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That definitely makes some sense to me. I have seen that in older members as well. Of diapers and the desires that come with them...I will say - - I have come a long way with the guilt and shame with that over the last 15 years (I'm in my mid twenties), so it make sense that as time progresses, so does one's acceptance of these things. I have had several therapists over the years, some more helpful in this regard than others. It wasn't until I was 21 that I finally realized, "shit, I'm just gonna do what I want to do, whenever I want to do it." And in that way, things have gotten better. It's been over a year since threw out ("purged") a package of diapers (which has also saved me a bunch of dough). However, there are times I simply don't want anything to do with it because I don't feel like it.... in the same way that sometimes a beer feels great, and sometimes I'd rather just have a soda. One of my concerns is simply that if I do become a bedwetter (I don't want full-blown anyways), it will be a source of complication with staying places, going away, and most significantly, with dating. I understand that the overall point is kind of just that I have to learn to accept it completely. I've dated a bunch of girls over the years and only shared with a couple, and in all cases it went well. I guess I'm just interested in hearing how people's experiences have been. Anyways, I digress. Anyone else have any experience with dating, etc and how this has been?

I've long been a lurker on the board. Long, long time. Anyways, I've recently....as in today...decided to participate a little bit more. I had the same thought a couple month ago and posted a short story. Think I took it down. Can't remember. Shame spiral, you know the drill... Anyways, I'm writing because I have on and off been making myself try to wet the bed. The point of my story? I'm conflicted about the whole situation. Obviously the feeling of having no control, having to wear diapers because I wet the bed is appealing for reasons most people on this board can understand. Also, the idea of being with someone who accepts my problems and will treat me the same irregardless is a big turn-on. I have had two relationships in the past where diapers came into play. In the latter the other person ended up being as "submissive" as I, and wetting the bed (not on purpose) herself, and it was a turn-on, but it is difficult for both people to play both parts. Anyways, I have had one accident in the last several months. I had pneumonia and I had just laid in bed to have a nap, and I woke up while I was wetting my boxers. Not sure what the whole point of this post is. I guess I'm just saying hello. In viewing this board for the last several years I have found that people are very kind, accepting and open. Since my last relationship (which heavily involved diapers with both of us) ended, and I moved to a new city and no longer see the same therapist (with whom I discussed the issue at great length), I am pretty much now alone with the whole situation... Not looking to discuss from a sexual point of view, just looking for support. The point of the matter is that I have been depressed and using diapers more, and have tried to train myself (in the different way people are probably familiar with) to wet the bed, but at the same time I do not want to have this problem as I know it will get in the way of a lot of things. CONFLICT. Anyways, that's my rant. You can respond or PM me. Again, having a hard time and just looking for support or advice. -M

BlakeJordan-- curious, any sexual side effects, i.e. difficulty with orgasm, erections etc?