towards the counter. Michelle wheeled me to the park and stopped at a bench; she sat down and relaxed. Angie and I were sitting in our wheelchairs and relaxing as well. The silence was broken by bird chirping only and I closed my eyes. “Emily!” a kid’s voice woke me up. I opened my eyes and looked at a small boy about five. I didn’t recognize him. “Hey, who are you? Sorry but I don’t remember you.” “Emily, I’m Jimmy and my brother goes to the community.” “Which community?” “Did you forget? It is the Caring Heart.” “Sorry, Jimmy. I really don’t know what you are talking about. You consider me somebody else.” “Jimmy, come to mommy!” a female voice called the boy and he ran away. However, I was shocked. Angie and Michelle looked at the boy as well and they were confused. “What the hell is going on? This is the second person that knows me, and I don’t know who they are. Today is a cursed day.” I shook my head. Michelle was wheeling me back to the library and Angie was wheeling herself and following us. When we were about to say goodbye, Angie suddenly turned to me. “Sorry to ask you a sensitive question. Thomas works in a library and I got some money from the insurance and I have a disability pension but your life has to be more expensive. Have you got a gold mine?” “Nope, Angie. However, our expenses are covered by a foundation ALIVITA.” “Why should a foundation cover the expenses of a disabled woman and her caretaker? What is its name? ALIVITA? Come in and I’ll try to find more about it.” Angie switched on her computer and started searching the Internet. “ALIVITA – a research program about an alternative life.” “What? An alternative life? Angie, the ideas are not as crazy as they seemed to be,” I read the message over and over. Suddenly I felt wetness between my legs. I looked down and realized the wet patch on my pants. I forget about diaper changes. “Michelle, we have a problem,” I looked at my caretaker, “my diaper has leaked.” “No problem, dear. I’ll cover you and we will fix everything at home.” “Not necessary, Emily. Michelle can wheel you to the private room and go home fetch clean pants and all necessities,” Angie reacted. “Thanks, Angie,” I smiled and Michelle wheeled me to the private room behind the counter. We spent about half an hour with small talk until Michelle came back. In the evening I again couldn’t fall asleep and kept thinking about that “alternative life”. I was somehow curious about my alleged mother and Jimmy.

Part 2 “Michelle,” I turned to her while she was wheeling me towards the shop, “I can’t stop thinking of the dream book and Angie’s words. She asked me about my options to choose of and I didn’t find any answer except obvious everyday choices. Is there any _really_ serious decision?” “I don’t have any idea, dear. You have been living in your apartment and I’ve been taking care of you. This looks like a simple life, doesn’t it?” “Right, it is too simple, but Angie took me aback with her question about my family. How is possible that I don’t remember my family and friends and don’t remember anything else from my past. When and where I was struck by polio?” “Right, dear,” Michelle looked surprised, “I also don’t remember my past. I’ve been taking care of you but I don’t remember when I started.” “Michelle, you spend 24 hours a day with your job. There is nobody else to do it. Wouldn’t you like to take a break sometimes?” “I haven’t thought about it, dear,” her answer was quite surprising. Didn’t she have any family or friends? We were as lonely as Thomas with Angie. I couldn’t get rid of an impression that something was wrong with us. As we approached the shopping center, I realized another issue. Where did we get money for our expenses from? A disability pension couldn’t cover them. I never asked Michelle about it, but it was another mystery of my life. “Michelle, our expenses are quite high. We have been living in a comfortable apartment and you’ve never complained about lack of money. The care is quite expensive.” “I’m a little surprised that you never asked me about it, dear. All our expenses are covered by the ALIVITA foundation.” “What? What is it?” I was shocked by the fact that a foundation was spending its money for the expensive care of an unknown woman. “No idea, dear. I have got a credit card and I can buy whatever you want or whatever I want. The debt is paid off regularly every month and nobody has complained about its amount so far.” “Didn’t you ask about the foundation?” “Of course, I did, dear but I all I’ve found is the name and I don’t have any idea about the meaning of its founder or any other