If you could start over...

[DailyDi]

If you could start over...

[astrodiaper]

I can't help but think of the lyrics from a Trans Siberian Orchestra song, (This is Who You Are)

"Change one note
Change one line
Nothing's going to be the same
Change one loss
Change one cut
Everything is re-arranged"

Having said that, I probably wouldn't change the DL part of me, but there are things that happened that should not have.  I would likely have little to no control over that one.  One thing that does come to mind is to get myself into the mindset as a kid, that I wasn't dumb, stupid, or r*******.  I have come to the conclusion that I wasn't stupid in school; I just didn't care. Maybe things would be different then?

[Goodnitesboi]

A chronic bedwetter. At least I could wear diapers/pull ups during the night. Wearing them full time and having to wear to school not ideal. Although I would wear all the time during summer vacation and other school breaks. 

[Phiip Burnell]

I was class valedictorian so I always wanted to know what it was like being normal like you the rest of you guys. I get so tired running my own business and getting smarter every day. 

[le Hollandais]

To this day, I still can't figure out what other folk mean when they use the word "normal." I ticked that mostly because I didn't like the other options. I've come to the realization that there are some peripherals that I could have changed; e.g. my college major, the girl I dated, that sort of thing. Had I made different choices there, I'd still be doing what I'm doing today only with a different degree & possibly a different wife. But I'd still be the same.

[CampersPampers1]

1 hour ago, Phiip Burnell said:

I was class valedictorian so I always wanted to know what it was like being normal like you the rest of you guys. I get so tired running my own business and getting smarter every day. 

Ditto. I wish I could do just enough at my job, get paid, and enjoy life like most of you. But, when employers found me more capable, they always rode that advantage to the breaking point while my coworkers got to cruise at their pace. After 15 years of that, I started my own business a few years ago. Neither were as lucrative compared to if I had just been normal and watched someone else being the company workhorse.

I also wish my diaper fetish away. It stunts my confidence and feeling of self worth, and is part of why I accepted people taking advantage of my generosity and talents.

[rusty pins]

I consider myself normal, maybe way above when i compare myself to others but not quite as "up there" as some of my peers who are CEO or upper management.  My bedwetting until almost age 6 was beyond my control, but if I had a chance with my life, I would not want to have a diaper fetish.  I do enjoy my diapers but only because of the fetish I developed as a young bedwetting boy who had to wear diapers at night.  Had it not been the case, I wouldn't have developed a diaper fetish and I would be happy not to have a "thing" for diapers.

[FretaBWet]

I put other for my vote. I was a chronic bed wetter until just before I turned 18. It wasn't the bed wetting that was the problem, it was my reaction to it that I would want to change. I had no self esteem so I was bullied a lot. I got terrible grades in school even though I was capable of doing much better. My parents didn't really believe in therapy as that would mean I was broken so I never got the help to fix my self esteem issues.

Hugs,

Freta

[oznl]

I put “other” because to be honest, I’d rather not have it.

My philosophy and strategy today with respect to the diaper thing is shaped by my realisation that I CAN’T change it and fighting it just makes me unhappier.

Of course, this leaves the ineffable question as to whether WITHOUT this diaper thing, I would have grown up with some alternate dysfunction that might be far worse?   I might be languishing in jail thinking to myself "If only I had a simple diaper fetish instead of a drug-necessitated crime addiction..."

If I could start over?  I would have far more actively participated in my own education and not lazily exploited a certain degree of parental indifference.  I will go to my grave firmly believing that I did not realise my own full potential and at the end of the day, that’s my fault.

[Rachael-Little]

If I could start over I would be a girl of course , diapers would just be secondary 

[BBoy]

I'm a lifelong DL with no continence issue. If I could change the past and never have been DL, I would say HELL YES!

Over a lifetime it has caused me low self-esteem, inability to have relationships which has led me to be asextual and in part has probably led to depression. 

If I could I would in a second. Much like drugs (cannabis), in the moment diapers are awesome but have caused other long term problems for me.

[tigercub59]

As I have enjoyed my life as a male, I would like to come back as a female with occasional bouts of incontinence especially in the simmer as I wouldn't want to have to wear diapers to school.

[astrodiaper]

12 hours ago, BBoy said:

I'm a lifelong DL with no continence issue. If I could change the past and never have been DL, I would say HELL YES!

Over a lifetime it has caused me low self-esteem, inability to have relationships which has led me to be asextual and in part has probably led to depression. 

If I could I would in a second. Much like drugs (cannabis), in the moment diapers are awesome but have caused other long term problems for me.

I'm with you. Being a DL, and having been found out at an earlier age was not fun and did affect me a bit.  For me though, my depression and how I view myself is a tangled web, is it my DL tendencies, is it the autism, is it being picked on since 3rd grade, is it something from earlier on? I believe that there are some things that happened to me at an early age that if they hadn't happened, or something would have been done to stop it, then I don't think this would be a question because I wouldn't be here.  Same with the asexual stuff, It's not just one thing, but a whole lot of things that happened growing up. 

[dlnoir]

The question is pretty straight forward “if you could start over”. If starting over also means you will not have the desire to wear diapers, well, I voted to be normal notwithstanding being normal is very subjective. To me it is has never been a conscious choice to wear and use diapers, I have had the desire to wear and use them from a very, very early age. I came to accept these desires over the years and frankly nowadays I live my life as if I were incontinent. I wear diapers 24/7 and use a stent. But honestly the stress it gave me and always feeling like some sort of freak just isn’t worth it. I found out I wasn’t the only one with these feelings when I was well in my thirties. Up until then I always thought is was some sort of sick perverted weirdo.

  

[liljim57]

I think I would still like wearing diapers off and on. But I would like to change my being more out going than I was and study more.