details,” she shrugged. Meanwhile we reached the food store and Michelle took a shopping basket customized for wheelchairs; it could be put onto the chair and on my lap. It was a comfortable solution for disabled persons. She wheeled me along the shelves and put the foods into the basket. If I could use my arms, I would be able to use that kind of basket, too. “Michelle, what will we have to dinner? It should be some kind of celebration; the first visit of Thomas and Angie. We could have grilled salmon, for example.” “A good idea, dear. Grilled salmon and vegetable salad are a delicious meal.” “Maybe a bottle of wine?” “Why not? However, take into account that you will pee a lot when you drink alcohol. You might need a diaper change during the dinner.” “I think that Thomas and Angie will understand; Angie needs diapers for sure.” “Okay then,” Michelle wheeled me to the wine shelf and picked a bottle of Chardonnay. I smiled; she seemed to know about wine brands. About half an hour later we arrived at home. Michelle ushered me to the kitchen and unloaded the shopping. “Well, time to prepare lunch, dear. Do you need a clean diaper before I start?” “I think so,” I replied instantly. My diaper was quite full after the whole morning outside. “Let’s change you then, my little girl,” she teased me as usual and I liked that game a lot. My condition was quite like a baby. Although I was an adult and didn’t accept the true baby role, her comment was somehow cute. Michelle wheeled me to my bedroom, laid me onto the bed and changed my diaper slowly and tenderly. She also redressed me into the home wear, and we returned to the kitchen. She cooked lunch and fed me afterwards. The afternoon was long, and I couldn’t wait until the evening. I watched a TV show but couldn’t focus on it. Michelle watched the show with me, but she left for the kitchen to prepare the dinner. Finally, the bell rang, and Michelle hurried up to answer the door. I could hear Thomas and Angie from the entrance hall, and they appeared in the doorframe a minute later. “Welcome,” I smiled at them widely and drove the wheelchair towards Angie and stopped next to her. “Thanks, Emily,” she smiled back and wheeled herself towards the table. “Take place,” Michelle turned to Thomas. He sat down and so did Michelle. I drove to the table as well and stopped near Michelle, so she could feed me. “Michelle, you are a good cook indeed; the salmon is delicious,” Angie smiled at Michelle after the very first bite and Thomas nodded. They probably didn’t have many opportunities to that kind of luxurious meal; salmon was quite expensive. I almost asked Angie, but I bit my lip; it would be impolite. Michelle opened the wine bottle and poured the wine into four cups. We had a toast to the lucky coincidence that led me and Michelle to the library. After dinner we continued the talk from the morning. I didn’t remember my past and neither did Michelle. What about Thomas and Angie? “Angie, I don’t remember my parents or anything else from my past and neither does Michelle. What about you and your brother?” I was quite curious about her answer. “Well, I don’t remember the accident, but it isn’t surprising,” Angie shrugged, “The doctors explained me about amnesia after stressful experience.” “Okay but you should remember your past before the accident, shouldn’t you?” “Yeah … wait … I can’t recall any memories either,” Angie looked confused. “How is it possible?” Thomas interjected, “I also can’t remember anything.” “Hey! Has anybody had a dream like I had?” If I had a strange dream, what about the others? Michelle, Angie and Thomas shook their heads. Before the next questions I felt a stream of pee hitting my diaper. I wasn’t changed since lunch and Michelle was busy before dinner. Now my diaper was soaked. “Michelle?” I turned to her and she nodded. “Excuse us for a short moment,” she turned to Thomas and Angie and Angie grinned. “Did the wine pass your body that quickly? Don’t worry; it happens to me too,” she giggled and reached between her legs and looked at Thomas. “Well, we both need clean diapers,” I laughed, and Angie joined me. “Thomas, take Angie to the guest room. There is a comfortable couch there,” Michelle pointed at the door to the guest room and wheeled me to the bedroom. After our diaper changes we talked more about the strange dream but didn’t find any explanation. The evening was quite pleasant, and we planned more common activity. When Thomas and Angie left and Michelle prepared me fore the night, I was getting curious about my upcoming dreams. I couldn’t fall asleep out of excitement and curiosity.

Prologue: Cold, dark and fear. What happened to me? I opened my eyes but couldn’t see anything. The cold was bone-chilling; I was lying on a hard and cold surface. Was it stone? “Emily, you can’t stay here; you will freeze,” I told to myself and tried to stand up. However, my body refused to respond. My legs and arms rested on the cold surface and my head was the only part of my body that obeyed my command and lifted from the surface. Seconds later three small flames appeared above my head, and I could see a small round room looking like a dungeon. The surface I was lying on was the stone floor and I noticed several doors on the perimeter wall. The burning torches were located between the doors. I didn’t have any idea where I was and how I got there. I didn’t recognize the room but there was a vague memory deep in my mind as if I had been here long ago. There was another mystery; why my body refused to react to my commands? Was I paralyzed? My thread of thoughts was interrupted by a familiar feeling; my bladder was getting full. To my utter terror I realized I couldn’t stand up and relieve myself. All I could do was clenching my muscles and call for help. “HEEEEEELP!” my voice echoed in the small stone dungeon but there was no reply at all. The attempt to clench my muscles failed and I felt the hot urine on my crotch and legs. At that moment one of the doors opened and an unknown force pulled my limp body to it. I was flying through the door and heard it slam loudly. Part 1 I opened my eyes and needed a minute or two to realize I had been dreaming. I was lying in my bed; a special anti-bedsore one. My body was paralyzed after overcoming polio earlier in the past; surprisingly I didn’t remember it. “Good morning, Emily. How did you sleep?” my caretaker Michelle opened the door and walked over to my bed. She was a very nice woman, about 10 years older than me but she was like my mother for me. “Morning, Michelle,” I smiled at her and paused when the breathing stimulator made me inhale, “I slept well but I had a very strange dream.” “Nice, tell me about it, but let’s take care of you first,” she leaned down and removed the blanket. The stench of urine spread across the room. My diaper was soaked as usual. I couldn’t control my bladder and bowels. “Let’s setup the breathing rate first,” she switched the stimulator to the DAY mode, and I felt my breathing getting quicker. Fortunately, I had a breathing stimulator with implanted electrodes in my chest muscles that controlled my breathing. It was much better than the older breathing machines. “Now you need a clean diapee,” she always used the childish word, but I wasn’t angry at her. It was somehow cute. Michelle untapped the soggy garment and revealed my shaved crotch. She shaved it regularly to keep my hygiene and avoid the diaper rash. She took the wet wipe and started cleaning me. I liked the cleaning; it was very pleasant, and I closed my eyes. Michelle knew it and she rubbed my sensitive parts a bit more than necessary. I was getting a little aroused and Michelle knew about it. However, I didn’t have the courage to ask her for more. When she finished changing my diaper, she took off my nightshirt and dressed me into a comfortable home wear and lifted me into my wheelchair. “Let’s have your breakfast, dear,” she smiled, and I moved my head to the wheelchair controller and drove off towards the kitchen. The smell of eggs and bacon was spreading across the room. Michelle sat down next to me and commenced feeding me. I opened my mouth just like a small baby and ate my portion slowly, bite by bite. “Tell me about the dream, dear,” she turned to me when we finished, and she cleaned up the dishes. “It was quite strange, Michelle. I was lying on the ground in a stone cave and there were doors around the cave. All of sudden one door opened, and I was pulled towards it. As the door closed behind me, I woke up.” “This is strange indeed. It’s been a dream only but still unusual. What if we looked at a dream book?” “What? A dream book? Do you believe in that stuff, Michelle?” “Emily, we don’t have to take it serious. At least we can have fun,” she laughed, and I joined her. After all, a little fun couldn’t hurt. “Okay but there is no dream book in my bookshelves. What if we went to a bookstore and found a dream book there?” “A good idea for a trip. However, we don’t need to buy the book; there is a local library nearby and we can borrow and read it. Let’s redress you and we can go. The library is close, so we don’t need to drive. I can wheel you there not to waste the battery energy.” Michelle wheeled me back to my bedroom and put me back onto my bed. She took of my pants and T-shirt and revealed the wet diaper. I had peed after the breakfast. “Well, you should make a poopie before we leave,” she massaged my tummy tenderly and I felt a mass of poop filling the back of my diaper. I couldn’t push and needed help for the number 2. Michelle put a protection sheet under my bottom and opened the messy package between my legs. She cleaned me thoroughly and I closed my eyes. Despite the terrible smell I liked the cleaning process very much. After the diaper change Michelle put tights and dress on me; I still wanted to look pretty. She lifted me into the wheelchair and pushed me slowly out of the house and towards the local library. That visit was my first one and I was getting curious about it. The library was a small building near our park. There were few people inside most of the time and the librarian was a nice young man. As I asked him for a dream book, he looked surprised. “Miss, are you serious? I don’t remember when somebody asked me for a dream book for the last time,” he smiled at me and seemed to be amused by my request. “Of course, I am, but I’m not ready to believe everything I’d find there,” I repaid his comment and he laughed shortly. “Okay then. Wait a moment,” he turned away and walked over to the big shelves. Five minutes later he returned. “Would you like to read it here or would you like to borrow it?” “I think I will read it here. I’ve had only one dream that requires an explanation,” I smiled back. He passed the book to Michelle and she wheeled me to a small table where I could see the pages; she opened the book and browsed the pages to find a match. “This is a hit; read,” she put the book onto the table, and I read: “Cave with doors – you can make a decision and the doors are your options.” “Oh, what does it mean?” I turned my head to Michelle and looked at her as if I expected an answer. However, she looked confused and shook her head. “Sorry, miss, but you remind me of my sister,” the young librarian’s voice sounded behind my back. “How so?” “She is also wheelchair bound and I have to take care of her. Our parents died at a car crash and she broke her backbone. Fortunately, I wasn’t hurt seriously and I’m her only family. She is a clever girl and I imagined her doing the same you are just now.” “Does she have strange dreams?” “I don’t know but she likes to do crazy things for fun; she always smiles and keeps good mood.” “Nice,” I smiled at him, “anyway we have found something that we don’t understand at all.” “Well, consider it fun then,” he laughed again and turned away when a girl sitting on a wheelchair emerged from behind the shelves. “Thomas, can you give me …” she stopped in the middle of the sentence when she noticed me, “oh sorry; you are busy.” “No sis, I was only talking to our client. What do you need?” “Oh, that can wait,” she wheeled towards my wheelchair, “Miss, you are new here, aren’t you?” “Yeah, I am,” I smiled at her, “Nice to meet you. My name is Emily, and this is my caretaker, Michelle.” “Nice to meet you, too. My name is Angie,” she stretched her arm but stopped and retracted it when she noticed my limp arms on the chair rests, “Sorry, Miss Emily.” “No problem and call me Emily only please. Your brother has told me about you already. Can I ask you what you are doing here?” “Sure. I’m learning. I’d like to become an IT expert, but I can’t attend a regular school. Thomas takes care of me here and I spend my days reading books. What about you?” “I had a strange dream last night and now we read a dream book.” “Really?” she laughed, “This is fun. What did you learn?” Michelle showed her the article about my dream and Angie stopped laughing and her face got serious. “This is very interesting even if it looks crazy. Emily, do you know about some options you can choose of?” “No idea, Angie. What could I choose? A food for dinner? My clothes? I don’t think the dream was about it.” “I don’t know. Speaking about dinner; what if you visited us tonight? Thomas said you were all alone. We are all alone, too. Michelle, could you arrange it?” “Of course, dear,” Michelle smiled. “How so? Don’t you have any family?” Angie got curious and I was confused suddenly. “No, I don’t … I don’t remember any family.” “Oh, this is odd. What happened to you? Why are you paralyzed? “It was polio, but I also don’t remember when and where.” “Polio? I don’t know about an amnesia as a polio consequence. In either case, your parents or siblings would have found you and remind you of your past.” “I don’t know, Angie; this is … a mystery.” “Okay, we can think of it tonight after dinner,” she smiled at me. “See you later,” she wheeled back to the shelves and Thomas followed her. “Well, let’s go shopping for the dinner,” I turned to Michelle and she put the dream book back onto the counter and wheeled me out of the library.

Final: Esther and Susan entered the changing room and crawled onto changing tables. The lady was waiting there and she walked over to Susan and pulled down her tights and rubber pants. “Oh, sweetheart, your diapee is soaked. Let’s deal with it quickly,” she cleaned Susan’s crotch and put a clean diaper on her. It wasn’t as thick as the former one but it was still soft and pleasant. When she was diapered and redressed, Susan jumped down but didn’t leave the room and waited for Esther. When they left the changing room, they encountered Ellen. “Susie, I wanted to ask you an important question. Do you remember your past?” Ellen turned to Susan. “Yeah, I do, even if I’d like to forget it. Why are you asking me?” “Susie, you have been regressed, along with more people but I haven’t noticed any missing persons lately. How is it possible? Does nobody miss them?” “Ellen, she’s already told me,” Esther interjected. “I’ve told her already,” Susan sighed, “I was a criminal in my former life and I was sentenced to death. I’m quite sure they faked my death.” “Well, this is an option but the death sentences are not as frequent as, for example, in China. The army needs another source of non-missing people,” Ellen shook her head. “Right, Ellen. Unfortunately, there are many people that go missing and nobody would look for them. What about illegal immigrants or homelesses?” “Right, Susie; we probably won’t find them,” Ellen sighed. “Ellen, how does their life change?” A crazy idea hit Susan, “It is really crazy but the regression and change into mindless zombies improves their life. They have accommodation, a regular diet and they aren’t aware of their fate.” “Well, and the failures are offered for adoption. It’s crazy but it is a win-win solution.” “My life has improved indeed,” Susan laughed, “I have a loving family. Anyway I’m curious about my roommates at the university.” “I don’t know, Susie. Maybe they will come here later if their adoptive parents know about the Happy Children.” “I guess they will know. The former adoptive parents are the ideal subject of blackmail and they probably would accept a legal adoption.” “Right, Susie. Let’s wait,” Ellen smiled at Susan, “Excuse me now. Go to the working room and try to learn a bit until your mom arrives.” “What should I learn first?” Susan got curious about the educational programs. “Let’s start with general subjects like English or Math. You will need them for every program.” Susan nodded and headed towards the working room. Esther followed her and she set up a computer for Susan. “Susie, go ahead and I’ll finish some accounting meanwhile,” Esther sat down and switched on her computer. Time passed quickly and Susan was surprised when Rosemary leaned over her and kissed her forehead. “Sweetheart, mommy will take you home.” “Okay, let me finish the Math lesson and we can go,” Susan nodded and focused on learning. Ten minutes later she turned to Rosemary: “Mommy, all done.” “Well, let’s check your diaper and we can go home,” Rosemary reached between Susan’s legs, “You are all wet and this is a cloth diaper. Why are you wearing it?” “Mommy, cloth diapers are used here at the daycare and they are soft and comfortable. I’d like to wear them at home, too.” “Susie, this isn’t a good idea but if you don’t mind being wet, you can wear them. I’ll order a package.” “Mommy, I don’t know why but I like them.” “Well,” Rosemary shook her head, “I don’t mind it at home but you should wear disposables outside so we don’t have to carry the dirty diapers with us.” Susan sighed but she realized Rosemary was right. It would be uncomfortable to carry the clean diapers and the dirty ones, particularly on a longer trip. She stepped forward and led Rosemary to the changing room, lay down on a changing table and spread her legs in anticipation. Rosemary pulled down Susan’s tights and rubber pants and revealed the soaked diaper. SHe removed the diaper and cleaned Susan’s diaper area thoroughly. After that she powdered and diapered her little girl and kissed her forehead. “Sweetheart, let’s go home.” Susan jumped down from the changing table, took Rosemary at hand and smiled at her. “Mommy, I’m looking forward to my new life very much. I’ll do my best to study and help the daycare and other children.” Epilogue: The little Susan stayed an eternal toddler just like Mike and Ellen. Rosemary was the happiest mommy in the world even though Susan never grew up and needed diapers. Steven loved his little sister and took care of her whenever possible. Later he fell in love and his girlfriend also loved the little girl. When Steven married, he promised Rosemary to adopt Susan after her death. Ellen kept writing the regular reports for about a year until they returned as undeliverable. Something happened to the project but Ellen wasn’t too curious and stopped plainly. Susan studied IT and she became a good programmer just like Mike. Mike established a small software company and they developed software tools for the regressed children.